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I've started a bad habit recently. Everyday I get home from work I go to my room and I lie down. I shouldn't allow myself to lie down like this because everytime I do, I fall asleep. I know I'm going to fall asleep, but I trick myself into thinking "This time, this one time, I'll just lay here for 10, maybe 15 minutes and just relax" as if that will ever happen. See, but even though I know this is a lie, I accept the lie because, I don't want the lie to be true anyways. and that's what's interesting to me. I lie to myself to allow myself to do something I wanted to do in the first place.
Like when you go on a diet and say "This is the last donut I'll ever eat." Yeah, right. Or when an alcoholic says one more shot. As if he even believes himself. You get my point. Or maybe you don't, so let me spell it out... why can't people just accept themselves for who they are.. why do people play this game with themselves? If you want to sleep, don't make an excuse that you can't even believe.. just sleep... just sleep.