Nerves... nerves...
Tuesday:
*Finish work at 5:30.
*Take train to Philly.
*Take bus to NYC.
*Meet boys at the apartment (for dinner, unless I have to catch late bus)
*Karaoke at The Blue Room (for a short and early night!)
Wednesday:
*9:30am - Interview at the Wardrobe Union for dressing job on "The Pirate Queen"
*(Panic and call my mom at whatever outcome I feel the interview had)
*Lunch with Jesse
*Travel back to DE
It seems so simple, and yet could be so life-changing. This is the way I should have done it last time... I could have kept so much happiness in my life if I'd done it smarter. If I'd held onto the things I cared most about in my life, instead of letting them go and leaving them behind for an all-too-uncertain future...
Regrets are pointless.
There is only now. There is only the future. I'm hoping for good things. A little money in the pocket. A little car to tool around in again. The ability to afford my life without acrueing any crippling debts. The ability to travel and eat out and go to the movies without the guilt of spending money I don't really have.
This is all financial. The rest of the happiness in my life will have to come from elsewhere... But the money will make many things possible. Living in a 2br apartment with Becky, or even on my own if need be. Freedom to live, do, and travel as I see fit. This job is an open door...
But, again, I fear what I will have to give up here at home. Friends who I can lean on, and who have recently been asking for my support in their lives as well... The echoes and ghosts of love... My CAT. My apartment... now across the hall from dear friends. ONSTAGE theatrical opportunities.
I will more than likely be back in Delaware again. Depending on the run of the show, how happy I am at the show, how much money I can save, and how long the boys are willing to keep me in their apartment again. The earliest I have to DECIDE on anything, location-wise, will be July when my lease at Pinebrook runs up (provided that the show is successful enough to run through the summer).
But it's time. I have to take this chance if it lands in my lap. How can I not? I'm so stuck, career-wise, here. I have no money, no car, and bills left over from the time I spent in NYC last year... Not to mention the school loans which will loom (seemingly) forever.
Something good is coming. I know it. It has to.
~Steph~
*Finish work at 5:30.
*Take train to Philly.
*Take bus to NYC.
*Meet boys at the apartment (for dinner, unless I have to catch late bus)
*Karaoke at The Blue Room (for a short and early night!)
Wednesday:
*9:30am - Interview at the Wardrobe Union for dressing job on "The Pirate Queen"
*(Panic and call my mom at whatever outcome I feel the interview had)
*Lunch with Jesse
*Travel back to DE
It seems so simple, and yet could be so life-changing. This is the way I should have done it last time... I could have kept so much happiness in my life if I'd done it smarter. If I'd held onto the things I cared most about in my life, instead of letting them go and leaving them behind for an all-too-uncertain future...
Regrets are pointless.
There is only now. There is only the future. I'm hoping for good things. A little money in the pocket. A little car to tool around in again. The ability to afford my life without acrueing any crippling debts. The ability to travel and eat out and go to the movies without the guilt of spending money I don't really have.
This is all financial. The rest of the happiness in my life will have to come from elsewhere... But the money will make many things possible. Living in a 2br apartment with Becky, or even on my own if need be. Freedom to live, do, and travel as I see fit. This job is an open door...
But, again, I fear what I will have to give up here at home. Friends who I can lean on, and who have recently been asking for my support in their lives as well... The echoes and ghosts of love... My CAT. My apartment... now across the hall from dear friends. ONSTAGE theatrical opportunities.
I will more than likely be back in Delaware again. Depending on the run of the show, how happy I am at the show, how much money I can save, and how long the boys are willing to keep me in their apartment again. The earliest I have to DECIDE on anything, location-wise, will be July when my lease at Pinebrook runs up (provided that the show is successful enough to run through the summer).
But it's time. I have to take this chance if it lands in my lap. How can I not? I'm so stuck, career-wise, here. I have no money, no car, and bills left over from the time I spent in NYC last year... Not to mention the school loans which will loom (seemingly) forever.
Something good is coming. I know it. It has to.
~Steph~