The Beach House, Part 2
Author: Idolme922
Title: The Beach House (2/?)
Pairing: Kradam AU
Rating: NC-17
Summary: I’ve loved you since I was ten years old. I just didn’t know what it really meant then. I do now. I love you, Kris.
Disclaimer: Don’t own them in any way
Warnings: None, just the rating. There is some geographical inconsistency, please forgive me. It just worked in the story.
Thank you and much love to NZfan for the beta, and my dear Jo and Eva. You guys light my way. Shout out to Deb and Kate. Thanks for always being here.
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http://community.livejournal.com/kradam_ai/1997208.html#cutid1 Part 1
Kris was actually whistling when he walked into his house. “My, aren’t you cheerful today. Did you have a nice time with Katy after school?”
Kris smiled at his mother. “Yes, I had a great time after school.” It wasn’t a lie, it wasn’t the whole truth. He kept walking to his room and looked for a place to hide his phone, his life line to Adam. He snuck out of the house five times that evening to call his boyfriend. Adam loved it. He only stopped when Leila made Adam tell Kris good night and turn his phone off. The phone was very expensive and the charge for every minute pricey. Leila knew she was going to have to pay a lot so her son could stay in touch with Kris, and she didn’t care. But, she did ask Adam to try to keep the calls down to one or two a day.
When it was time to fly back to LA the next morning, Adam was sad in a way, but happier than he’d ever been. He knew he would see Kris again. Leila said they could fly back to visit Kris at least a couple of times in the next six months. He applied to Sacramento State as soon as he got home. The two boys continued call as much as Kris could get out of the house. They were getting to know each other as young men. They talked about what they wanted to do after college and discussed what their majors would be. Kris was afraid his parents wouldn’t help him with college. He felt pretty sure that he would have to get a job and work through, but he didn’t care as long as he had Adam to come home to. They talked about how soon they could live together. Leila urged them to slow down just a little even though she was the one who set this in motion. Sometimes she actually thought the Allen’s could have her arrested. Eber assured her that was extremely unlikely, and they would have to find out first.
***
“How’s my sexy boyfriend tonight?”
“Kris! Where are you? Don’t get caught.”
“I’m at Katy’s. I told you she’s my best friend, other than you of course.” Kris chuckled.
“What about her parents? How safe is this? I’m always happy to hear your voice, but . . .”
“Stop worrying. Katy’s parents are really cool. They know she and I hang out and go on dates to keep my parents off my back. We decided to tell them a year ago that I’m gay and that she and I are just friends. They know about you too.”
“Remind me to thank them some day. So, now that we’re talking, how is my sexy boyfriend?”
“I’m great now that I’m talking to you. I wish we could talk more often.” Kris giggled.
“Yeah, me too. I applied to Sacramento State. I put down general ed as my major for now, with a minor in vocal performance. Have you thought about college, and, like what you want to do some day?”
“Yeah, some. I think I want to major in music. I’ve thought about being a teacher, so I can be supportive to kids like us. I’ve been able to concentrate on school so much better these last couple of weeks since I saw you. Before that I had such a hard time in school, with everything. Now I want to get my grades up and get into college wherever we decide to be. My mom is kind of shocked that I suddenly want to study. It’s kind of funny really. She’s so happy about it, and she has no clue it’s because of you.” Kris was laughing at the thought.
“That is kind of funny. I’ve had the opposite problem, but I’m getting back into school. Since I saw you, all I could think about was you and I kind of blew off studying. But, I know how important college is. So, that didn’t last too long. I moped for a few days. My mom snapped me out of it.”
“I can’t imagine you moping!! How did she snap you out of it?”
“She told me we wouldn’t go back to visit you if my grades dropped. She meant it too. As you can tell, she doesn’t fool around!” Adam chuckled.
“She’s really awesome. You’re so lucky. Sometime when we’re on the phone, let me say hi to her, okay? I think it would be nice if I said hello once in a while.”
“That’s a cool idea. See your mom did teach you social graces. You remember that?”
“Every word, Adam. I remember every word. I guess my parents have their good side, but honestly all this going to hell stuff just makes me crazy. I don’t believe in their god. I’m not sure what I believe, but they think gay people are all going to hell, so you could say we have a real difference of opinion.”
“I can see that. If we go to hell, we’re going together and we’ll decorate it!”
“You are sooo silly.” They both laughed and talked until Katy came back.
“Pssst, Kris. You have to get off now. Your mom called my house and wants you to come home. I told her you couldn’t come to the phone because you were in the bathroom.” Katy smiled, proud of herself for dodging Mrs. Allen, again.
“Okay . . . Adam, I have to go. See you in my dreams. I’ll try to call again tomorrow. I love you.”
“I love you, Kris. Talk to you soon.”
They weren’t off the phone for more than one minute when another call came.
“Kris & Adam sitting in a tree, k-i-s-s-i-n-g!!
Miss your lips.”
Adam laughed out loud. He thought for the millionth time in two weeks how much he loved his mom for giving them phones.
“I miss your lips too, and more. Can’t wait for more.” The line went dead on Kris’ end.
Easter Week Break 2000
In two months Leila and Adam were back in Sacramento. Of course Kris knew ahead of time and was just about the first one out the front doors of the school after his last class. Katy was right behind him so she could say hello to Adam.
“Hi Adam.” Katy looked at him with a dreamy expression, which Kris thought looked very silly.
“Hi Katy. It’s nice to see you again. Thank you for helping Kris out. I, we, really appreciate it.” Adam smiled at her which of course caused her to melt a bit more.
“Hey!” Kris very lightly punched her arm. “My Adam, remember?” They both laughed. “See you, Katy. I’ll call you.” Katy walked off clutching her school books to her chest and looking over her shoulder at Adam again. Kris laughed.
“It’s a good thing she’s my best friend or I’d have to kick her ass. I can’t blame her.” He chuckled and took Adam’s hand as they walked to the car where Leila was waiting.
It was the beginning of spring break. They could stay a whole week. Kris told his parents a variety of things so he could get out of the house. He told them that he was spending this day with Katy and that day with Trevor, or there was a special orchestra practice all afternoon, and a lot of reasons to be away from home. The boys ended up spending quite a lot of time together. After the first three days, they were both so crazy for each other that they were practically having sex in the back seat of the car. Kids their age had been having sex for years. Leila tried to rationalize it. She talked to Eber on the phone. They agreed on how to handle it. He didn’t want to see his wife in legal hot water, but he wanted his son to have the sexual experiences he’d had at that age, and that most, or at least many, kids had at eighteen. Kris would be seventeen in just a few months.
“Okay, this is how it’s going to be.” Leila sat up straight and spoke to the boys from her seat across the booth from the boys in the small cafe. “We are going to finish lunch, then we are going to the hotel and just watch TV. I’m going to go out for a while and do some . . . shopping. You two can stay in the hotel room and just watch TV. Got it?”
Kris and Adam smiled at each other and just about jumped over the table wanting to hug Leila her half to pieces. “Thank you so much. You are the coolest, most understanding, best mom in the whole world.”
“Yeah, what he said.” Kris was laughing and crying . . . hard! Just the thought of having sex again after three and a half years was killing him. Those awkward hand jobs were blazened in their memories and they couldn’t wait to do that again, and more. Kris pulled his shirt down over the front of his pants, but Leila could tell both boys were more than ready.
“Alright you two. Just hang on for a bit. We’ll be at the hotel in about ten minutes. You think you can hold out that long?” She was chuckling. She found herself somewhat amused by their plight. They started kissing in the back seat of the car on the way. “Slow down guys. Really, slow down. Save some of that ‘kissing’ for when you’re watching TV.” They all laughed as the car pulled into the parking lot of the hotel. She handed Adam the key and winked. “Adam, give me your phone and call me when I can come back, and I mean tonight, not four days from now! Don’t forget Kris has to be home by about eight.”
