I know i know
I know I'm supposed to be on vacation and all but I've been thinking. Not in a bad way. I'd really like to talk to shaunah and nick though. People I trust. It's funny isn't it. I've tried so hard to not let anybody in but there they are. I have friends and trust to a certain extent but when it comes to trust with everything there are so few. Now I can add one more to that list. Heather. She knows about things that I've only told a select few. I just knew I could trust her with it.~~I know that I want to be with her. And I know that she cares about me at least a little. My mother thinks she cares about me a little more and is too scared to admit it but I assured her that she's delusional. I understand the situation and can accept it. I'm not saying it doesn't suck because it definitely does. But she just got out of a long crappy relationship. People need to adjust. And I decided something today. Even if by some miracle this beautiful creature did want to be with me, I need to take care of myself. She has that great provider instinct and she just wants to help but I can't let her support me. Nobody wants to be with someone that they have to support. I'm not saying that she wants to be with me but hey a girl can hope. God I'm crazy! =) Anyway-me go.
"...and having so much to say..."