Summer....... fun?
wow, it has been quite a long time since the last time i posted anything in here... so here i go...
a few days ago i went out and bought towels and blankets for my apartment that i will be moving in to in about 2 months... kind of a scary thought but exciting at the same time. i cant wait to live on my own but im kinda scared at the same time... but i know as soon as i get there i will be ok. and speaking of next year, i have to go to the UC Santa Cruz orientation on the 27th, and im going to be all by myself from 8:30a.m.-5:00p.m.!!! that is unless i run into someone i know or end up meeting some people and chill with them. but meeting people there is gonna be kinda tough seeing that i am going there to sit and hear people talk about the school and take placement tests and what not; so its gonna be kinda hard to "meet people" in that kinda setting.
other than thoughts of next year bubbling in my head ive found myself to be in a uh... crappy mind set. all i feel like doing is sleeping and eating. i mean, i get up at like 12:00p.m.-12:30p.m. in the afternoon, eat, watch tv, sit in my room and listen to music, then go to sleep around 12:00a.m.-1:00a.m. ... fun summer aint it?
i feel as though im trapped within my own skin and im dying to escape but something is keeping my locked inside myself... (haha that reminded me of something ray would rant about! love ya ray =P)
sadly i think i know what is keeping me trapped within myself... and i just cant seem to get rid of it...
a few days ago i went out and bought towels and blankets for my apartment that i will be moving in to in about 2 months... kind of a scary thought but exciting at the same time. i cant wait to live on my own but im kinda scared at the same time... but i know as soon as i get there i will be ok. and speaking of next year, i have to go to the UC Santa Cruz orientation on the 27th, and im going to be all by myself from 8:30a.m.-5:00p.m.!!! that is unless i run into someone i know or end up meeting some people and chill with them. but meeting people there is gonna be kinda tough seeing that i am going there to sit and hear people talk about the school and take placement tests and what not; so its gonna be kinda hard to "meet people" in that kinda setting.
other than thoughts of next year bubbling in my head ive found myself to be in a uh... crappy mind set. all i feel like doing is sleeping and eating. i mean, i get up at like 12:00p.m.-12:30p.m. in the afternoon, eat, watch tv, sit in my room and listen to music, then go to sleep around 12:00a.m.-1:00a.m. ... fun summer aint it?
i feel as though im trapped within my own skin and im dying to escape but something is keeping my locked inside myself... (haha that reminded me of something ray would rant about! love ya ray =P)
sadly i think i know what is keeping me trapped within myself... and i just cant seem to get rid of it...