I'm home....again
I have an appointment today around 1:45. My throat still is killing me. Hopefully I'll be okay so I can go to school tomorrow. Anyways, I talked to Zack and Kody last night on the phone. People talking about that me and Zack broke up. It's basically going around all the people we hang out with. I'm guessing Zack thought that one day when I had talked to him was just me telling me something. I mean I was, but how I wanted it to end was me and him still being cool but not going together. Love feels so good, but at the same time it hurts. Then I had talked to Zack. He was all pissed because of the fact that people keep telling me that all he wants is a girlfriend and pussy. If I didn't care I wouldn't have told him about it. But then again, I don't care. I know it sounds retarded but that's just me. And when he was getting off the phone with me he was all pissed. I don't blame him. Shit, I'd be pissed off too if people came up to Zack saying that all I want is a boyfriend and dick. But when he was getting off the phone with me, he had said that he was going to take a shower and talk to me whenever then he hung up on me. But everytime he had said that in the past we were broken up. So now I know that me and Zack are 100% broken up. I mean I really am not trippin over it as much as I thought I was. After last night on the phone with him, I now know for a damn fact that there will never again be another Zack Mazurek and Stephanie Parks. It was never ever meant to be. I mean I told him that I wasn't happy, so what makes us think that there will be another Zack and Stephanie. Me and him aren't cool anymore either. I lost another homeboy. The thing that sucks the most is me saying the three words to him and in the end, we don't want to talk to each other. What can I say. I'm going to keep doing what I do best. And that's being me. I don't need another guy in my life anytime soon. I don't want to try anymore. I'm tired of me looking. So I'm going to be cool wid it. I promise you and my own damn self that there won't be another us. It's straight. Because he does what he does and I'ma keep doing what I'm doing. I'm going to chill with my homegirls and my homeboys. I'm going to go out and do what I do. This is me. Except it or get over it. Because this Stephanie ain't going anywhere anytime soon. You can love me or hate me. If you hate me, don't talk to me, don't talk to me. And I'll do you right back. I'm a better person than I thought I was. But I want Zack to be happy. So do it big.
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