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I hate the fact that people hide things from me for so long, things that have taken me so long to deal with and get through. Even thought the hurt has been there since it happened it has gotten less over the years that have pasted and then i am told somehting that changes everything and they expect me to be fine for it not to change anything, but it changed everything adn i am having a hard time with it. I need to get away from myself, i have been throwing myself into my school work adn my homework hoping that it will help to get it off off my mind but it hasn't work, not for long but for a few moments a day when i really pay attention to my work it takes the painm away even through it is in the back of my mind. The only ime that i really stop thinking of it is when i see my hunny. I love you for everything that you do for me, you are my rock, you keep me strong even when u don't know what is going on. I love you so much, adn i know i don't say it enough thank you