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Okay, so this is a long day. Since I'm a night owl and still up at 9:30, I guess this might be like 3 am to normal people. Forgive me if I make no sense.
I napped for a half hour. I woke up. I went to the bank. I'm in a pissy mood.
Soo Pissy.
Every morning we have morning people/night people fights here. I'm still up, my parents are all "Why are you still up, you're so lazy" I'm all, "I'm not lazy, I work at night." They're all "Well, don't sleep the whole day away."
I sigh.
Or we repeat this one a lot -
the dad : So, are you excited for law school yet?
Me: No.
Him: Well, doesn't it start soon?
Me: Yup.
Him: Shouldn't you try to get excited?
Me: No.
HIm: (getting very frustrated with me) Well, why aren't you?
Me: Well, I dunno. I'm not. I don't really want to go.
Him: Well, you can't just keep working at Kohl's.
(Here's where I answer something different, depending on my mood)
Agreeable mood ME : You're right. I'll go look at laptops online.
Desperate ME: Why would anyone be happy about doing something that's going to take three years of their life, spending that time at a school they may not actually want to go to, and giving up any other interests they have?
Pissy ME: Who the fuck says I can't?
If it's one of the second two, the response is
Him: Well, what else would you do if you didn't go to school?
Which is where I stalk off, because obviously no one listens to all the other things I'd like to do when I talk about them.
I may enjoy law school, but I'm not excited about it right now, and I'm not going to pretend to be. I also get the question-in-the-form-of-a-pointed-statement ...
The mom: Well, you were excited when you applied..
The Me: yup.
she: so, I don't understand why you're not now.
Me: neither do I.
So that's pointless too. Really, I feel all high school angsty. Driving to the bank this morning I had the same "I have no friends. I have no life. I have no fun. This cheery song is going to make me cry." attitude. It really was like I was 16 all over again. I'm so glad I'm not 16, that feeling sucked. And it sucked to remember it.
SO WARNING - don't challenge my feelings right now, because I can be un-excited if I want, and I'm in a pissy mood.
sorry for length.
I napped for a half hour. I woke up. I went to the bank. I'm in a pissy mood.
Soo Pissy.
Every morning we have morning people/night people fights here. I'm still up, my parents are all "Why are you still up, you're so lazy" I'm all, "I'm not lazy, I work at night." They're all "Well, don't sleep the whole day away."
I sigh.
Or we repeat this one a lot -
the dad : So, are you excited for law school yet?
Me: No.
Him: Well, doesn't it start soon?
Me: Yup.
Him: Shouldn't you try to get excited?
Me: No.
HIm: (getting very frustrated with me) Well, why aren't you?
Me: Well, I dunno. I'm not. I don't really want to go.
Him: Well, you can't just keep working at Kohl's.
(Here's where I answer something different, depending on my mood)
Agreeable mood ME : You're right. I'll go look at laptops online.
Desperate ME: Why would anyone be happy about doing something that's going to take three years of their life, spending that time at a school they may not actually want to go to, and giving up any other interests they have?
Pissy ME: Who the fuck says I can't?
If it's one of the second two, the response is
Him: Well, what else would you do if you didn't go to school?
Which is where I stalk off, because obviously no one listens to all the other things I'd like to do when I talk about them.
I may enjoy law school, but I'm not excited about it right now, and I'm not going to pretend to be. I also get the question-in-the-form-of-a-pointed-statement ...
The mom: Well, you were excited when you applied..
The Me: yup.
she: so, I don't understand why you're not now.
Me: neither do I.
So that's pointless too. Really, I feel all high school angsty. Driving to the bank this morning I had the same "I have no friends. I have no life. I have no fun. This cheery song is going to make me cry." attitude. It really was like I was 16 all over again. I'm so glad I'm not 16, that feeling sucked. And it sucked to remember it.
SO WARNING - don't challenge my feelings right now, because I can be un-excited if I want, and I'm in a pissy mood.
sorry for length.