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So i talked to my mother today. Didnt go well, she's going through another phase. So now the story is im as stupid as my father, i put her in financial debt, and i play a big role on her stress. Its amazing how this happens when all i did was to call her to see how she was doing and ask about the concert. Im sick of this. Ive had to deal with her shit for so long, with her placing her burdens on me. Im sick of messages on my phone on how my family sucks, how i suck, how i did something wrong. I was doing so well without it. So well trying to forget memories of her kicking me out of her and having me sleep at my grandmas in fear of her, of her throwing things at me, tossing me against walls, and its amazing how one phone call can flash all those things i was trying to forget into my head, when i didnt do anything to her. I didnt do anything but love her and respect her. Not once have i raised my voice to her not once have i dont anything. Yet im her little play toy. Its too hard for me to handle. Stowing away emotions caused by her and now they are so hard to control.