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I have something scheduled for Monday and Tuesday next week. I am happy about this. Plus I get to see my dad.
I had a productive day today. Got out of the house, went to the career centre (which took some finding), bought Colin a birthday card. I wish I was closer with him but it's hard because we really only see each other at family events and neither of us is much of a talker. I could see doing some kind of activity with him instead of just "hanging out" but a) I'm not sure what we would have in common and b) he's got so much going on with his job and his family I don't think he has any free time. And, if I'm honest, part of me is scared that he wouldn't want to.
And so that we end on a positive note, instead of a depressing one: I had an amazing day on Wednesday. It's not that it was a good day productivity-wise (although it was) but it was a good day emotionally. I felt HAPPY. Not just a neutral, "things are okay" mood but actually happiness. Joy. An unbelievably, stupendously, mind-bogglingly good mood. And it wasn't just a short burst, either, it lasted most of the day. I can't remember the last time I felt that good!
I had a productive day today. Got out of the house, went to the career centre (which took some finding), bought Colin a birthday card. I wish I was closer with him but it's hard because we really only see each other at family events and neither of us is much of a talker. I could see doing some kind of activity with him instead of just "hanging out" but a) I'm not sure what we would have in common and b) he's got so much going on with his job and his family I don't think he has any free time. And, if I'm honest, part of me is scared that he wouldn't want to.
And so that we end on a positive note, instead of a depressing one: I had an amazing day on Wednesday. It's not that it was a good day productivity-wise (although it was) but it was a good day emotionally. I felt HAPPY. Not just a neutral, "things are okay" mood but actually happiness. Joy. An unbelievably, stupendously, mind-bogglingly good mood. And it wasn't just a short burst, either, it lasted most of the day. I can't remember the last time I felt that good!