“I know, mom. Thanks, really. I don’t even know what to say. Just, thanks. I love you so much.”
“Me too. I love you too.” Kris jumped out of the car with Adam right behind him.
“I’ll call you, um, later. Bye!”
Adam had Kris by the hand now and was pulling him toward the elevator and up to the room. “Oh my god, Adam. We’re alone. We’re actually alone. It’s been over three years since we’ve been . . .” HUMPH!! Adam pushed Kris onto the queen size bed he’d been sleeping in and kissed him fiercely.
“Yes, we’re alone and we’re not wasting one minute. I’ve waited so long for this. We’ve both become men since the last time we did this.” Adam kissed him slowly then fully claimed the mouth he loved and imagined it on his cock, like right now. “Kris, I want to . . .”
“Whatever you want to do is okay. I’m ready. You can take me. I’ve been on the Internet at the library and I rented some videos that I watched at Katy’s. I’m sure you’ve been just as resourceful and just as horny. We’ve never been with anyone else so I don’t think we need to worry about condoms, do you? You haven’t right?”
“No, baby. I haven’t been with anyone. I waited to be with you. I have never, ever wanted anyone else. I knew some day we would be in a bed together again. I didn’t imagine my mother would have set it up, but shit. I want you so badly.”
“I love that. Baby. That’s nice.”
“I have something to give you. I didn’t plan it now, I didn’t know there would be a now, but I want to give it to you anyway.” Adam jumped up from the bed and opened a drawer in the room. “I was going to wrap it or something, but well, here.” He held out his gift. Tears ran down Kris’ face.
Oh, baby. I love it. You remembered.”
“You told me you remembered everything, well so do I.”
Kris tenderly touched a small Lego train Adam made for him, and then held it in his fist and pulled it to his heart. It was pretty much like the one he’d made for Adam when he was ten years old, or was he eleven? Okay he didn’t remember everything thing but he sure remembered the Lego train he made for Adam and the Lego train station Adam made. “I love it. Thank you. I still have the Lego train I made for you. It was at my house when . . . well, I still have it. Now there are two, yours and mine.”
“Really? You still have it? I’m glad you saved it, Kris.”
“Now please make love to me. I want us to make love so bad. Please Adam, please, now.” Kris was trying to talk as Adam was kissing him. Then he undressed Kris and Kris undressed him. They stood in awe of each other, absorbing how they looked, how they’d grown and how their bodies had matured. “Wow. I’ve never forgotten . . . you were big then. I think you’re bigger now. Damn.” Kris’ mouth was actually watering. Want that!
“And you’re still beautiful, all of you.” Adam lay Kris back on the bed again and began to caress his body. He licked and sucked Kris’ nipples and kissed his neck, sucking carefully below his collar line so no one would see the hickey. He wanted Kris to see it, later. He wanted to leave a mark on Kris, and he did. He moved down. Kris sucked in a sharp breath as he felt Adam’s mouth go down on him.
“Oh god. That feels . . . so . . . amaz . . . zing . . . god, Adam.”
Adam had never done this before but he practiced in his mind. He watched videos and he imagined how it would feel. It was wonderful. Kris tasted wonderful. He decided years ago that he would swallow. He wanted every part of Kris, every drop, every molecule. He tasted his own cum so he would know what it would be like. He anticipated the feel, the taste, he wanted it all and after just five minutes of bringing his love to the brink, he got it. Kris came and it was glorious. Adam delighted in it, in what he did. He made that happen. He was proud of himself. He sucked until there was nothing left and Kris was completely spent. The salty bitterness soon turned to sweetness as he licked his lips. He pulled Kris’ limp body to his and held him as he spoke softly. “Kris, my Kris. Wow . . . that was so great.” He kissed Kris deeply and shared the remnants of his flavor.
“No kidding. I’ve thought about it a million times, about how it would feel, but it was far better than I ever imagined. I want you now, okay? I want to taste you. You ready?”
“You bet I am.” Adam lay on his back and ran his fingers through soft brown hair as Kris kissed him, then kissed down his body. “Oh, god that feels so good. Take me, baby, I can’t stand it, want your mouth on me, please.” Kris didn’t keep him waiting. He certainly remembered Adam being big, but he didn’t know exactly how big, so he practiced on condom covered bananas, the biggest ones he could find. He smiled to himself thinking about how dorky that seemed right now, but it worked. He was ready to make Adam feel wonderful and come hard. He sucked and stroked and reached up to twist Adam’s nipples. Adam moaned loudly. Kris smiled around the delicious cock in his mouth. Yes. It feels good for him. Wow!
Kris kept at his practiced skills until Adam fell apart and cried out when he came. Kris swallowed it down, all of it. He remembered saying ‘gross’ in his mind over three years ago after he made Adam come the first time. It wasn’t gross now. It was amazing, delicious, wonderful . . . my Adam
They lay together, holding tight to each other. Kissing, tasting, loving.
Adam called his mother. “Can we have some more time, please? We’re really loving watching TV together.” Adam laughed a little, not really embarrassed, but he knew his mother knew he was there having sex and that was just kind of weird.
“Adam, it’s only been about forty minutes. Kris doesn’t have to be home for three and a half more hours. Just enjoy being together, honey, and watching TV.” Leila chuckled again.
“Really . . . oh, thanks. I’ll call you, um, later.” Leila laughed to herself as she pressed ‘end call’ on the phone. Adam found the clock on the bedside table and decided to watch the time, a little. “Kris?”
“Hmm?” Kris was happily nuzzled into Adam’s arms again.
“I guess we’re not virgins any more, but technically, there’s . . .”
“I know, Adam. I’m ready. I want you, all of you. We don’t have any lube. I talked to some counselors at the gay and lesbian center since you were here last time. About what to do, you know? I don’t know how it will be without some, you know, prep? I really want to. Is there something else we can use? Shit.”
“We can pick some up be ready for tomorrow. Oh my god, I just realized we have four more days together. My poor mom. She’s going to be ‘shopping’ a lot!!” Both young men chuckled. Adam’s cell phone rang. It was Leila. “Hi mom. We were just talking about you.”
“I’ll bet you were. I’m so sorry I forgot to tell you. I’m sure you’re doing fine, but if you want to, if you decide to, if you need it . . .”
“What? Mom?”
Leila felt herself blushing. “Well it was your dad’s idea really. Look in my suitcase in the pocket on the side. Bye.” That was it.
“That was the strangest phone call. What the hell . . .” Adam dug into one side pocket of his mother’s suitcase. Empty. His hand reached into the other side pocket and pulled out a medium size bottle of lube. “OH! My god. My mom and dad are saints!! Look Kris. Mom said this was my dad’s idea.” Adam started laughing and couldn’t stop. He had the giggles fiercely and Kris caught the contagious giggle fit as they laughed and rolled on the bed and tossed the bottle of lube in the air and caught it again. They played and laughed and kissed until suddenly Adam was rock hard again and stared into Kris’ eyes with love and lust so intensely that Kris came to a stop, no laughing, no moving, nothing.
“Do it.” Kris was dead serious and Adam loved him more than ever in that moment.
“I’m not sure I know what I’m doing, but I did a little research too.”
“Practice makes perfect.” Kris leered at his lover. “Do it.”
Adam couldn’t help but kiss him and kiss him hard. Then he popped the cap on the lube and pushed Kris’ knees back and opened his legs wide. “Oh . . . my . . .” Adam was dumbstruck. “I never imagined how beautiful you would look like this. If I ever had a doubt about being gay, this would cure it. You’re amazing. So wonderful, so beautiful, and you turn me on like . . . oh my god, Kris.”
