hrrmmm.
Im updating because.... i have nothing better to do. Im tired, i could sleep... but i dont have anything to do tomorrow.
why? you may ask.... SCHOOL IS DONE! HA! i still have exams mon, tues, and wed... but theyre not even hard so psh. whatever.
I had to take my car to the dealer this morning at 7:30 AM!!!!! IVE NEVER GOTTEN UP THAT EARLY IN SOOO LONGGGGG UGGGGH. and then to make it even worse I WALKED BACK TO MY APARTMENT!!!! lol the funny thing is, its probably closer than campus is. which is why i drive to campus. which is only a block and a half. hahahahahahha. so then i actually did have to walk to classes today... and then walk ALL THE WAY to the dealer to get my car. they fixed the random shutting off problem. thats good. but they couldnt find anything with the transmission, so im hoping its just that the trailers breaks need to be adjusted.
then i packed up more of my shit. then i went to the barn, i rode dylan, madison, and zorro, and i brushed annie really thoroughly. I was at the barn until 9:45, hahahaha. aww, and shaneekia left me a note in my car thanking me for letting her lease annie and how much annie means to her and whatnot... it was so nice. it brightened my day a ton. not that today was particularly bad... in fact i was in a rather good mood all day. but still, it was nice. its little things like that, that make me happy. oh, and also being done with school.
then i went to nicoles, she made some baked macaroni and cheese and it was DELICIOUS. she also gave me one of her pottery creation, which is a small glass, and the glaze is painted so it sorta looks like a beer mug with the froth overflowing. its cuteeeee. then i came back here, intending to sleep... but the internet distracts me. i wanted to watch that show ive been watching.. but i dont have headphones here i already took them to marshall =( ohhhh wellllll. i have all day tomorrow!!!
so after sleeping in... i have to sell my books back, and ride 4 horses. ahhhh. thats the life. I decided i really really want to be an animal cop... so im gonna figure out how to become one. thatll be a good job to have for the time being until other parts of my life sort themselves out.
speaking of...... i miss steven so much =( im still shocked by how fast the semester went... the last time i saw him was the first weekend back from christmas. and now the semesters over. it seems like that was wayyy more recent than it was. but on the other hand.... theres still a minimum of 9 months =( he's supposed to come visit for his 2 weeks soon.... =D thats going to be the best 2 weeks EVER. i cant waittttt!!!!!!!!!!! its going to be even harder to say goodbye again though =( ughhhhhhh . i talked to him a few days ago... things are still shitty, not that id expect them to be anything but shitty, but my god is this whole thing just shitty shitty. i cant wait for him to get back for real.... its not even the being apart that is that bad. im used to moving and travelling, and im so busy with the horses right now that it really doesnt bother me. what does bother me is the "danger" of the whole situation. i worry 24/7, theres not a minute that goes by that im not thinking and worrying about him. and i dont even intend to do it, it just is, because i love him so much..... it really wears me down too =( but i hang in there because what else is there to do!!!!!! he means more to me than i ever thought was possible. there arent even words for how i feel about him. and i have that constant worried lump in my throat and nauseous feeling in my stomach ALL the time. it sucks, but i would do anything for him, anything to bring him back home safely. I LOVE YOU. im not sure you even read this when you do get the chance to go online. but in case you do... i love you so much.
yea..... so thats pretty much my life. i spend it riding & stuff in an attempt to kill time between phone calls =) which NEVER come often enough. *sigh*. its made me stronger, thats for sure.
so for some reason in the past 5 minutes my glands or whatever in my throat have swelled up and my throat hurts. how gay is that????????? so im really going to sleep now.
im so glad summer is here. itll be a lonely one, but its ok. i feel like being alone most of the time anyway. i will miss all my friends though, im glad i finally have such a good group of friends!!!!!!!! (note to sister: heh, its taken me 21 years to find a good group of friends. try and see if you can beat me!! i bet you cant. my friends rule)
anyhow............... the only people (i think) who read this are nicole and my sister. and steve, but im not sure if he has since hes left. but to you guys: goodnight.
i love you hun.
why? you may ask.... SCHOOL IS DONE! HA! i still have exams mon, tues, and wed... but theyre not even hard so psh. whatever.
