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[krandelberry911]

Today was one of the scarriest/worst day of my life. I went to a float meeting at Nats house where i realized what real fun was and what real friends consist of. Nothings better in life than having friends you can count on and friends that would do anything for you. My hampster died today, and although i know it is my fault because i always forgot to feed it, i'll always remember that it was me that brought it to death. Magical Mr.M was the meanest hampster so its not really breaking my heart that it died, but i just wish he could have left me some other way, then feeling all of this guilt. And hearing about Tyler broke my heart. He was someone that i was friends with in middle school, and i just remember how nice he was, and how he will never completely live his life. Its things like this that make you think of how fragile life is, and how you have to live it for the moment. Today I was at an intersection and my car broke down. And with two paint men in a huge paint truck, and angry people honking, i wished my life would be over. So the two paint men, pulled me to the side of the road, and i sat and waited for someone to get me. You would assume a mother would ask how her child was, if she was ok.. well not in my case, my mom started yelling at me worse then when she found out that soy sauce had to be refridgerated. But she blamed it on me telling me it was my fault that my car broke down.... but who cares,
My cell phone keeps breaking, and although that is the smallest and least of my problems, it still pisses me off, but the thing that pisses me off the most, is that today, i felt like no one was backing me up, and no one was there for me. Natalie came to see me on the side of the road and was there, kirk was there, and mark was there. Thats it. I have a best friend that hates me, and many others that follow her. It just goes to show that everything i touch turns to shit and right now for the moment my life is useless.