“Adam, baby, I’m waiting. You can stare at me later. Right now I want you so bad. Do it!”
Adam didn’t wait any longer. He slopped the lube on his fingers and over Kris’ waiting entrance. “Ohh, that’s cold.”
“You’re going to be warm very soon.” Adam’s index finger slowly disappeared into Kris. Kris sucked in a breath. “You okay?”
“Yeah. It feels a little strange but I like it. Find my prostate. That feels really good. Just turn your finger around.”
“What? You say that like you’ve felt it before.”
“Well, I have. I did it to myself. It feels really, really good, but it will feel even better when you do it.
“You did do your homework. I’m impressed.” Adam had done his homework too but obviously Kris had been more adventurous. He turned his finger until he thought he felt the bundle of nerves. When Kris reacted he knew he found it.
“OH GOD. Yes, that’s it. Wow. Do that more. Shit.” Adam saw Kris get rock hard in moments. Hmm. I want to feel that too. But, for now he would take care of Kris. A second finger went in, then a third, pushing in and out, opening Kris as he continued to tease the sweet spot that was making Kris come apart. It was awkward and his wrist started to hurt from this crazy thing he was doing. “I think I’m gonna come . . . Adam!” Kris did come again and Adam smiled.
“Wow, that must feel really good. I can’t wait for my turn.”
“Don’t stop. It still feels so beyond really good, and I want you in me. Keep doing that, it makes me want you, no, crave you. It makes me crazy for you. Get in me Adam, please, hurry. I want you in me. I never imagined. Damn. Do it. Do it. Do it.”
Adam positioned himself, hastily slopped on more lube, and did it. He was so hard. He entered Kris slowly. He was pretty big and Kris was pretty tight. But, Kris said it felt good and he wanted it. He still wanted to be careful. “Kris. Our first time. I’m actually fucking you. God it feels so good.” Adam moved in and out and found a rhythm of sorts. He had to move and find a way to hold himself up while fucking. It took some trial and error to find a good position. It felt so good.
“Our first time. I love you, I love you, oh god, I’m going to come again. Adam!! Adam!!”
Hearing Kris sent Adam over the edge. He thrust hard and fast for just a few moments, his urge to fuck took over and he really pounded Kris, but just for a few moments… then they came, Kris for the third time. Their first time fucking and they came together, almost, just a few seconds apart. They were delighted as Adam fell forward onto Kris and just lay there. After they recovered they took a shower together. Kris fingered Adam in the shower and he came crying out and pounding on the tile. “Oh, my fucking god! Shit, how do gay guys walk around and not do that all the fucking time?”
“Don’t ask me. I don’t know.” They laughed and cleaned up the bed as best they could and called Leila. It was past time that Kris should have been home. Kris said it would be okay, but they should go. When Leila picked them up, they both looked a dazed and a little pink but laughed. Kris hair was sticking up everywhere. He really looked like he’d just been fucked silly.
“Thanks, mom. We loved watching TV together.”
“Yes, thanks so much. Best TV ever!” Kris giggled. “I told my parents that I was going to Old Sacramento with Katy tomorrow. I can be gone all day. Maybe we can watch some more TV.” All three of them laughed.
***
There was a profound change in the boys over the next several days. Leila could see it and feel it. They both grew up and grew together. It was truly like watching two boys become men. They weren’t pawing at each other as they did in prior days. They seemed more secure with each other, less needy. Leila was proud and happy for them. She was proud of herself too. She made this happen, made it possible for her son to be happy again.
Life moved forward. Kris decided to get an after school job. He got a small allowance but he didn’t want to depend on his parents for money. He had expenses now, boyfriend expenses. If he wanted to mail a small gift to Adam, he could. He kept his Lego train in the drawer beside his bed. When his mother found it when cleaning, he told her he made a Lego train when he was ten. That was one hundred percent true. He just didn’t tell her that wasn’t the same Lego train. Soon after that he started cleaning his own room. He told his mother is was more than past time that he did his own laundry and cleaned his own room, that he was too old to be waited on by his mother. Kim Allen just thought her son was growing up and that was true too.
Kris managed to fit in his studies, orchestra, band, a part time job and some time at a local gym. The money he made paid for that and he didn’t tell his parents about it. It would be summer soon. He already asked his boss at the local pizza place if he could work more hours in the summer, but still part time. Adam would be moving to Sacramento at some point over the summer and he was determined to have all the free time possible to spend with him.
As the school year drew to a close the subject of prom came up. Kris and Katy agreed to go together. There was no boy she was interested going with and Kris was her best friend. So they planned. Adam was planning to.
“I want to take Kris to my Prom. I don’t know if we’ll be allowed to go in, but I figure we can nottouch and just go like two friends, then see what happens inside. Nothing bad will happen. Just help me get Kris here. Pleeeease????"
“I don’t know how we can get Kris here. We'd have to think of something pretty good."
“I’ve thought about that and I think it’s time to tell the truth. I want to call Kris, ask him, then tell his parents he’s coming here to visit me. Maybe even tell them everything.”
“What if they move again and take Kris away?”
“Kris is going to be seventeen in a few weeks. He’s not a child any longer, believe me, he’s not a child.” Adam blushed a little but continued. “He has a mind of his own. He would never stay out of communication with me. He would find a way and I’d hope that his parents would realize that.”
“You know, Adam. I’m so proud of you. You’re right. I’ll call Kim Allen myself. You ask Kris first. Of course he will say yes and we can go from there. We can rent him a tux if you are doing tuxes. Let him know he won’t have to pay for anything… your date, your treat, okay?”
“Thanks, mom. You’re still the best mom on the planet, dad too. Oh, you know what I mean.” They laughed and Adam pulled out his phone. He knew Kris would be at Katy’s as he was almost everyday after school, before he went home. It was their time to talk.
“Hi baby. How’s my sexy boyfriend tonight?”
“I’m great. Listen, I’m calling to ask you out on a date, here in LA. I want you to go to prom with me.”
“Really? How could we . . . I mean . . . I’d love that but how? I mean would they let two boys go together? People here would have a cow for sure.”
“Well, I thought we could just go like as friends, not hold hands or anything and then see what happens. I really don’t know if we can dance together and not get kicked out, but I really want you to be with me at my prom, my date.”
“Then we’ll do it. How am I going to get there? Has your mom cooked up something again?”
“No, not yet, but we will start cooking. Listen, Kris, my mom and I talked about telling your parents the truth . . . you know just tell them you’re coming here for a visit, to see me and stay with my family.”
“I don’t know Adam. That sounds kind of . . .”
“I know, babe, but we can plan it.”
“I just remembered I told Katy I’d go our prom with her. My parents are counting on taking pictures and all that crap. Katy got a dress and everything. I hate to leave her hanging, but, shit . . . I’d sure love to be your date. The sound of that just makes me hard standing here. I think Katy would understand.”
“You get hard if we talk about the weather!” Adam laughed. “I love that about you. So, Katy has a dress already? It’s a month away. You decide. I’d love to see you in a tux on my arm. I’d be so proud. You know that I told my friends about you. There wouldn’t be any problems or issues. I don’t know what will happen, but my friends already agreed to stay in a group with us and my dad is going to be one of the parent chaperones so, we’ll be okay. Hey, when is your prom? What’s the date? Silly me. Maybe they are on two different dates, I hope.”
“Ours is near the end of May, Friday the 28th. When is yours?”
“Oh my god… mine is Saturday the 29th! You can take Katy to yours and then come to mine. You get two proms! My mom is taking care of everything, your air fare, tux, you’ll stay with us, with me . . .” Adam chuckled. “You’ll need to prepare yourself for Neil. He’s such a dweeb. He’s attempting to tease me, but if he’s as ass, just let it roll off. He’s an okay brother most of the time. Mom said you can even stay in my room with me! Isn’t that just amazing?”
