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hey guys..whuts going on? nothing here really. its wednesday night..a beautiful night might i add. lately ive just been in my own lil "cocoon" all depressed and shit for reasons that i know but still dont understand. with that being said, fathers day is coming up sunday, maybe that's why i've been absolutely miserable and all i have done was taken it out on eric, for reasons unknown. i just, i don't know...after talkin to mckenna, she made me realize that the reason why im like this is b/c im scared. im scared b/c i loved my dad and i lost him, and now im beginning to notice how close me and eric really are and its scary cuz i think of losing him. =\ im just so used to seeing him everyday and stuff that NOT seeing him would make it, well, weird. i talked to him about it, he understands. i dono its like im distancing myself from him with no reason to! grr. but anyhow, today i spent 2 hours with him and i feel like i shouldn't keep my mind on the "what if's" ..

tonight im going to see The Terminal with him at 73O. i hope its good, i got a free pass that admits 2. july 10th is coming sooner and sooner, i kant wait to go to aruba! ahh. :)

school is awesome right now. this whole week, all i hafta do is stay for an hour and a half, whether i come in later and leeve early or vice-versa. i love it being like this =) i got a B+ for the term in math, leeving me with an A- for the semester! (which is prettie good) and i got an A- for AP english this semester as well! im so happy..i WANT to get onto NHS, im trying..honestly, i am.

well just thought i'd update. im so tired from the chlorine b/c i went swimming basically all day today. until next time. ...