I had to take my car to the dealer this morning at 7:30 AM!!!!! IVE NEVER GOTTEN UP THAT EARLY IN SOOO LONGGGGG UGGGGH. and then to make it even worse I WALKED BACK TO MY APARTMENT!!!! lol the funny thing is, its probably closer than campus is. which is why i drive to campus. which is only a block and a half. hahahahahahha. so then i actually did have to walk to classes today... and then walk ALL THE WAY to the dealer to get my car. they fixed the random shutting off problem. thats good. but they couldnt find anything with the transmission, so im hoping its just that the trailers breaks need to be adjusted.
then i packed up more of my shit. then i went to the barn, i rode dylan, madison, and zorro, and i brushed annie really thoroughly. I was at the barn until 9:45, hahahaha. aww, and shaneekia left me a note in my car thanking me for letting her lease annie and how much annie means to her and whatnot... it was so nice. it brightened my day a ton. not that today was particularly bad... in fact i was in a rather good mood all day. but still, it was nice. its little things like that, that make me happy. oh, and also being done with school.
then i went to nicoles, she made some baked macaroni and cheese and it was DELICIOUS. she also gave me one of her pottery creation, which is a small glass, and the glaze is painted so it sorta looks like a beer mug with the froth overflowing. its cuteeeee. then i came back here, intending to sleep... but the internet distracts me. i wanted to watch that show ive been watching.. but i dont have headphones here i already took them to marshall =( ohhhh wellllll. i have all day tomorrow!!!
so after sleeping in... i have to sell my books back, and ride 4 horses. ahhhh. thats the life. I decided i really really want to be an animal cop... so im gonna figure out how to become one. thatll be a good job to have for the time being until other parts of my life sort themselves out.
speaking of...... i miss steven so much =( im still shocked by how fast the semester went... the last time i saw him was the first weekend back from christmas. and now the semesters over. it seems like that was wayyy more recent than it was. but on the other hand.... theres still a minimum of 9 months =( he's supposed to come visit for his 2 weeks soon.... =D thats going to be the best 2 weeks EVER. i cant waittttt!!!!!!!!!!! its going to be even harder to say goodbye again though =( ughhhhhhh . i talked to him a few days ago... things are still shitty, not that id expect them to be anything but shitty, but my god is this whole thing just shitty shitty. i cant wait for him to get back for real.... its not even the being apart that is that bad. im used to moving and travelling, and im so busy with the horses right now that it really doesnt bother me. what does bother me is the "danger" of the whole situation. i worry 24/7, theres not a minute that goes by that im not thinking and worrying about him. and i dont even intend to do it, it just is, because i love him so much..... it really wears me down too =( but i hang in there because what else is there to do!!!!!! he means more to me than i ever thought was possible. there arent even words for how i feel about him. and i have that constant worried lump in my throat and nauseous feeling in my stomach ALL the time. it sucks, but i would do anything for him, anything to bring him back home safely. I LOVE YOU. im not sure you even read this when you do get the chance to go online. but in case you do... i love you so much.
yea..... so thats pretty much my life. i spend it riding & stuff in an attempt to kill time between phone calls =) which NEVER come often enough. *sigh*. its made me stronger, thats for sure.
so for some reason in the past 5 minutes my glands or whatever in my throat have swelled up and my throat hurts. how gay is that????????? so im really going to sleep now.
im so glad summer is here. itll be a lonely one, but its ok. i feel like being alone most of the time anyway. i will miss all my friends though, im glad i finally have such a good group of friends!!!!!!!! (note to sister: heh, its taken me 21 years to find a good group of friends. try and see if you can beat me!! i bet you cant. my friends rule)
anyhow............... the only people (i think) who read this are nicole and my sister. and steve, but im not sure if he has since hes left. but to you guys: goodnight.
i love you hun.