“No shit! Wow. I guess that makes sense after all the visits here and all the TV watching.” Kris giggled. “Okay so what about telling my parents that I’m going to visit you?”
“My mom said first choice is you do it. Politely stand up to them and just tell them. I mean what can they do to you? You’re nearly seventeen. I almost hope they kick you out and then you can come and live with us.”
“Adam!”
“I’m sorry. That wasn’t cool. I’m really sorry.” There was silence for a few moments. “Okay next choice is my parents call your parents and spill everything and tell them you want to come for a visit. My mom will mail you your airline ticket. She can mail it to Katy’s house if that’s better. All you need is a ride to the airport. If you can stay a few days you can come to my graduation too. That would be really. . . well, I’d just love to have you there. You are my family now.” Adam was starting to feel very sentimental suddenly. “We could just be a normal couple for a while. Then I’ll be moving to Sacramento in July or August and, Kris? Are you there?”
“I’m here. I was just thinking. I’ll do it, Adam. I’ll tell them I’m going to LA and that’s that. I don’t have to depend on them for anything so . . . Adam?”
“Yes, baby.”
“What do you think it will be like? I mean actually living together someday.”
“I don’t know. It’s hard to imagine not living here. I grew up in this house.”
“Yeah, same here. Oh speaking of brothers, I told Danny.”
“What? You told Danny about us? What did he say? How is he about it?”
“Hey, slow down. He’s really okay with it. He knows gay kids and he wasn’t really surprised at all.”
“So did you just tell him you’re gay, or . . .”
“Nope, all of it. Well, not the sex part. I told him that we love each other. He didn’t believe it at first. But I showed him the phone, and . . .”
“You showed him the phone? I sure hope he doesn’t get mad at you or something and tell your parents.”
“He won’t. He’s a good guy. He knows how important this is to me and he doesn’t agree with my parents about the gay thing. He’s on our side, really. He even talked about this summer when you move here and helping me with ways to see you a lot. But if we tell my parents everything we won’t have to sneak around. I like how that feels, Adam. Now I really want to tell them.”
“I’m so proud of you. I wish I could be there with you. Maybe I could be. Maybe my mom will let me fly there.”
“You know what? I really want to just stand up for myself. I want to see the looks on their faces and I hope they will accept me as I am. If they don’t, it’s their loss.”
“When will you tell them?”
“I don’t know, soon, when I see a good time. Danny will be supportive. He isn’t afraid of them either.”
“Did I tell you today that I love you?”
“You certainly did but it’s always great to hear it. I love you too.” There was silence as they both absorbed what was to come. “I’d better go. I want to tell them on my terms, not when I’m skinning in the door late as usual.”
“Okay. Let me know when you talk to them. I know you will, I’ll just be anxious I guess.”
“Of course I will. Bye baby. I really have to go, I don’t want to, but . . .”
“I know. Love you. We’ll talk soon.”
“Love you. Bye.”
***
Kris spent a week practicing with Katy, talking with Adam and he even talked with Leila and got her advice. Then he told Danny what he was going to do. He said he’d be there with him. He was ready and even excited about telling them. He didn’t like living a lie, but he had thought it was the only way. Now there was a new option. He waited for his parents to settle in front of the news after dinner one night. This was it. He called Adam from his room and spoke quietly. “Wish me luck.” Then he stood in front of his mom and dad.
“I need to talk to you both. Can we turn the TV off?”
“What is it, sweetheart? Is something wrong?” Kim was genuinely concerned.
“No, nothing is wrong, but there is something I need to tell you.” Kris fought his nerves and took a deep breath.
“Well, go on then.” Kris’ father was practical and a man of few words.
“Well, there are parts to this. The first part is I want you to know that I’m . . . I’m gay.” There it was. His parents looked at him like he asked them to jump off a ten story building. He waited for them to react. After a couple of minutes of disbelief, Kim finally spoke.
“And, Katy? What about Katy?”
“We are best friends. I love her as that, my best friend. She knows. She’s known for a long time, years I guess.”
“Years . . ?” Kim was trying to fathom this news. It wasn’t easy to accept at face value. This was a total departure from what she knew. “So, when I overheard you and Adam back then, at the beach house, it was Adam who . . .”
“Adam didn’t do anything. He was there and we fell for each other. It’s no one’s fault or anything like that. We are born this way, you didn’t do anything wrong either. It just happens.” The Allens didn’t move. “Katy’s parents know too, and Danny.”
Danny stood up from the chair and walked to Kris. “Yes, I know and it’s fine with me. I just want Kris to be happy.” He put one arm around Kris’ shoulders.
“Thanks, Danny. That means a lot to me.” Kris turned and hugged his brother. His parents looked a little horrified. “Don’t worry, it’s not catching.” He chuckled as did Danny.
“You said there were parts to this?” Some strain was beginning to show on Kim’s face.
“Yes, that’s right. I want you to know about me and I hope you’ll still love me and accept who I am. The other part is that I’m in love with someone and I’ve been seeing him for a while now, since the beginning of January, but I’ve loved him for a very long time, years, and . . .” Kris swallowed hard.
“And . . .”
“And, it’s Adam.”
“Adam? He lives in LA, I think . . . do they still live in LA.”
“Yes, they live in LA, but he and his mom have flown here a few times so we could spend some time together, and see if we still had feelings for each other. We do. He’s going to come here to go to college while I finish high school.”
“Well you certainly have this all planned out, don’t you? And what if we say no, you can’t see him, and we want you to get some help?”
“In that case we will have to decide whether I can still live here. I’m not going to be fixed or cured. There’s nothing to fix. I’m gay and that’s okay. I’m in love with another man, and that’s okay. I intend to be with him, and that’s wonderful. If you can’t stand to look at me, then I’ll move out. It’s that simple. I’m prepared for whatever you decide. I don’t want to move out. I love you both. I really do. I just want to be up front with you and live my life openly and honestly and I haven’t been doing that. But, I’m going to from now on.”
“It sounds like you’ve only seen him a few times, how can you be sure about this.”
“We’ve only seen each other on a few occasions, but sometimes for days at a time. They were here during spring break, the whole week. We got to spend a lot of time together. I have a cellular phone that we use.” Kris took the phone from his pocket to show them.
“So you’ve been lying to us for a pretty long time. I’m very disappointed in you.”
“I didn’t like lying. I’m sorry. It felt like the only way at the time. I didn’t really know how to face you. I was afraid. But as I got older and more secure with myself I knew it was time to tell you. I meant it when I said I don’t want to lie any more. I don’t and I won’t.” There was another long silence. “You told me recently that I seemed so much more grown up, remember mom? You said I was taking responsibility and studying harder. Well, think about it. That’s been in the last five plus months, since I got back together with Adam.”
The Allens still stared at their oldest son. “So, what’s next?” Neil was tentative.
Kris smiled a tentative smile. “Well, Adam asked me to his prom and I’m going. I’ll still go to my prom with Katy. She wants to go and I couldn’t let her down. Adam’s prom is the next day. I already have a plane ticket. That’s what’s next in terms of plans. What’s next really is you guys accepting me and being happy for me.”
“I don’t know if we can do that.” Kim looked at her husband. “This is against everything we believe.”
“Think about it then. Let me know if you want me to move out. I will be very hurt and sad, but I will do it. There is someplace I can go and be loved and accepted. It’s up to you.”
Kris squared his shoulders and confidently walked to his bedroom. His hands were shaking but he felt good. He immediately pressed keys on his phone. “I did it… you may have a house mate soon
They weren’t too happy but it went okay. Someone’s knocking on my door. I’ll call you back.”
