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So today.
Today definitely had some horrible moments. Well, one horrible moment.
I wonder why I'm always so mad. I'm really angry sometimes. I never used to be like that. I hate being like this.
I had the yummiest thing today. Smoked salmon. Smoked salmon is heaven. And Greek yoghurt. I wanna cry. All of a sudden I just want to cry. Why is that? I don't want to, but I want to.
I remember, five years ago, I went to the Philippines and I was sitting on a bus and I heard that Bette Middler song "From a distance" and I just wanted to cry. Because it was all so beautiful. And perfect. And I felt at peace.
Why do we always want to change things we can't change? Why is it that we can't just accept things as they are? We know things can't change. Then why try?
But I don't want change.
And I refuse to accept things as they are.
I'm tired of being me.
"Oh God. Life is so good,"she thought,"but why does it hurt so much?"
That line. That just sums it all up.
Today definitely had some horrible moments. Well, one horrible moment.
I wonder why I'm always so mad. I'm really angry sometimes. I never used to be like that. I hate being like this.
I had the yummiest thing today. Smoked salmon. Smoked salmon is heaven. And Greek yoghurt. I wanna cry. All of a sudden I just want to cry. Why is that? I don't want to, but I want to.
I remember, five years ago, I went to the Philippines and I was sitting on a bus and I heard that Bette Middler song "From a distance" and I just wanted to cry. Because it was all so beautiful. And perfect. And I felt at peace.
Why do we always want to change things we can't change? Why is it that we can't just accept things as they are? We know things can't change. Then why try?
But I don't want change.
And I refuse to accept things as they are.
I'm tired of being me.
"Oh God. Life is so good,"she thought,"but why does it hurt so much?"
That line. That just sums it all up.