eRrr... love? how befuddling. yes. i'm a tard. shuttup.
okay, this is crappy. i cannot sleep. it's almost 3... and there's all this crap in my head. i really wanted to sleep too. i haven't had a decent night's rest since forever it seems. i dunno. i actually really feel like talking to someone right now. but i don't wanna call anyone at this time cuz i don't wanna wake anyone up x[. not that i'm sad or anything, i just... feel like talking to someone.
blah.
so anyways.
i was thinking.
SO WHAT THE HECK IS LOVE ANYWAYS!?
since the dawn of time, no one has been able to give a real, definite answer. and since forever, ppl have spent their whole lives looking for love or true love (or whatever the heck you wanna call it), looking for its meaning, looking for an answer. why is that?! i sure as heck don't know why, do you? all i know is that ever since i can remember, "love" meant finding that ONE person who had the ability to make you the happiest person on earth. isn't it true for the majority of ppl that love is associated with finding that ONE person and then spending the rest of your life with only that ONE? society has really really internalized that idea into us. not that i think it's a bad idea or that it's totally evil of society to have done that or anything. but really. what is love anyways? see, now i'm confused because now i believe that you can love more than once. you can love more than one person. love depends on how the other individual complements you at that certain time in your life. and after that point, isn't love simply just commitment to that person? dedication? loyalty? why is it that we start liking someone because we're attracted to him/her and merely because he or she is in our proximity? of course, i'm simplifying it a lot, but still.. just stick with me here. i'm beginning to think that love is just a fairy tale. honestly. i'm not trying to be cynical or pessimistic or whatever, but think about it. love's a fairy tale because most ppl think that finding love is like.. the best thing ever. everyone gets so hyped up when they think they've found someone. sure, love exists. it's everywhere. it's essential, it's practically the most valued thing in life. what's life without love? don't you hear many ppl say that when you find it, you'll just know? because i know i've said that before. love can be whatever you want to think it is; it can be whatever you settle its meaning to be. okay.. my thoughts are totally scrambled right now. if you're reading this mumbo jumbo, sorry if i've totally lost you. but what i'm trying to say is... love is... not exactly something someone can just define. the beauty of love lies in its mysteriousness. so why does everyone try to define it? stop trying! it's useless. there's no definition. there's no one definitition at least. love is different for everyone. one thing that's for sure though is that it's a mystery. and so if i were to TRY to define it... i would say that love is everything and nothing at the same time.
okay what the heck. lol none of that probably made any sense whatsoever. i think when i read it over later, i'm not gonna know what the hay i was trying to say. hahaha. yes, i'm a loser. and i'm also insane. yes, thanks. alright. hopefully no one else but me is having trouble falling asleep tonight. sleep tight everyone.
blah.
so anyways.
i was thinking.
SO WHAT THE HECK IS LOVE ANYWAYS!?
since the dawn of time, no one has been able to give a real, definite answer. and since forever, ppl have spent their whole lives looking for love or true love (or whatever the heck you wanna call it), looking for its meaning, looking for an answer. why is that?! i sure as heck don't know why, do you? all i know is that ever since i can remember, "love" meant finding that ONE person who had the ability to make you the happiest person on earth. isn't it true for the majority of ppl that love is associated with finding that ONE person and then spending the rest of your life with only that ONE? society has really really internalized that idea into us. not that i think it's a bad idea or that it's totally evil of society to have done that or anything. but really. what is love anyways? see, now i'm confused because now i believe that you can love more than once. you can love more than one person. love depends on how the other individual complements you at that certain time in your life. and after that point, isn't love simply just commitment to that person? dedication? loyalty? why is it that we start liking someone because we're attracted to him/her and merely because he or she is in our proximity? of course, i'm simplifying it a lot, but still.. just stick with me here. i'm beginning to think that love is just a fairy tale. honestly. i'm not trying to be cynical or pessimistic or whatever, but think about it. love's a fairy tale because most ppl think that finding love is like.. the best thing ever. everyone gets so hyped up when they think they've found someone. sure, love exists. it's everywhere. it's essential, it's practically the most valued thing in life. what's life without love? don't you hear many ppl say that when you find it, you'll just know? because i know i've said that before. love can be whatever you want to think it is; it can be whatever you settle its meaning to be. okay.. my thoughts are totally scrambled right now. if you're reading this mumbo jumbo, sorry if i've totally lost you. but what i'm trying to say is... love is... not exactly something someone can just define. the beauty of love lies in its mysteriousness. so why does everyone try to define it? stop trying! it's useless. there's no definition. there's no one definitition at least. love is different for everyone. one thing that's for sure though is that it's a mystery. and so if i were to TRY to define it... i would say that love is everything and nothing at the same time.
okay what the heck. lol none of that probably made any sense whatsoever. i think when i read it over later, i'm not gonna know what the hay i was trying to say. hahaha. yes, i'm a loser. and i'm also insane. yes, thanks. alright. hopefully no one else but me is having trouble falling asleep tonight. sleep tight everyone.