“Kris? What’s happening? Kris?” The phone was dead
Title: The Beach House (2/?)
Pairing: Kradam AU
Rating: NC-17
Summary: I’ve loved you since I was ten years old. I just didn’t know what it really meant then. I do now. I love you, Kris.
Disclaimer: Don’t own them in any way
Warnings: None, just the rating. There is some geographical inconsistency, please forgive me. It just worked in the story.
Thank you and much love to NZfan for the beta, and my dear Jo and Eva. You guys light my way. Shout out to Deb and Kate. Thanks for always being here.
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http://community.livejournal.com/kradam_ai/1997208.html#cutid1 Part 1
Kris was actually whistling when he walked into his house. “My, aren’t you cheerful today. Did you have a nice time with Katy after school?”
Kris smiled at his mother. “Yes, I had a great time after school.” It wasn’t a lie, it wasn’t the whole truth. He kept walking to his room and looked for a place to hide his phone, his life line to Adam. He snuck out of the house five times that evening to call his boyfriend. Adam loved it. He only stopped when Leila made Adam tell Kris good night and turn his phone off. The phone was very expensive and the charge for every minute pricey. Leila knew she was going to have to pay a lot so her son could stay in touch with Kris, and she didn’t care. But, she did ask Adam to try to keep the calls down to one or two a day.
When it was time to fly back to LA the next morning, Adam was sad in a way, but happier than he’d ever been. He knew he would see Kris again. Leila said they could fly back to visit Kris at least a couple of times in the next six months. He applied to Sacramento State as soon as he got home. The two boys continued call as much as Kris could get out of the house. They were getting to know each other as young men. They talked about what they wanted to do after college and discussed what their majors would be. Kris was afraid his parents wouldn’t help him with college. He felt pretty sure that he would have to get a job and work through, but he didn’t care as long as he had Adam to come home to. They talked about how soon they could live together. Leila urged them to slow down just a little even though she was the one who set this in motion. Sometimes she actually thought the Allen’s could have her arrested. Eber assured her that was extremely unlikely, and they would have to find out first.
***
“How’s my sexy boyfriend tonight?”
“Kris! Where are you? Don’t get caught.”
“I’m at Katy’s. I told you she’s my best friend, other than you of course.” Kris chuckled.
“What about her parents? How safe is this? I’m always happy to hear your voice, but . . .”
“Stop worrying. Katy’s parents are really cool. They know she and I hang out and go on dates to keep my parents off my back. We decided to tell them a year ago that I’m gay and that she and I are just friends. They know about you too.”
“Remind me to thank them some day. So, now that we’re talking, how is my sexy boyfriend?”
“I’m great now that I’m talking to you. I wish we could talk more often.” Kris giggled.
“Yeah, me too. I applied to Sacramento State. I put down general ed as my major for now, with a minor in vocal performance. Have you thought about college, and, like what you want to do some day?”
“Yeah, some. I think I want to major in music. I’ve thought about being a teacher, so I can be supportive to kids like us. I’ve been able to concentrate on school so much better these last couple of weeks since I saw you. Before that I had such a hard time in school, with everything. Now I want to get my grades up and get into college wherever we decide to be. My mom is kind of shocked that I suddenly want to study. It’s kind of funny really. She’s so happy about it, and she has no clue it’s because of you.” Kris was laughing at the thought.
“That is kind of funny. I’ve had the opposite problem, but I’m getting back into school. Since I saw you, all I could think about was you and I kind of blew off studying. But, I know how important college is. So, that didn’t last too long. I moped for a few days. My mom snapped me out of it.”
“I can’t imagine you moping!! How did she snap you out of it?”
“She told me we wouldn’t go back to visit you if my grades dropped. She meant it too. As you can tell, she doesn’t fool around!” Adam chuckled.
“She’s really awesome. You’re so lucky. Sometime when we’re on the phone, let me say hi to her, okay? I think it would be nice if I said hello once in a while.”
“That’s a cool idea. See your mom did teach you social graces. You remember that?”
“Every word, Adam. I remember every word. I guess my parents have their good side, but honestly all this going to hell stuff just makes me crazy. I don’t believe in their god. I’m not sure what I believe, but they think gay people are all going to hell, so you could say we have a real difference of opinion.”
“I can see that. If we go to hell, we’re going together and we’ll decorate it!”
“You are sooo silly.” They both laughed and talked until Katy came back.
“Pssst, Kris. You have to get off now. Your mom called my house and wants you to come home. I told her you couldn’t come to the phone because you were in the bathroom.” Katy smiled, proud of herself for dodging Mrs. Allen, again.
“Okay . . . Adam, I have to go. See you in my dreams. I’ll try to call again tomorrow. I love you.”
“I love you, Kris. Talk to you soon.”
They weren’t off the phone for more than one minute when another call came.
“Kris & Adam sitting in a tree, k-i-s-s-i-n-g!!
Miss your lips.”
Adam laughed out loud. He thought for the millionth time in two weeks how much he loved his mom for giving them phones.
“I miss your lips too, and more. Can’t wait for more.” The line went dead on Kris’ end.
Easter Week Break 2000
In two months Leila and Adam were back in Sacramento. Of course Kris knew ahead of time and was just about the first one out the front doors of the school after his last class. Katy was right behind him so she could say hello to Adam.
“Hi Adam.” Katy looked at him with a dreamy expression, which Kris thought looked very silly.
“Hi Katy. It’s nice to see you again. Thank you for helping Kris out. I, we, really appreciate it.” Adam smiled at her which of course caused her to melt a bit more.
“Hey!” Kris very lightly punched her arm. “My Adam, remember?” They both laughed. “See you, Katy. I’ll call you.” Katy walked off clutching her school books to her chest and looking over her shoulder at Adam again. Kris laughed.
“It’s a good thing she’s my best friend or I’d have to kick her ass. I can’t blame her.” He chuckled and took Adam’s hand as they walked to the car where Leila was waiting.
It was the beginning of spring break. They could stay a whole week. Kris told his parents a variety of things so he could get out of the house. He told them that he was spending this day with Katy and that day with Trevor, or there was a special orchestra practice all afternoon, and a lot of reasons to be away from home. The boys ended up spending quite a lot of time together. After the first three days, they were both so crazy for each other that they were practically having sex in the back seat of the car. Kids their age had been having sex for years. Leila tried to rationalize it. She talked to Eber on the phone. They agreed on how to handle it. He didn’t want to see his wife in legal hot water, but he wanted his son to have the sexual experiences he’d had at that age, and that most, or at least many, kids had at eighteen. Kris would be seventeen in just a few months.
“Okay, this is how it’s going to be.” Leila sat up straight and spoke to the boys from her seat across the booth from the boys in the small cafe. “We are going to finish lunch, then we are going to the hotel and just watch TV. I’m going to go out for a while and do some . . . shopping. You two can stay in the hotel room and just watch TV. Got it?”
Kris and Adam smiled at each other and just about jumped over the table wanting to hug Leila her half to pieces. “Thank you so much. You are the coolest, most understanding, best mom in the whole world.”
“Yeah, what he said.” Kris was laughing and crying . . . hard! Just the thought of having sex again after three and a half years was killing him. Those awkward hand jobs were blazened in their memories and they couldn’t wait to do that again, and more. Kris pulled his shirt down over the front of his pants, but Leila could tell both boys were more than ready.
“Alright you two. Just hang on for a bit. We’ll be at the hotel in about ten minutes. You think you can hold out that long?” She was chuckling. She found herself somewhat amused by their plight. They started kissing in the back seat of the car on the way. “Slow down guys. Really, slow down. Save some of that ‘kissing’ for when you’re watching TV.” They all laughed as the car pulled into the parking lot of the hotel. She handed Adam the key and winked. “Adam, give me your phone and call me when I can come back, and I mean tonight, not four days from now! Don’t forget Kris has to be home by about eight.”
