I feel like i need to write in here more. . .
I have so much time on my hands sometimes between classes that i seem to have nothing to do. Maybe i'll start going on here and typing things up. Honestly i don't even know what to talk about. So much shit goes on in my life and yet nothing goes on at the same time. I was just looking at old pictures of me and alina and julie on julies webshot thingy and i saw just how much we all grew up. It was a surreal feeling i must admit i still feel like i'm the same person but not at all. My days are filled with going to school and working now, i work at pier one. Other then that nothing much really goes on of any interest. Theres the occasional boy which i seem to always be writting about in each entry and then there are the friends that remain. My best friends for all of times i love you and would be nothing with out you. My newest friend that i can not officially call a friend. Allie she was always there but now me her and alina hang out every weekend with our other mutal friend mary-jane. Other then that i dunno who else to call a friend or what not, Russian Julie i can't forget her. Thats hard though cause she's never around. Sure i mean i have friends but now i've learned not to let everyone in to close nor trust them. Other then that i dunno the boys are the same there's mike who i like but nothing is going to form from that sadly, theres chris who as always is spacey and unrealiable and totally not my type at all. Theres a new one to the list of boy i like/ed/s what ever you wanna call it. For a while i liked this guy at work his name was Jon he stepped down from his position and from pier one and we are suppose to hang out at least thats what said everyweekend or so. Apparently though he has a kid and a girl and i dunno what else cause i don't know him all that well and well yea thats basicly thrown out the window. The other boy who i can always rely on is Brian X haha i haven't called him that in the longest. Its not that i can rely on him per-say its more that he's always around. My little safty net, when i need some attention or need some of anything i can give him a ring. But lately that to has been going to shit cause we make plans and they all fall apart. Plans are shit may i add, not only are people shit but so are plans they never work out and they lead to dissapointment. How many times have you actully planned out something and it worked perfectly to your mind set. . . um never! I enjoy my moments of my unplanned life though. My start to college year was what i expected, i do what i want and see whom i want and everything is just dandy. . . honestly though just between me and you somthing is missing.