I want...
...To live in a cute 2 bedroom house with Russell in Steelville...oh, and a pet puppy doggy.
We would have our nice bedroom with our cozy bed and blankets, and a computer room for like, all 4 of our computers, hahaha...
It'd be kept all neat and tidy all the time because that's the way I want it. I'll clean and keep things organized and make it all nice and pretty for people to come over and be like "hey, nice place, guys..." And it will rock.
I want a nice yard with pretty trees and stuff to walk around in just for the hell of it and a porch to hang out on and be cool, lol.
I finally want my shelves that hang up high on the wall near the ceiling and follow the walls all the way around the room so I could put my dolphins on... I want my big book shelf covered in all of my Dean Koontz books and Criminal Law books and whatever other books we might have... Books are awesome to have around.
I want to have some type of neat little clerical or secretary job... Even if it's so much as front desk at a motel... Or work at Domino's in Cuba. I would still love working at Domino's... Just not here in Rolla anymore. So having two jobs would be cool. Domino's and then something awesome that I want.
I want to also go to school online... I'll pick one and finalize my plans with that later. But I know I want to do it online.
I think living with Russell would be awesome. We have such great personalities, and even though we've only been really "together" for like a week, we both know that this is going to be a lasting relationship, and it's what we both want. I think it would be an awesome experience, and we would both make each other super happy.
I want to be able to come home to him after work, and cook him dinner... Give him a back massage after a long day. I want to be the typical "housewife" type of girlfriend... cook and clean, and all that good stuff. I actually enjoy that. I want to just cuddle up and watch movies, and Russell's crazy documentaries and stuff. It would be good stuff.
I think by living with Russell, I will continue to learn more things not only about him, but about random things in general... Because he is all about learning, and even if I don't always grasp onto everything he tells me, it's cool to discover certain new things from time to time.
I want to be able for Russell to have his Saturday times to spend with Drew like they recently planned, and then whatever other plans come up, I want him to be able to go hang out with friends... And then I want to be able to come to Rolla and have Jennifer and Alex time. I want Sundays to be mine and Russell's day to just go do something, even if it's as much as staying at home and cuddling up to watch Star Trek, or me cooking him a special dinner...heh... As well as forcing myself to wake up and go to church, because I not only need to, but I know I want to... And it would be a good experience to do that together.
I think I've learned a lot by my first experience of living with a boyfriend. Beforehand, I really thought that I would make a good live-in girlfriend. And honestly, not to brag, but I believe I did... for the beginning, for the most part... But then I came to realize there were some things I needed to change in order to make things go a little smoother, and to make both people maintain a sense of happiness about living together. Heh... So yeah, I had my faults, as we all do. But I did begin to change the things I needed to, and since then, and since we had moved out from living together.. I know the aspects that I needed to work on, and I've learned new things about myself the past several months, and have formed new opinions on certain issues that will help me deal with these changes easier.. Making myself, what I believe to be, once again, a good live-in girlfriend, heh. I've got the good aspects down... I'm great at compromising, and I'm not controlling. I believe I used to be a bit too controlling over some issues, but I changed that quickly before, and now I think I'm even more easy going than I was after that change was originally made. Not to mention, I'm just a giving person... I'm all about the waiting on my boyfriend, cooking dinner and cleaning, and back massages and stuff. And him time. Russell just wants to play some Zelda and drink some beer, so be it. I'll curl up on the couch with a Dean Koontz book or write some poetry.
I look forward to just going out to handle day to day tasks together. I want to really know what it would be like to have Russell with me during certain times. I want to just pick up and do something spontaneous and simple and fun every now and then... Like "hey, it's nice outside, let's go for a walk in the park!" Sweet ass. Good stuff. And Russ and I are both the types of people who would enjoy doing just that.
The number one thing I think I look forward to is to fall asleep in his arms every night. It feels so good to have him there with me. I feel safe, I feel comforted. I just feel loved and needed.
I have these truly overwhelming feelings and emotions for him, and it seems near impossible to really fully express myself to him in any kind of words or actions without being able to have him there. I think living together would give me that chance to show him this love and affection I hold for him.
