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To anyone who knew Roxie. She's really sick and probably wont make it through the weekend. Actually, probably wont make it through tonight/today. We realized something was wrong on 4th of july weekend and things have been going further and further downhill. At first they thought it was lymphoma (deadly cancer), but the test results came back inconclusive for that. Then they said it was Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever, difficult yet curable disease. Well, we put her on meds for all that. She stopped eating and became emaciated beyond belief. Her breathing is a fast paced pant 24/7. And last night she attempted to turn around and walk a different direction and she collapsed. We rushed her to the ER for animals and they took xrays and did blood work and all that fun stuff that costs a lot of money. X-rays show an almost definate sign of lymphoma in the most progressed state. The doc said no matter what we did she probably wouldnt make it through the next couple of days but he gave her some things to hydrate her and settle her stomach. He didnt look too optimistic when he said that it still could be something different and not this evil cancer from hell. We decided instead of making her stay there all night, we'd take her home and let her sleep there before we took her to the regular vet this morning. Well, heres the thing about this morning. We go in there and shes looking just as bad as usual lately, except for the fact that she wont stand, refuses to walk....I bent down to coax her up and she looked at me with tears in her eyes and kissed me all over my face. (something she hasnt done in a week). Fox picked her up and put her int he car and she instantly laid back down. (she usually wont lay down during car rides). She looked up at me and I reached in and kissed her forehead and told her I'd see her later. She looked up at me with one of those half-ass doggie smiles but you could see the pain. I turned away and didnt look back. It looked like she was saying her goodbyes. We shall see sometime today. Tin Tin on the other hand, kept trying to get Fox and I to take him for a car ride. Or at least play with him. I dont think my little old man will make it if his little girl goes. Anyways.....I'm at work and should stop thinking about all this before I bust out into tears. If you ever loved an animal before in your life, I dont care what religion you are or if you arent religious at all, Pray to whoever you want for Roxie. If she must go, please let her go fast and with the least amount of pain possible.