This isn't doing me any good

[kratoas617]

I'm sitting here at the computer, procrastinating. I'm not doing anything with my life, literally. I'm in a catch 22. I hate living at home, but in order to move out I need a job. But I know the second I get a job all the stresses that come with it will push me to smoking and drinking more, wasting money that I should be saving. That, and living here without a job means I have to put up with both parents. I'm ready to kill my dad. I understand he means well, and he's concerned, but for too long he's tried to control shit. He's either always loved telling me how much he's done in his life (it feels like he's telling me "look what I've done and you haven't!") or trying to make me nervous about my future. He doesn't understand that just because he can't get a job doesn't mean I can't. And I still have the military as an option.

Another thing thats been bother me is the fact that I fall flat on my face when it comes to women.
Don't get me wrong, I can strike up a conversation.

Eh i think the parents are home. I'm gona go.