I think I am back in 2nd grade..
I haven't felt like this in a long time. Like a little girl with her first crush. I seem to have a loss for words. It is almost as if I am sick, when he is around I can't eat, all I can do is run thoughts through my head about him. I don't even know if he knows I exist. Well he knows who I am, and we've had short conversation and smiles, but is that all I am, just a few words exchanged and a friendly smile. I wish I could just pull myself together and be that confident person. It came so naturally but it is so natural to be at a loss of words with him. He's near perfect. This is all so new to me. How do you tell someone, or show someone all of this without freaking them out. I feel that if I open my mouth it will be word vomit, just splattering my heart and guts on the pavement. As nerve wrecking as this feeling is..I kind of like it.