"It's been a while...."
Well i can't say i remember my last entry because yes it has been that long. Alot has happened since the last time i logged in. People, places, everythings in general has changed so much. I have been through so many things since i last wrote to you and i honestly don't know where to begin right now.
*Well why not at the beginning? Well this summer and all the way up to the beginning of school has been one that is very interesting. I've met some of the most wonderful people and have run into some of the worst possible experiences also along the way.
I remember the most distinctly my Andrew, what seemed to be something that could've turned out to be something special ended before it got to go that far. I honestly thought that i had found someone that i could relate to and just all in all have a blast with. Indeed i did, but when you have very busy lives and don't know how to call someone back once in a while, it kind of complicates things. I have to say that meeting Andrew opened me up to so many different thoughts and feelings, he was part of what made me more outgoing than usual and more open to seek the real me.
*What about my good old friends that i work with? Well some of them has since then quit or of course been fired, but i have always seemed to learn some lesson from them not being their anymore for me to depend on for compfort and guidance. Shane my closest guy friend their, now works at another location, and has a girlfriend. He seems very happy and as does she, but something inside me is just waiting for something wrong to happen. Some how Shane seems to have really bad luck that follows him everywhere with girls, so i'm waiting to hear from him one of these days to hear something bad. We don't get to talk that much anymore and i hardly ever get to see him. It hurts to think that someone so caring and close to my heart is not their anymore, out of all of the people that don't work there anymore, i think i would have to say that Shane is the one who devastated me the most. For the first weeks, i honestly was lost without him. He was their for me for anything and was my guardian angel who wanted only the best for me. I'm sure he still feels the same way, but it is difficult to look out for someone when you hardly ever see them or talk to them. But i know that no matter what i will never stop loving that boy, he has been a blessing to me in so many ways.
Aaron, wow, what can i say about him. Aaron is the guy that i knew i never should've gotten involved with. He's the bad boy that you know you wouldn't want your friends to know that you're talking to him. He genually is a great guy and is a red neck at heart ( he even admits to it) but i knew he was headed for trouble some how or another. I always heard about how he was involved with run ins with the cops and all the things your parents try to protect you from. But i think him getting fired/let go and the reasons why i think are by far the stupidest ever (on his behalf of course). I honestly think that if he went to school, and stayed in school other than to play basketball, that he mite have had a chance in going somewhere with his life. Now i dont know what chance he has in doing that. Last i heard, he was in jail if he still isn't as i write this to you. It hurts because so many parts of me just wanted to shake him and tell him to stop the nonsense, but you know boys they will be boys and do the opposite most of the time and thats how he was. I can't say i will forget him though, thats for sure.
**Kyle, what can i say about Kyle"Dallas"? His truck is amazing and i have to say he is one of the cutest red neck boys that lives in Margaret's Walk. He has made me grow up in so many aspects the whole time i've known him. He is a challenge though, because he knows that i've always had a thing for him, but for some reason he likes to play hard to get way to much. But i know him, so he'll get his, because i've figured him out, and i play that game to. But he has to be one of the most interesting people that i know. He is the first person that i've ever been riding with that got pulled over, that is an achievment for me but it was crazy for me. All in all i love that boy to death and i just wanna hug him and kiss him like a teddy bear....a very very tall dedy bear. (lol)
I know all of this has been all about sad and really bad things, but that's what i've been goin through these last few months and i haven't had you to write to about it. But now i feel a sense of freedom.
***i'm really crushed that i haven't found a great guy yet. it sucks being single for this long, don't get me wrong i'm having fun but you know that you want someone there for you ultimately at the end of the day.
*well sadly i don't know what else to say right now. and frankly i'm so freakin tired, so i'm gonna go get some zzzzzz!
PEACE-OUT
*Well why not at the beginning? Well this summer and all the way up to the beginning of school has been one that is very interesting. I've met some of the most wonderful people and have run into some of the worst possible experiences also along the way.
I remember the most distinctly my Andrew, what seemed to be something that could've turned out to be something special ended before it got to go that far. I honestly thought that i had found someone that i could relate to and just all in all have a blast with. Indeed i did, but when you have very busy lives and don't know how to call someone back once in a while, it kind of complicates things. I have to say that meeting Andrew opened me up to so many different thoughts and feelings, he was part of what made me more outgoing than usual and more open to seek the real me.
*What about my good old friends that i work with? Well some of them has since then quit or of course been fired, but i have always seemed to learn some lesson from them not being their anymore for me to depend on for compfort and guidance. Shane my closest guy friend their, now works at another location, and has a girlfriend. He seems very happy and as does she, but something inside me is just waiting for something wrong to happen. Some how Shane seems to have really bad luck that follows him everywhere with girls, so i'm waiting to hear from him one of these days to hear something bad. We don't get to talk that much anymore and i hardly ever get to see him. It hurts to think that someone so caring and close to my heart is not their anymore, out of all of the people that don't work there anymore, i think i would have to say that Shane is the one who devastated me the most. For the first weeks, i honestly was lost without him. He was their for me for anything and was my guardian angel who wanted only the best for me. I'm sure he still feels the same way, but it is difficult to look out for someone when you hardly ever see them or talk to them. But i know that no matter what i will never stop loving that boy, he has been a blessing to me in so many ways.
Aaron, wow, what can i say about him. Aaron is the guy that i knew i never should've gotten involved with. He's the bad boy that you know you wouldn't want your friends to know that you're talking to him. He genually is a great guy and is a red neck at heart ( he even admits to it) but i knew he was headed for trouble some how or another. I always heard about how he was involved with run ins with the cops and all the things your parents try to protect you from. But i think him getting fired/let go and the reasons why i think are by far the stupidest ever (on his behalf of course). I honestly think that if he went to school, and stayed in school other than to play basketball, that he mite have had a chance in going somewhere with his life. Now i dont know what chance he has in doing that. Last i heard, he was in jail if he still isn't as i write this to you. It hurts because so many parts of me just wanted to shake him and tell him to stop the nonsense, but you know boys they will be boys and do the opposite most of the time and thats how he was. I can't say i will forget him though, thats for sure.
**Kyle, what can i say about Kyle"Dallas"? His truck is amazing and i have to say he is one of the cutest red neck boys that lives in Margaret's Walk. He has made me grow up in so many aspects the whole time i've known him. He is a challenge though, because he knows that i've always had a thing for him, but for some reason he likes to play hard to get way to much. But i know him, so he'll get his, because i've figured him out, and i play that game to. But he has to be one of the most interesting people that i know. He is the first person that i've ever been riding with that got pulled over, that is an achievment for me but it was crazy for me. All in all i love that boy to death and i just wanna hug him and kiss him like a teddy bear....a very very tall dedy bear. (lol)
I know all of this has been all about sad and really bad things, but that's what i've been goin through these last few months and i haven't had you to write to about it. But now i feel a sense of freedom.
***i'm really crushed that i haven't found a great guy yet. it sucks being single for this long, don't get me wrong i'm having fun but you know that you want someone there for you ultimately at the end of the day.
*well sadly i don't know what else to say right now. and frankly i'm so freakin tired, so i'm gonna go get some zzzzzz!
PEACE-OUT