Well, to end this now, I'd just like to put it down in writing that I think I finally know what it feels like to love someone *unconditionally.*
We would have our nice bedroom with our cozy bed and blankets, and a computer room for like, all 4 of our computers, hahaha...
It'd be kept all neat and tidy all the time because that's the way I want it. I'll clean and keep things organized and make it all nice and pretty for people to come over and be like "hey, nice place, guys..." And it will rock.
I want a nice yard with pretty trees and stuff to walk around in just for the hell of it and a porch to hang out on and be cool, lol.
I finally want my shelves that hang up high on the wall near the ceiling and follow the walls all the way around the room so I could put my dolphins on... I want my big book shelf covered in all of my Dean Koontz books and Criminal Law books and whatever other books we might have... Books are awesome to have around.
I want to have some type of neat little clerical or secretary job... Even if it's so much as front desk at a motel... Or work at Domino's in Cuba. I would still love working at Domino's... Just not here in Rolla anymore. So having two jobs would be cool. Domino's and then something awesome that I want.
I want to also go to school online... I'll pick one and finalize my plans with that later. But I know I want to do it online.
I think living with Russell would be awesome. We have such great personalities, and even though we've only been really "together" for like a week, we both know that this is going to be a lasting relationship, and it's what we both want. I think it would be an awesome experience, and we would both make each other super happy.
I want to be able to come home to him after work, and cook him dinner... Give him a back massage after a long day. I want to be the typical "housewife" type of girlfriend... cook and clean, and all that good stuff. I actually enjoy that. I want to just cuddle up and watch movies, and Russell's crazy documentaries and stuff. It would be good stuff.
I think by living with Russell, I will continue to learn more things not only about him, but about random things in general... Because he is all about learning, and even if I don't always grasp onto everything he tells me, it's cool to discover certain new things from time to time.
I want to be able for Russell to have his Saturday times to spend with Drew like they recently planned, and then whatever other plans come up, I want him to be able to go hang out with friends... And then I want to be able to come to Rolla and have Jennifer and Alex time. I want Sundays to be mine and Russell's day to just go do something, even if it's as much as staying at home and cuddling up to watch Star Trek, or me cooking him a special dinner...heh... As well as forcing myself to wake up and go to church, because I not only need to, but I know I want to... And it would be a good experience to do that together.
I think I've learned a lot by my first experience of living with a boyfriend. Beforehand, I really thought that I would make a good live-in girlfriend. And honestly, not to brag, but I believe I did... for the beginning, for the most part... But then I came to realize there were some things I needed to change in order to make things go a little smoother, and to make both people maintain a sense of happiness about living together. Heh... So yeah, I had my faults, as we all do. But I did begin to change the things I needed to, and since then, and since we had moved out from living together.. I know the aspects that I needed to work on, and I've learned new things about myself the past several months, and have formed new opinions on certain issues that will help me deal with these changes easier.. Making myself, what I believe to be, once again, a good live-in girlfriend, heh. I've got the good aspects down... I'm great at compromising, and I'm not controlling. I believe I used to be a bit too controlling over some issues, but I changed that quickly before, and now I think I'm even more easy going than I was after that change was originally made. Not to mention, I'm just a giving person... I'm all about the waiting on my boyfriend, cooking dinner and cleaning, and back massages and stuff. And him time. Russell just wants to play some Zelda and drink some beer, so be it. I'll curl up on the couch with a Dean Koontz book or write some poetry.
I look forward to just going out to handle day to day tasks together. I want to really know what it would be like to have Russell with me during certain times. I want to just pick up and do something spontaneous and simple and fun every now and then... Like "hey, it's nice outside, let's go for a walk in the park!" Sweet ass. Good stuff. And Russ and I are both the types of people who would enjoy doing just that.
The number one thing I think I look forward to is to fall asleep in his arms every night. It feels so good to have him there with me. I feel safe, I feel comforted. I just feel loved and needed.
I have these truly overwhelming feelings and emotions for him, and it seems near impossible to really fully express myself to him in any kind of words or actions without being able to have him there. I think living together would give me that chance to show him this love and affection I hold for him.
Well, to end this now, I'd just like to put it down in writing that I think I finally know what it feels like to love someone *unconditionally.*