Fuck...again..
Almost done in NY. A week, or just about. My dad still hasnt' given me any money, or gotten me a plane ticket.
Its starting to get to me a bit.
Which part, you ask?
All of it.
I know, he doesn't have loads of money.
But y'know, he kept me here with the promise of paying me for my work, and thus far i've "borrowed" it from him.
Grrr.
the other thing is, I'm starting to heavily question a lot.
LIke, do I want to go out there? do I still want to be with this girl?
In person, talking to her isn't so bad. But online and over the phone...its like pulling fucking teeth.
Yes, she's a nice gal. Yes, she's gotten along with all my friends. YES she's not fucking Rachael. I get it.
I'm glad. Yes, I saw all these qualities that were positives.
But really, did I start dating her for the right reasons or wrong?
I DO like her...but its starting to get under my skin everyone saying "SHE"S SO PERFECT LOL"
She's good. She's not "perfect".
I'm just really nervous
I dont regret anything.
And there are people that need to know that.
Just saying.
I'm afraid of this goign bad. Maybe it'll be as good as hoped for. Idk.
Im tired. G'night all.
Next time I'll have to mention my uncle roger coming over. that was weird
Its starting to get to me a bit.
Which part, you ask?
All of it.
I know, he doesn't have loads of money.
But y'know, he kept me here with the promise of paying me for my work, and thus far i've "borrowed" it from him.
Grrr.
the other thing is, I'm starting to heavily question a lot.
LIke, do I want to go out there? do I still want to be with this girl?
In person, talking to her isn't so bad. But online and over the phone...its like pulling fucking teeth.
Yes, she's a nice gal. Yes, she's gotten along with all my friends. YES she's not fucking Rachael. I get it.
I'm glad. Yes, I saw all these qualities that were positives.
But really, did I start dating her for the right reasons or wrong?
I DO like her...but its starting to get under my skin everyone saying "SHE"S SO PERFECT LOL"
She's good. She's not "perfect".
I'm just really nervous
I dont regret anything.
And there are people that need to know that.
Just saying.
I'm afraid of this goign bad. Maybe it'll be as good as hoped for. Idk.
Im tired. G'night all.
Next time I'll have to mention my uncle roger coming over. that was weird