Just a rant..
I slept like shit last night. I actually don't think I slept at all, maybe an hour or two. I have so much stuff going on in my life and I have no one to talk to about it. I try to talk to my Mom but she just blows things off b/c most of it has to do with James and she loves him dearly. I just need to get this all out...
It makes me so sick that he will jump through hurdles for his brother and his bitchy ass girlfriend when he knows they both can't stand me.
He makes plans to do things and doesn't even ask me! For instance, Danielle, his brother g/friend is having computer problems so he said he would go over there Saturday morning. He knows I clean my Mom's house on Saturday mornings. I told him he is taking Jackson with him.
I hate that I never leave the house except going to my Moms house or the Dr. I am so sick of being home all the time. I miss having friends.
I wish James would talk to me. We talk but we don't communicate. I don't know what he is feeling or anything & it drives me nuts! I wish he would open up more.
I'm hate that he agrees with everything I say. He is so passive and doesn't want to argue. I feel like if I told him I was going to jump off a bridge, he'd say ok.
I wish he would compliment me more on everything and mean it, like how good I am with Jackson or if I look nice, tell me. I never hear anything if I clean the house from top to bottom. I don't even think he notices.
He never ask me to go to the grocery store with him. He always goes alone. I don't know why. I know it's RSV season but hell, I'd like to get out of the house as well.
I know all this is minor stuff and I hope we can work through it but I'm at my wits end...
It makes me so sick that he will jump through hurdles for his brother and his bitchy ass girlfriend when he knows they both can't stand me.
He makes plans to do things and doesn't even ask me! For instance, Danielle, his brother g/friend is having computer problems so he said he would go over there Saturday morning. He knows I clean my Mom's house on Saturday mornings. I told him he is taking Jackson with him.
I hate that I never leave the house except going to my Moms house or the Dr. I am so sick of being home all the time. I miss having friends.
I wish James would talk to me. We talk but we don't communicate. I don't know what he is feeling or anything & it drives me nuts! I wish he would open up more.
I'm hate that he agrees with everything I say. He is so passive and doesn't want to argue. I feel like if I told him I was going to jump off a bridge, he'd say ok.
I wish he would compliment me more on everything and mean it, like how good I am with Jackson or if I look nice, tell me. I never hear anything if I clean the house from top to bottom. I don't even think he notices.
He never ask me to go to the grocery store with him. He always goes alone. I don't know why. I know it's RSV season but hell, I'd like to get out of the house as well.
I know all this is minor stuff and I hope we can work through it but I'm at my wits end...