“I know, mom. Thanks, really. I don’t even know what to say. Just, thanks. I love you so much.”
“Me too. I love you too.” Kris jumped out of the car with Adam right behind him.
“I’ll call you, um, later. Bye!”
Adam had Kris by the hand now and was pulling him toward the elevator and up to the room. “Oh my god, Adam. We’re alone. We’re actually alone. It’s been over three years since we’ve been . . .” HUMPH!! Adam pushed Kris onto the queen size bed he’d been sleeping in and kissed him fiercely.
“Yes, we’re alone and we’re not wasting one minute. I’ve waited so long for this. We’ve both become men since the last time we did this.” Adam kissed him slowly then fully claimed the mouth he loved and imagined it on his cock, like right now. “Kris, I want to . . .”
“Whatever you want to do is okay. I’m ready. You can take me. I’ve been on the Internet at the library and I rented some videos that I watched at Katy’s. I’m sure you’ve been just as resourceful and just as horny. We’ve never been with anyone else so I don’t think we need to worry about condoms, do you? You haven’t right?”
“No, baby. I haven’t been with anyone. I waited to be with you. I have never, ever wanted anyone else. I knew some day we would be in a bed together again. I didn’t imagine my mother would have set it up, but shit. I want you so badly.”
“I love that. Baby. That’s nice.”
“I have something to give you. I didn’t plan it now, I didn’t know there would be a now, but I want to give it to you anyway.” Adam jumped up from the bed and opened a drawer in the room. “I was going to wrap it or something, but well, here.” He held out his gift. Tears ran down Kris’ face.
Oh, baby. I love it. You remembered.”
“You told me you remembered everything, well so do I.”
Kris tenderly touched a small Lego train Adam made for him, and then held it in his fist and pulled it to his heart. It was pretty much like the one he’d made for Adam when he was ten years old, or was he eleven? Okay he didn’t remember everything thing but he sure remembered the Lego train he made for Adam and the Lego train station Adam made. “I love it. Thank you. I still have the Lego train I made for you. It was at my house when . . . well, I still have it. Now there are two, yours and mine.”
“Really? You still have it? I’m glad you saved it, Kris.”
“Now please make love to me. I want us to make love so bad. Please Adam, please, now.” Kris was trying to talk as Adam was kissing him. Then he undressed Kris and Kris undressed him. They stood in awe of each other, absorbing how they looked, how they’d grown and how their bodies had matured. “Wow. I’ve never forgotten . . . you were big then. I think you’re bigger now. Damn.” Kris’ mouth was actually watering. Want that!
“And you’re still beautiful, all of you.” Adam lay Kris back on the bed again and began to caress his body. He licked and sucked Kris’ nipples and kissed his neck, sucking carefully below his collar line so no one would see the hickey. He wanted Kris to see it, later. He wanted to leave a mark on Kris, and he did. He moved down. Kris sucked in a sharp breath as he felt Adam’s mouth go down on him.
“Oh god. That feels . . . so . . . amaz . . . zing . . . god, Adam.”
Adam had never done this before but he practiced in his mind. He watched videos and he imagined how it would feel. It was wonderful. Kris tasted wonderful. He decided years ago that he would swallow. He wanted every part of Kris, every drop, every molecule. He tasted his own cum so he would know what it would be like. He anticipated the feel, the taste, he wanted it all and after just five minutes of bringing his love to the brink, he got it. Kris came and it was glorious. Adam delighted in it, in what he did. He made that happen. He was proud of himself. He sucked until there was nothing left and Kris was completely spent. The salty bitterness soon turned to sweetness as he licked his lips. He pulled Kris’ limp body to his and held him as he spoke softly. “Kris, my Kris. Wow . . . that was so great.” He kissed Kris deeply and shared the remnants of his flavor.
“No kidding. I’ve thought about it a million times, about how it would feel, but it was far better than I ever imagined. I want you now, okay? I want to taste you. You ready?”
“You bet I am.” Adam lay on his back and ran his fingers through soft brown hair as Kris kissed him, then kissed down his body. “Oh, god that feels so good. Take me, baby, I can’t stand it, want your mouth on me, please.” Kris didn’t keep him waiting. He certainly remembered Adam being big, but he didn’t know exactly how big, so he practiced on condom covered bananas, the biggest ones he could find. He smiled to himself thinking about how dorky that seemed right now, but it worked. He was ready to make Adam feel wonderful and come hard. He sucked and stroked and reached up to twist Adam’s nipples. Adam moaned loudly. Kris smiled around the delicious cock in his mouth. Yes. It feels good for him. Wow!
Kris kept at his practiced skills until Adam fell apart and cried out when he came. Kris swallowed it down, all of it. He remembered saying ‘gross’ in his mind over three years ago after he made Adam come the first time. It wasn’t gross now. It was amazing, delicious, wonderful . . . my Adam
They lay together, holding tight to each other. Kissing, tasting, loving.
Adam called his mother. “Can we have some more time, please? We’re really loving watching TV together.” Adam laughed a little, not really embarrassed, but he knew his mother knew he was there having sex and that was just kind of weird.
“Adam, it’s only been about forty minutes. Kris doesn’t have to be home for three and a half more hours. Just enjoy being together, honey, and watching TV.” Leila chuckled again.
“Really . . . oh, thanks. I’ll call you, um, later.” Leila laughed to herself as she pressed ‘end call’ on the phone. Adam found the clock on the bedside table and decided to watch the time, a little. “Kris?”
“Hmm?” Kris was happily nuzzled into Adam’s arms again.
“I guess we’re not virgins any more, but technically, there’s . . .”
“I know, Adam. I’m ready. I want you, all of you. We don’t have any lube. I talked to some counselors at the gay and lesbian center since you were here last time. About what to do, you know? I don’t know how it will be without some, you know, prep? I really want to. Is there something else we can use? Shit.”
“We can pick some up be ready for tomorrow. Oh my god, I just realized we have four more days together. My poor mom. She’s going to be ‘shopping’ a lot!!” Both young men chuckled. Adam’s cell phone rang. It was Leila. “Hi mom. We were just talking about you.”
“I’ll bet you were. I’m so sorry I forgot to tell you. I’m sure you’re doing fine, but if you want to, if you decide to, if you need it . . .”
“What? Mom?”
Leila felt herself blushing. “Well it was your dad’s idea really. Look in my suitcase in the pocket on the side. Bye.” That was it.
“That was the strangest phone call. What the hell . . .” Adam dug into one side pocket of his mother’s suitcase. Empty. His hand reached into the other side pocket and pulled out a medium size bottle of lube. “OH! My god. My mom and dad are saints!! Look Kris. Mom said this was my dad’s idea.” Adam started laughing and couldn’t stop. He had the giggles fiercely and Kris caught the contagious giggle fit as they laughed and rolled on the bed and tossed the bottle of lube in the air and caught it again. They played and laughed and kissed until suddenly Adam was rock hard again and stared into Kris’ eyes with love and lust so intensely that Kris came to a stop, no laughing, no moving, nothing.
“Do it.” Kris was dead serious and Adam loved him more than ever in that moment.
“I’m not sure I know what I’m doing, but I did a little research too.”
“Practice makes perfect.” Kris leered at his lover. “Do it.”
Adam couldn’t help but kiss him and kiss him hard. Then he popped the cap on the lube and pushed Kris’ knees back and opened his legs wide. “Oh . . . my . . .” Adam was dumbstruck. “I never imagined how beautiful you would look like this. If I ever had a doubt about being gay, this would cure it. You’re amazing. So wonderful, so beautiful, and you turn me on like . . . oh my god, Kris.”
