Different eyes
Hi everyone! I miss you all so much! I just spent one hour reading your livejournals from the past two weeks. I know, pathetic, but I like hearing about what you're all doing. It kinda, just for a moment, makes me feel as though I'm there with you.
My life has really changed in the past 6 weeks. I'm looking at things with a completely different eye. Last night, Maicol asked me where I saw the two of us ten years down the road and I had no idea what to say. All I know is that now that I have been introduced to this way of living, I can't see myself or my life without this culture. I feel like my life has split and is heading in two different directions and I'm standing in the middle sceaming "someone please jsut tell me where im supposed to go and what Im supposed to do." I think I need to find a way to live both lives. . .6 months there and 6 months here? Lol, why not? And it certainly doesn't make it any easier that I've fallen in love with someone who lives here. And as he said to me this morning, Costa Rica doesn't have your theatre and Canada doesnt have my waves (his passion is surfing) so we're going to have to meet somewhere in the middle. I laughed and said let's go to Australia. But honestly, and not just because of Josue, these people, this culture, this country is a part of my life and over my time here this summer I have really started to realize how important it truly is to me.
So much to think about. As I said to my Dad last week, "Well I have one more year of school and then i have to have an idea of where I'm going. . .or at least where i want to start out." And who knows, next year could present something completely different to me but to be honest right now, when I close my eyes and see myself when I'm 30, I'm on the beach with my kids, eating papaya, speaking Spanish and watching the dolphins.
My life has really changed in the past 6 weeks. I'm looking at things with a completely different eye. Last night, Maicol asked me where I saw the two of us ten years down the road and I had no idea what to say. All I know is that now that I have been introduced to this way of living, I can't see myself or my life without this culture. I feel like my life has split and is heading in two different directions and I'm standing in the middle sceaming "someone please jsut tell me where im supposed to go and what Im supposed to do." I think I need to find a way to live both lives. . .6 months there and 6 months here? Lol, why not? And it certainly doesn't make it any easier that I've fallen in love with someone who lives here. And as he said to me this morning, Costa Rica doesn't have your theatre and Canada doesnt have my waves (his passion is surfing) so we're going to have to meet somewhere in the middle. I laughed and said let's go to Australia. But honestly, and not just because of Josue, these people, this culture, this country is a part of my life and over my time here this summer I have really started to realize how important it truly is to me.
So much to think about. As I said to my Dad last week, "Well I have one more year of school and then i have to have an idea of where I'm going. . .or at least where i want to start out." And who knows, next year could present something completely different to me but to be honest right now, when I close my eyes and see myself when I'm 30, I'm on the beach with my kids, eating papaya, speaking Spanish and watching the dolphins.