u dont know how sorry i am :(

Aug 28, 2004 11:06

Before i start i wana tell u that i dont have any sort of love for her minus a brother sister bond.. so.. this is another story about a girl. And she doesnt know just how much she means to so many of us, she touches our lives alot and she knows just wat to say sometimes, but like everyone in this world, the world is not a happy place for her either. I known her for a long time, I know what she likes and what she doesnt like. And latley she had this guy, her boyfriend, and becaus ei know her well, i could see that this guy was definatley not her type, and he just loved her.. but wasnt In love with her. Anyway, she had a bad past but deffinatley not a bqad reputaion, shes the kind of girl u eitehr like or you hate. I know it had ben a long time since me and dona talked real deep and i knew she wouldnt tell me everything but I really wanted to helkp her see who was important in her life.. even if it cost me her friendship in the end, because in truth shes done so much for me that she really desaerves the best, not some border hopper who doesnt kno when 2 give her the space she needs.. so i created a screen name a while back to fuck with poeople, i diecided 2 take it out of the closet one last time, put it to good use. So i crteated, michelle, the perfect best friend, i quickly gained her trust in 30 minutes by being genuine, It was baisically my same exact personality with just a diff font and sn .. I even gave her clues it was me, i said my name so many times, and i typed like me, and i even talked like me, because i felt bad betryaing her trust, but i knew that she wouldnt tell me everything as myself.. so i askeed her questions about whos better me or my friend, and she answered them, prooving that she doesnt like her boyfriend enouph to not answer. In time i think she got that, that i asked her questions a single chick would answer, and she wasnt single but she answered because inside she knows her boyfriend and the right guy. shes scared that shell never find the right guy, but if she stops worriying for now she doesnt need the perfect guy, she can be her age and love the perfect guys at her age, she doesnt need to go on some quest at only 15 to find mr perfect because there is no mr perfect, but one day shell meet her guy, if she hasnt already. All i wanted to say is that i feel so bad betraying her like that, but it was the only way to proove to her what the people aroiund her really mean to her, and i got it, but idk if she hates me fpor doin that.. and if she wants 2 get revenge back on me, ill welcome that cuz i deserve it .. but im sorry .
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