“Adam, baby, I’m waiting. You can stare at me later. Right now I want you so bad. Do it!”
Adam didn’t wait any longer. He slopped the lube on his fingers and over Kris’ waiting entrance. “Ohh, that’s cold.”
“You’re going to be warm very soon.” Adam’s index finger slowly disappeared into Kris. Kris sucked in a breath. “You okay?”
“Yeah. It feels a little strange but I like it. Find my prostate. That feels really good. Just turn your finger around.”
“What? You say that like you’ve felt it before.”
“Well, I have. I did it to myself. It feels really, really good, but it will feel even better when you do it.
“You did do your homework. I’m impressed.” Adam had done his homework too but obviously Kris had been more adventurous. He turned his finger until he thought he felt the bundle of nerves. When Kris reacted he knew he found it.
“OH GOD. Yes, that’s it. Wow. Do that more. Shit.” Adam saw Kris get rock hard in moments. Hmm. I want to feel that too. But, for now he would take care of Kris. A second finger went in, then a third, pushing in and out, opening Kris as he continued to tease the sweet spot that was making Kris come apart. It was awkward and his wrist started to hurt from this crazy thing he was doing. “I think I’m gonna come . . . Adam!” Kris did come again and Adam smiled.
“Wow, that must feel really good. I can’t wait for my turn.”
“Don’t stop. It still feels so beyond really good, and I want you in me. Keep doing that, it makes me want you, no, crave you. It makes me crazy for you. Get in me Adam, please, hurry. I want you in me. I never imagined. Damn. Do it. Do it. Do it.”
Adam positioned himself, hastily slopped on more lube, and did it. He was so hard. He entered Kris slowly. He was pretty big and Kris was pretty tight. But, Kris said it felt good and he wanted it. He still wanted to be careful. “Kris. Our first time. I’m actually fucking you. God it feels so good.” Adam moved in and out and found a rhythm of sorts. He had to move and find a way to hold himself up while fucking. It took some trial and error to find a good position. It felt so good.
“Our first time. I love you, I love you, oh god, I’m going to come again. Adam!! Adam!!”
Hearing Kris sent Adam over the edge. He thrust hard and fast for just a few moments, his urge to fuck took over and he really pounded Kris, but just for a few moments… then they came, Kris for the third time. Their first time fucking and they came together, almost, just a few seconds apart. They were delighted as Adam fell forward onto Kris and just lay there. After they recovered they took a shower together. Kris fingered Adam in the shower and he came crying out and pounding on the tile. “Oh, my fucking god! Shit, how do gay guys walk around and not do that all the fucking time?”
“Don’t ask me. I don’t know.” They laughed and cleaned up the bed as best they could and called Leila. It was past time that Kris should have been home. Kris said it would be okay, but they should go. When Leila picked them up, they both looked a dazed and a little pink but laughed. Kris hair was sticking up everywhere. He really looked like he’d just been fucked silly.
“Thanks, mom. We loved watching TV together.”
“Yes, thanks so much. Best TV ever!” Kris giggled. “I told my parents that I was going to Old Sacramento with Katy tomorrow. I can be gone all day. Maybe we can watch some more TV.” All three of them laughed.
***
There was a profound change in the boys over the next several days. Leila could see it and feel it. They both grew up and grew together. It was truly like watching two boys become men. They weren’t pawing at each other as they did in prior days. They seemed more secure with each other, less needy. Leila was proud and happy for them. She was proud of herself too. She made this happen, made it possible for her son to be happy again.
Life moved forward. Kris decided to get an after school job. He got a small allowance but he didn’t want to depend on his parents for money. He had expenses now, boyfriend expenses. If he wanted to mail a small gift to Adam, he could. He kept his Lego train in the drawer beside his bed. When his mother found it when cleaning, he told her he made a Lego train when he was ten. That was one hundred percent true. He just didn’t tell her that wasn’t the same Lego train. Soon after that he started cleaning his own room. He told his mother is was more than past time that he did his own laundry and cleaned his own room, that he was too old to be waited on by his mother. Kim Allen just thought her son was growing up and that was true too.
Kris managed to fit in his studies, orchestra, band, a part time job and some time at a local gym. The money he made paid for that and he didn’t tell his parents about it. It would be summer soon. He already asked his boss at the local pizza place if he could work more hours in the summer, but still part time. Adam would be moving to Sacramento at some point over the summer and he was determined to have all the free time possible to spend with him.
As the school year drew to a close the subject of prom came up. Kris and Katy agreed to go together. There was no boy she was interested going with and Kris was her best friend. So they planned. Adam was planning to.
“I want to take Kris to my Prom. I don’t know if we’ll be allowed to go in, but I figure we can nottouch and just go like two friends, then see what happens inside. Nothing bad will happen. Just help me get Kris here. Pleeeease????"
“I don’t know how we can get Kris here. We'd have to think of something pretty good."
“I’ve thought about that and I think it’s time to tell the truth. I want to call Kris, ask him, then tell his parents he’s coming here to visit me. Maybe even tell them everything.”
“What if they move again and take Kris away?”
“Kris is going to be seventeen in a few weeks. He’s not a child any longer, believe me, he’s not a child.” Adam blushed a little but continued. “He has a mind of his own. He would never stay out of communication with me. He would find a way and I’d hope that his parents would realize that.”
“You know, Adam. I’m so proud of you. You’re right. I’ll call Kim Allen myself. You ask Kris first. Of course he will say yes and we can go from there. We can rent him a tux if you are doing tuxes. Let him know he won’t have to pay for anything… your date, your treat, okay?”
“Thanks, mom. You’re still the best mom on the planet, dad too. Oh, you know what I mean.” They laughed and Adam pulled out his phone. He knew Kris would be at Katy’s as he was almost everyday after school, before he went home. It was their time to talk.
“Hi baby. How’s my sexy boyfriend tonight?”
“I’m great. Listen, I’m calling to ask you out on a date, here in LA. I want you to go to prom with me.”
“Really? How could we . . . I mean . . . I’d love that but how? I mean would they let two boys go together? People here would have a cow for sure.”
“Well, I thought we could just go like as friends, not hold hands or anything and then see what happens. I really don’t know if we can dance together and not get kicked out, but I really want you to be with me at my prom, my date.”
“Then we’ll do it. How am I going to get there? Has your mom cooked up something again?”
“No, not yet, but we will start cooking. Listen, Kris, my mom and I talked about telling your parents the truth . . . you know just tell them you’re coming here for a visit, to see me and stay with my family.”
“I don’t know Adam. That sounds kind of . . .”
“I know, babe, but we can plan it.”
“I just remembered I told Katy I’d go our prom with her. My parents are counting on taking pictures and all that crap. Katy got a dress and everything. I hate to leave her hanging, but, shit . . . I’d sure love to be your date. The sound of that just makes me hard standing here. I think Katy would understand.”
“You get hard if we talk about the weather!” Adam laughed. “I love that about you. So, Katy has a dress already? It’s a month away. You decide. I’d love to see you in a tux on my arm. I’d be so proud. You know that I told my friends about you. There wouldn’t be any problems or issues. I don’t know what will happen, but my friends already agreed to stay in a group with us and my dad is going to be one of the parent chaperones so, we’ll be okay. Hey, when is your prom? What’s the date? Silly me. Maybe they are on two different dates, I hope.”
“Ours is near the end of May, Friday the 28th. When is yours?”
“Oh my god… mine is Saturday the 29th! You can take Katy to yours and then come to mine. You get two proms! My mom is taking care of everything, your air fare, tux, you’ll stay with us, with me . . .” Adam chuckled. “You’ll need to prepare yourself for Neil. He’s such a dweeb. He’s attempting to tease me, but if he’s as ass, just let it roll off. He’s an okay brother most of the time. Mom said you can even stay in my room with me! Isn’t that just amazing?”
