Yeah, I'm still around
Yes, this is an update out of no where. Im still around just haven't seen the point in writing. Now I feel like I really want to again. I havent cuz first Im on a computer maybe once every month or two. Im hopefully getting a "hand-me-down" laptop cuz I really need something for school. We'll see. If I do have my own computer that wont be slower then a slug, i will probably updat a lot more. Second, cuz I know no one reads this. No one did when I wrote at least twice a day. I do it mostly for myself anyway.
Tonight I realized just trying to talk to and even talking to old friends, I guess thats what Id call them. I dont know. It makes me sad. It brings back memories. Yeah, like highschool ones. Ones that make me cry. Not cuz I miss them but cuz they weren't good and they're always gonna be there to bother me. I think I'm a pro now tho at ignoring bad memories so anyways. Life is full of regret.
Lets see, what is going in my life. While everyone else I know was off at college and enjoying or not enjoying but at least experiencing their first semester of college. I was here where ive always been. Working. Thats my life. Ive seen a few ppl i know here and there and its interesting to see who says hi and who doesnt.
I dropped I think about $1200 so far on school. Thats just getting classes and man I could've used that money for a car. Anyway, I still need books and a ride to school..hmm. PRobably other school supplies but I never get everything I need. We'll see.
Okay I'l just make a list of things that have happened. I'll try to do it from the longest ago to the most recent.
- Settled in at Lady Foot Locker- I Hate Christmas!
- FINALLY got my tongue pierced. It's completely healed and I love it.- Unfortunately my dad found out. Havent been kicked out for good yet.
- Chris and I have been together for 2 & 1/2 years and going on 3 in May.
- Made lots of money, spent it all. Didn't receive ANY financial Aid. Supposedly my parents should be pretty well off but I have no idea where its all going then. Figured out how to go to school all by myself. I think Im an actual student now and can attend but who knows.
- Found a new job through the job placement center at school. A REAL JOB!
- Now I'll have 2 jobs- full & part time and school.
- My car was given to some charity thing- My parents get the money towards tax deductions. Although I dont know what they'll do with it, you could fill a page typed in this font full of the problems it had. Im w/out transportation and its like being at school again, bumming around for rides.
- My father seperated his should some how, its stupid im sure. While on vacation time already so now he's been home for months, I stopped counting. Im slowly dying from lack of being anywhere calm. You wouldnt understand unless you lived here.
- Brett is home for Christmas. Oh yeah- he's 24 and freshman in College right. SO his new girlfriend is 18!! Ugh, this will be interesting. Especially since I predicted it way before he went to school.
- Lindsay has a boyfriend, I cant believe it! She's actually old enuf.
- I actually spent more then a few mintues around Chris's family. I went to Thanksgiving at his Grandparents house out in the middle of nowhere...some where outside Chelsea. Of course, the van broke down that Chris & I drove there and we almost froze to death. Literally- I didnt have feet that night. I think I'll skip Christmas.
- I own an IPOD!! Chris got me the one that plays videos and everything for Christmas! Too bad I dont have a suitable computer to use so it remains completely empty and un- useable. Except when I play solitare.
- Im broke and in debt. My checking account is -$150 or something like that. Did I mention my new job?
Living at home is becoming impossible. My parents make me never want to get married but then make me determined to get married, have no kids, and be the complete opposite of them.
Im not looking forward to Christmas. I've already been told there isnt anything under the tree for me. Except my Ipod, cuz he actually loves me : ) It also doesnt help that I work in the mall.
I think thats about it. If anyone does read this, come see me at work. Its the Westland Mall of course. Im desperate for visitors, Im miserable there.
Comment and say hi too.
I'll try to write more often if possible. I'll definately talk more about the new job and school and stuff later.
I need to meet some real friends. That's what I want from Christmas. Oh and paid for school, and a new place to live so I can actually sleep.
I havent changed much obviously-Im still pretty random when it comes to writing here.