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Fic: All I Can Do Is Keep Breathing (1/2)

Aug 08, 2009 23:02

Title: All I Can Do Is Keep Breathing (1/2)
Author: alyssand
Rating: Pg-13 for once
Pairing: Friendship only - Kradison.
Beta: none because i couldn't make anyone read this.
Word count: 2,240 ish
Disclaimer: No one except the events that follow belong to me. And even those events I regret to say belong to me. Well not TO me, but yeah you may get what I’m trying ( Read more... )

rating: pg-13, author: neednotwant

Comments 17

blue_icy_rose August 8 2009, 21:06:41 UTC

First, I'm sorry to hear about your friend. *hugs*

Second, this is a gorgeous piece and you really captured that feeling of not wanting to look, of not wanting any of it to be real. It took me back to a couple years ago and had me crying - not saying that to make you feel bad though! I actually think it was a good thing since I hadn't done that in awhile.

I'm not normally a person for death fic even though I've got such a thing for angst (I know, weird) but something made me decide to click on this anyway and I'm very glad I did. I really hope writing this helps you at least a little bit.

neednotwant August 8 2009, 21:13:12 UTC

aw thanks hun. i really appreciate it. and i'm glad you say i managed to capture that feeling i wasn't sure if it came through. i'm not normally a death fic person either but well, today was just the day.. :| and yeah it did help me in a way, so thank you :)

elizabethfaye09 August 8 2009, 21:36:04 UTC

fuck you made me cry.

firstly i'm sorry about your friend. *BIG HUGGLES!*

secondly. i know almost the exact feelings going on here. i lost my sister in may and i felt that way. i was fine until the first night at the funeral home. my brother held my hand and...okay im rambling now.

thirdly. i loved reading this, even though it made me bawl like a baby. very well-written and poor allison. is the next part in adam's pov? if so.....*sigh* i think i'll be doing more than bawling like a baby. and teh part with drake was sweet it made me go awe.

good job! can't wait for part 2

neednotwant August 8 2009, 21:39:39 UTC

aw hun im sorry about your sister *major huggles* and yeah the funeral home the first night was the worst. i bawled my eyes out.. yeah
and thank you for reading it. i was hoping drake would come across a little more than a background feature because he really is gonna be Adam's rock.. like in the rest of this. the next part.. well i think it'll still be Allison's pov. because im in her shoes and till this day i still dont really know everything that went on in my friend's (Adam's) head. :|

hopefully part 2 will be up tmr? thanks so much bb :)

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neednotwant August 9 2009, 10:39:59 UTC

<3 thank you so much bb. I really think it was, this first part so far. I had to stop halfway because i think it was a little too much for me, so the second part might take a while.

Thank you for reading it. *HUGS*

kirabella1588 August 9 2009, 10:27:12 UTC

*HUGS YOU HARD*
I wont say I know how you feel, because I dont, no one ever knows how someone feels when a person in thier life dies. I will tell you a story though.

Sept. 30/2007, I lost a good friend to murder, I still hate that day/month.
June 23/2008 another good friend was killed in a crash.
Shortly thereafter I found out my best friend in the whole world is hep c positive.

2 months ago, my favorite neighbor passed away.
about 3 weeks ago, I lost the man that was the closest thing I have to a father.

Im still standing,even though some days it feels like I cant get up.
I did what you did. I wrote an idol death fic, and it was the best thing I ever did for myself, therapeautically speaking. I hated writing it, but the second it was all done(6 parts in total) I felt like I could finally let go of all the hurt and angry to some degree.

Regarding the story:As someone else said, you really had a way of capturing feeling here, its a lovely piece for sure.

And, if you ever want to just talk, just send me a message :)

neednotwant August 9 2009, 10:38:06 UTC

Oh hun thank you so much. And i remember your fic. Vividly. I'm not sure if i managed to comment because i think your fic left me sobbing. But it was beautiful and i'm so glad to hear that it helped you.

I wanna hug you so hard.
I had no idea what it felt like to lose someone before. And i remember thinking to myself once a long time ago that i should like to know how it felt. As though maybe it was the one thing i needed to feel more human. i dont really know what i was thinking. Then about 2 months later my best friend got that cancer, and i felt like i'd been hit by a brick wall. But it wasn't too scary because initially everyone was optimistic about it and said it could be easily cured. Until i realised that with every new round of experimental drugs, the drugs always stopped working.

I really don't know how to do it, to manage. But i suppose maybe we're stronger about it that we realise.

Oh I hope you dont mind that i added you.
Thank you, really. This meant a lot to me. :)

kirabella1588 August 9 2009, 16:11:16 UTC

Of course I dont mind that you added me, thats what Im here for.

bj_dream August 9 2009, 16:45:57 UTC

Death affects so many people in so many different ways. I was 10 when i lost my grandmother, she always dyed her hair red and at the funeral she had this god awful hairstyle with gray hair.

I went into hysterical laughing to the point that i had to be removed from the funeral home. I still feel bad about that. I feel like i never really said Goodbye.

I have lost a number of very important family, freinds, etc over the years and each time i process different. I lost my step father a yr ago this past april. We prepared for it for about 4 yrs and it still wasn't enough time, but i know that he knew i loved him beyond a shadow of a doubt and that is what i hold on to to get me through.

I don't know what you beleive as far as religion goes, but know that your friend is watching over you and would want you to live each day to the fullest, laugh until you cannot laugh anymore and love as much as you can. Seriously if you ever need anyone to talk to you can send me a note.

Dawn

neednotwant August 10 2009, 03:02:48 UTC

Dawn, thank you so much. That really means a lot to me. I do believe she would be watching over me. Oh and I’m catholic.

I’m so so sorry for your losses but it’s good to know you’ve found a way to get by.

“We prepared for it for about 4 yrs and it still wasn't enough time, but i know that he knew i loved him beyond a shadow of a doubt and that is what i hold on to to get me through."

I know now that no amount of preparations can ever make it hurt less, and thank you for sharing that with me. I really appreciate it.
Alyssa xxx