An Attempt at Being Centered & Grounded...
The ritual last night was really amazing.
I wasn't aware of what *type* of Yule ritual I was getting myself into, but it was incredibly cathartic, and just ridiculously appropriate.
It was more than wonderful to be there with Jenn, Keith, Stacey, & Casey.
I left feeling hopeful for the future, although more than aware of my past.
I need to make some resolutions, but I have a lot more thinking to do.
I also need to get a move on with Holiday gifting. I have ideas for most people, and a little extra time to work on my mom's gift... But little time left for shopping and creating (and getting my damn CARDS out)!
I think, to ease my mind and wallet, that friend-gifts will be given out post-Christmas holiday... But since so many of my friends are of different religious persuasions, I don't think anyone will mind a short delay. I should run into everyone by New Year's at the latest. :)
After the New Year (for which I have NO plans yet... and thinking about how I spent last year, I'd like to come up with something solid, where I'll have support for being "Fun-Stephie" and not relapsing into anything near THAT state of mind again), I will be concentrating on working on audition pieces for AIDA, and on my interview with the people in NYC about "The Pirate Queen."
On the 20th, it will be my 3 year anniversary with FDO, and already the guest-list for performers/alumni cast appearances includes Jenn, Aimee & Andy, and Keith (feat. Stacey & Casey as special guest audience members... lol). :)
Then Urinetown and auditions for "Once On This Island" at the end of the month.
That's thinking too far ahead though. Time to focus on the now. Tomorrow... and the days after that. Everything will come to be as it is meant to be.
I pick up the car to go to Dad's on Friday at noon. I wish I'd made the reservation for a day or two earlier, just so that I could be mobile to zip around and see people, finish up shopping, etc. Meh. But... saving money, right?
Happy Thoughts. Doing my best. Greg fixed the RAM in my computer, so it's running like a dream. Just need that external hard drive now, and I could be set for another few years on this old thing (*crosses fingers*). That's a small happy.
Time to do some Holiday cards and get to sleepytown.
Love to all,
~Steph~
EDIT: Saturday's Horoscope:
Scorpio
"Right now the main puzzle that needs solving is you. It's time to focus those formidable powers of detection on your own heart and mind. What path are you on? Is it the right one for you? Trust in the process."
I wasn't aware of what *type* of Yule ritual I was getting myself into, but it was incredibly cathartic, and just ridiculously appropriate.
It was more than wonderful to be there with Jenn, Keith, Stacey, & Casey.
I left feeling hopeful for the future, although more than aware of my past.
I need to make some resolutions, but I have a lot more thinking to do.
I also need to get a move on with Holiday gifting. I have ideas for most people, and a little extra time to work on my mom's gift... But little time left for shopping and creating (and getting my damn CARDS out)!
I think, to ease my mind and wallet, that friend-gifts will be given out post-Christmas holiday... But since so many of my friends are of different religious persuasions, I don't think anyone will mind a short delay. I should run into everyone by New Year's at the latest. :)
After the New Year (for which I have NO plans yet... and thinking about how I spent last year, I'd like to come up with something solid, where I'll have support for being "Fun-Stephie" and not relapsing into anything near THAT state of mind again), I will be concentrating on working on audition pieces for AIDA, and on my interview with the people in NYC about "The Pirate Queen."
On the 20th, it will be my 3 year anniversary with FDO, and already the guest-list for performers/alumni cast appearances includes Jenn, Aimee & Andy, and Keith (feat. Stacey & Casey as special guest audience members... lol). :)
Then Urinetown and auditions for "Once On This Island" at the end of the month.
That's thinking too far ahead though. Time to focus on the now. Tomorrow... and the days after that. Everything will come to be as it is meant to be.
I pick up the car to go to Dad's on Friday at noon. I wish I'd made the reservation for a day or two earlier, just so that I could be mobile to zip around and see people, finish up shopping, etc. Meh. But... saving money, right?
Happy Thoughts. Doing my best. Greg fixed the RAM in my computer, so it's running like a dream. Just need that external hard drive now, and I could be set for another few years on this old thing (*crosses fingers*). That's a small happy.
Time to do some Holiday cards and get to sleepytown.
Love to all,
~Steph~
EDIT: Saturday's Horoscope:
Scorpio
"Right now the main puzzle that needs solving is you. It's time to focus those formidable powers of detection on your own heart and mind. What path are you on? Is it the right one for you? Trust in the process."