lone ranger strikes again..

[krank_fickt]

I'm so upset with myself. If only I would have taken my little fucking white pills and the orange ones everyday I wouldn't be in this situation. I hate getting migranes.. I'd rather cut myself up than get a migrane. But I got one last night and had to get picked up, drive over to Dan's.. get pills at midnight, and then go home to finally sleep in the dark abosolutely silent. It went away around 4 today.. And I made friends with a bucket. I named him Lloyd. I gotta clean my room because.. well yea, it's just messy that's why. And I got school to deal with. I have an english paper due soon and I barely started.. You tell me, why ARE online schools better than the traditional school that my made up neighbor went to when he was young? Argh.. I have a lot of sharpie on my legs.. and neck.. oh yea and my tits. Don't ask.. I ran into a lot of people last night, okay? Um, yeah my dad fricken exploded on me today and it made me so mad. I just sat there and acted like he wasn't talking to me, which didn't help I suppose, but it just makes me feel so damn warm and fuzzy inside when I ignore him. The other day, me and Em walked into the vfw and it was.. george, his wife, shannon was bartending, the sperm donor guy that had sex with my mom 9 months before i was born, andy, dan, cookie, travis.. and some random dude.. and we walked past my dad and i went to say hi to dan.. and my dad is sitting there repeatedly saying hi to me.. (six times as em recalls) and i completely blew him off until em said hi to him. Then we got drinks from Shannon, and i acknowledged travis' wink and said hi to him, hugged dan and andy goodbye.. said bye to cookie and george and shannon and the random dude, and my dad just looks at me. I turned and walked out because he said something like "oh she'll kiss you guys (meaning dan and andy) but I haven't got kissed in three years" .. I figured it wasn't something he should share in public, laughed about it, and left.. I love how he's so fucking ignorant to me and is completely oblivious to it ands expects me to be nice. FUCKING WRONG. Fuck ass. It's kinda weird how all the pictures from the beach are of my brothers or Mutch's asses.. It's almost disturbing. I'm sure Emily felt weird around them, but what do you expect? They're McKenzies..

..sixteen chapters of one thing you've blown..

<3kelsh