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wOw so i havent updated in a while.. my lifes kinda boring i guess lol. Umm... GoOd NeWs - im not moving now... which kinda has it goods and bads to it.. still gonna be stuck at parker ..man o man that sucks! but oh well, gotta suck it up and deal with it.
Alsoooooo I get to go to Texas in two weeks to see my sister!! Gosh im so excited! i miss her so freakin much!!
Umm.. so shaun and I have been doin pretty good.. keepin my head up :) His birthday was yesterday so now hes 19.. lol and im still 16 :(
I've been is this weird mood kinda thing for about a week... i've been stepping back and looking at life, looking at my surroundings and stuff. Been thinking about life in general... what the purpose is... thinking about my life and what i need to do with it, whats best for me... looking at the people who are in my life right now and how they effect who i am as a person.. idk.. weird stuff i guess. The more and more i think about it though, the more and more it makes me want to move further away from certain people, a lot of people... i dont know. I get so confused at my life and who I am... maybe i shouldn't think about it anymore.. certain parts of it just make me want to change some things about myself and my life. I dont know if its a good thing or bad thing... anyway
So this summer hasnt been anything too great... just working mostly.. and hanging out with shaun... wish i could get more beach time in. Man i cant wait until next summer when ill be driving.. since my friends like to kinda go do their own thing.. w/e ...man its times like these that i wish to god i could switch schools and start over.. i feel like theres so much missing from my life that i could try to replace if only i could have a fresh beginning. I guess i gotta wait for two more yrs when i go off to college... man i cant wait!
Well, like i said, my lifes boring for the most part lol... im gonna head to bed.. night :-)
Much love,
michelle