Quieting the voice that never shuts up
I think about everything, my mind never stops analyzing and commenting on everything over and over. The problem is that it never really solves anything. Over a year ago I was miserable, my mind ran in circles over the same things and I felt that I was wound up so tight that I wa going to explode. The problem is that the inner voice is never really all that nice. That voice says all the nasty things you don't like about other people and yourself. The voice just would never shut up, it was so negative.
I have found that physical exertion is what can shut it up. When I started yoga we would do some standing poses for quite awhile and the instructor would say that it was ok to hate her. The funny thing was that when I was in those poses my mind just said how much it hated me. After awhile I wore down that mind and started accepting myself little by little. When I finally got to the point where I used everything I had to hold a pose, the voice finally shut up. In that moment of quiet the world was much more clear and that clarity has been my driving force. At first I became a little obsessed with class because it was a way to "reset" myself. Yoga wasn't the cure but it was the catalyst that started my journey of change. I am so happy that I found that class and went because I feel that the past year has been a very valuable journey of discovery and self-acceptance.
I have found that physical exertion is what can shut it up. When I started yoga we would do some standing poses for quite awhile and the instructor would say that it was ok to hate her. The funny thing was that when I was in those poses my mind just said how much it hated me. After awhile I wore down that mind and started accepting myself little by little. When I finally got to the point where I used everything I had to hold a pose, the voice finally shut up. In that moment of quiet the world was much more clear and that clarity has been my driving force. At first I became a little obsessed with class because it was a way to "reset" myself. Yoga wasn't the cure but it was the catalyst that started my journey of change. I am so happy that I found that class and went because I feel that the past year has been a very valuable journey of discovery and self-acceptance.