Sigh....
Wow, its been a while since I've written. This has not started off being a good day. I had to come in early so that I could finish the paperwork for an order that was supposed to be delivered at 8, but that didn't happen because we didn't know where part of the equipment was. But we got it resolved...I swear if we were ever on time for anything it would be a miracle.
Anywho, yesterday was a pretty hectic, but good day for the most part. Was runnin my butt off at work, but on the plus side, my boss gave me $100. Don't know what I want to do with it...guess I'll just save it for now. Last night was awesome...went out with Blair and Matt again. We ate at Baja Fresh and saw the Terminal...good ass movie...Tom Hanks rocks!!
I swear, I'm having such mixed feelings. I've really been enjoying hanging out with Matt these last couple weeks, but I feel so dumb sometimes. I mean I'm trying to play it cool and get to know him better. I don't know if he's caught on that I like him or not, but the fact that I know he's not attracted to me is constantly playing in the back of my mind. From the girls he's dated, and the ones he points out that he thinks are cute, I have yet to see a blonde, or one that's not skinny. So I guess I'm SOL in that department, but I'm hoping he'll see past that.
The fact that I'm even attracted to him has shocked everyone (including me), but I can't help it. He's the first decent guy I've met in a long time and the more I'm with him, the more I like him. I guess I'm just tired of being alone. I really want someone I can call my own. I'm tired of being happy for everyone else. When is it gonna be my turn to be happy for me? I just want to be wanted, loved, appreciated....all that good stuff.
I know I sound a little dramatic here, but I'm just feeling lonely.
....enough pity on me for now.
Anywho, yesterday was a pretty hectic, but good day for the most part. Was runnin my butt off at work, but on the plus side, my boss gave me $100. Don't know what I want to do with it...guess I'll just save it for now. Last night was awesome...went out with Blair and Matt again. We ate at Baja Fresh and saw the Terminal...good ass movie...Tom Hanks rocks!!
I swear, I'm having such mixed feelings. I've really been enjoying hanging out with Matt these last couple weeks, but I feel so dumb sometimes. I mean I'm trying to play it cool and get to know him better. I don't know if he's caught on that I like him or not, but the fact that I know he's not attracted to me is constantly playing in the back of my mind. From the girls he's dated, and the ones he points out that he thinks are cute, I have yet to see a blonde, or one that's not skinny. So I guess I'm SOL in that department, but I'm hoping he'll see past that.
The fact that I'm even attracted to him has shocked everyone (including me), but I can't help it. He's the first decent guy I've met in a long time and the more I'm with him, the more I like him. I guess I'm just tired of being alone. I really want someone I can call my own. I'm tired of being happy for everyone else. When is it gonna be my turn to be happy for me? I just want to be wanted, loved, appreciated....all that good stuff.
I know I sound a little dramatic here, but I'm just feeling lonely.
....enough pity on me for now.