“No shit! Wow. I guess that makes sense after all the visits here and all the TV watching.” Kris giggled. “Okay so what about telling my parents that I’m going to visit you?”
“My mom said first choice is you do it. Politely stand up to them and just tell them. I mean what can they do to you? You’re nearly seventeen. I almost hope they kick you out and then you can come and live with us.”
“Adam!”
“I’m sorry. That wasn’t cool. I’m really sorry.” There was silence for a few moments. “Okay next choice is my parents call your parents and spill everything and tell them you want to come for a visit. My mom will mail you your airline ticket. She can mail it to Katy’s house if that’s better. All you need is a ride to the airport. If you can stay a few days you can come to my graduation too. That would be really. . . well, I’d just love to have you there. You are my family now.” Adam was starting to feel very sentimental suddenly. “We could just be a normal couple for a while. Then I’ll be moving to Sacramento in July or August and, Kris? Are you there?”
“I’m here. I was just thinking. I’ll do it, Adam. I’ll tell them I’m going to LA and that’s that. I don’t have to depend on them for anything so . . . Adam?”
“Yes, baby.”
“What do you think it will be like? I mean actually living together someday.”
“I don’t know. It’s hard to imagine not living here. I grew up in this house.”
“Yeah, same here. Oh speaking of brothers, I told Danny.”
“What? You told Danny about us? What did he say? How is he about it?”
“Hey, slow down. He’s really okay with it. He knows gay kids and he wasn’t really surprised at all.”
“So did you just tell him you’re gay, or . . .”
“Nope, all of it. Well, not the sex part. I told him that we love each other. He didn’t believe it at first. But I showed him the phone, and . . .”
“You showed him the phone? I sure hope he doesn’t get mad at you or something and tell your parents.”
“He won’t. He’s a good guy. He knows how important this is to me and he doesn’t agree with my parents about the gay thing. He’s on our side, really. He even talked about this summer when you move here and helping me with ways to see you a lot. But if we tell my parents everything we won’t have to sneak around. I like how that feels, Adam. Now I really want to tell them.”
“I’m so proud of you. I wish I could be there with you. Maybe I could be. Maybe my mom will let me fly there.”
“You know what? I really want to just stand up for myself. I want to see the looks on their faces and I hope they will accept me as I am. If they don’t, it’s their loss.”
“When will you tell them?”
“I don’t know, soon, when I see a good time. Danny will be supportive. He isn’t afraid of them either.”
“Did I tell you today that I love you?”
“You certainly did but it’s always great to hear it. I love you too.” There was silence as they both absorbed what was to come. “I’d better go. I want to tell them on my terms, not when I’m skinning in the door late as usual.”
“Okay. Let me know when you talk to them. I know you will, I’ll just be anxious I guess.”
“Of course I will. Bye baby. I really have to go, I don’t want to, but . . .”
“I know. Love you. We’ll talk soon.”
“Love you. Bye.”
***
Kris spent a week practicing with Katy, talking with Adam and he even talked with Leila and got her advice. Then he told Danny what he was going to do. He said he’d be there with him. He was ready and even excited about telling them. He didn’t like living a lie, but he had thought it was the only way. Now there was a new option. He waited for his parents to settle in front of the news after dinner one night. This was it. He called Adam from his room and spoke quietly. “Wish me luck.” Then he stood in front of his mom and dad.
“I need to talk to you both. Can we turn the TV off?”
“What is it, sweetheart? Is something wrong?” Kim was genuinely concerned.
“No, nothing is wrong, but there is something I need to tell you.” Kris fought his nerves and took a deep breath.
“Well, go on then.” Kris’ father was practical and a man of few words.
“Well, there are parts to this. The first part is I want you to know that I’m . . . I’m gay.” There it was. His parents looked at him like he asked them to jump off a ten story building. He waited for them to react. After a couple of minutes of disbelief, Kim finally spoke.
“And, Katy? What about Katy?”
“We are best friends. I love her as that, my best friend. She knows. She’s known for a long time, years I guess.”
“Years . . ?” Kim was trying to fathom this news. It wasn’t easy to accept at face value. This was a total departure from what she knew. “So, when I overheard you and Adam back then, at the beach house, it was Adam who . . .”
“Adam didn’t do anything. He was there and we fell for each other. It’s no one’s fault or anything like that. We are born this way, you didn’t do anything wrong either. It just happens.” The Allens didn’t move. “Katy’s parents know too, and Danny.”
Danny stood up from the chair and walked to Kris. “Yes, I know and it’s fine with me. I just want Kris to be happy.” He put one arm around Kris’ shoulders.
“Thanks, Danny. That means a lot to me.” Kris turned and hugged his brother. His parents looked a little horrified. “Don’t worry, it’s not catching.” He chuckled as did Danny.
“You said there were parts to this?” Some strain was beginning to show on Kim’s face.
“Yes, that’s right. I want you to know about me and I hope you’ll still love me and accept who I am. The other part is that I’m in love with someone and I’ve been seeing him for a while now, since the beginning of January, but I’ve loved him for a very long time, years, and . . .” Kris swallowed hard.
“And . . .”
“And, it’s Adam.”
“Adam? He lives in LA, I think . . . do they still live in LA.”
“Yes, they live in LA, but he and his mom have flown here a few times so we could spend some time together, and see if we still had feelings for each other. We do. He’s going to come here to go to college while I finish high school.”
“Well you certainly have this all planned out, don’t you? And what if we say no, you can’t see him, and we want you to get some help?”
“In that case we will have to decide whether I can still live here. I’m not going to be fixed or cured. There’s nothing to fix. I’m gay and that’s okay. I’m in love with another man, and that’s okay. I intend to be with him, and that’s wonderful. If you can’t stand to look at me, then I’ll move out. It’s that simple. I’m prepared for whatever you decide. I don’t want to move out. I love you both. I really do. I just want to be up front with you and live my life openly and honestly and I haven’t been doing that. But, I’m going to from now on.”
“It sounds like you’ve only seen him a few times, how can you be sure about this.”
“We’ve only seen each other on a few occasions, but sometimes for days at a time. They were here during spring break, the whole week. We got to spend a lot of time together. I have a cellular phone that we use.” Kris took the phone from his pocket to show them.
“So you’ve been lying to us for a pretty long time. I’m very disappointed in you.”
“I didn’t like lying. I’m sorry. It felt like the only way at the time. I didn’t really know how to face you. I was afraid. But as I got older and more secure with myself I knew it was time to tell you. I meant it when I said I don’t want to lie any more. I don’t and I won’t.” There was another long silence. “You told me recently that I seemed so much more grown up, remember mom? You said I was taking responsibility and studying harder. Well, think about it. That’s been in the last five plus months, since I got back together with Adam.”
The Allens still stared at their oldest son. “So, what’s next?” Neil was tentative.
Kris smiled a tentative smile. “Well, Adam asked me to his prom and I’m going. I’ll still go to my prom with Katy. She wants to go and I couldn’t let her down. Adam’s prom is the next day. I already have a plane ticket. That’s what’s next in terms of plans. What’s next really is you guys accepting me and being happy for me.”
“I don’t know if we can do that.” Kim looked at her husband. “This is against everything we believe.”
“Think about it then. Let me know if you want me to move out. I will be very hurt and sad, but I will do it. There is someplace I can go and be loved and accepted. It’s up to you.”
Kris squared his shoulders and confidently walked to his bedroom. His hands were shaking but he felt good. He immediately pressed keys on his phone. “I did it… you may have a house mate soon
They weren’t too happy but it went okay. Someone’s knocking on my door. I’ll call you back.”
“Kris? What’s happening? Kris?” The phone was dead