May 14, 2006 15:14
wow. so i went with mom yesterday to st louis and stuff to see my grandma for mothers day and saw steven for a bit... and whatever. thats not even a subject worth touching right now. anyway.. as for my grandma, she decided it was nececessary to keep important health issues type stuff from her family for the past month and a half... and finally decided to at least tell me and mom. but aunt paula isnt allowed to know cause they are both so stubborn and hateful with eachother that she doesnt want her knowing a damn thing.. and kenny has so much shit on his plate right now she doesnt want him to worry himself sick, and from the stories ive heard with him, thats a good idea right now. i cant even get into the stories with him. they are too sad and unbelievable and scary and stuff. i just... wow. anyway, so im pretty upset and torn apart over this whole family stuff. My grandma is on the verge of *heaven forbid* death, my brother is *heaven forbid* attempting suicide and his so called wanna be "family" isnt doing anything about it but saying "stop that" , and my mom is moving to god damn mississippi. fuck this bullshit. at least i have jennifer.