shinee; jonghyun/onew, #1 and 3-ish
anonymous
June 27 2011, 07:17:06 UTC
"I wonder sometimes," Jinki says, pausing for a while for a sharp intake of breath, "if I try to hard."
Jonghyun quickly glances to his side, the empty space between them, the distance enough for five people to fit in. The other members have decided to continue with the promotions despite the lead singers going down with the flu. Jinki's been sick for the past two weeks, and Lord knows Jonghyun will be sick for a far longer time. Jonghyun inches a bit closer, casually cocks his head to Jinki's direction and says, "Mhmm, go on."
"I never get things right on the first try. I always need a second chance." Jinki clenches his fists, the little frustrations bottling up and slipping from his lips, the edges of his eyes in tiny teardrops that roll down his cheeks. "I never do things right, and it's just so tiring being in the wrong. I can't afford these mistakes. I can't afford to make them. I'm the leader. I should be your role model. I should be great, not good enough." The rise and fall of Jinki's chest becomes steadier as his voice drifts off and his hands fall to his side.
Jonghyun faces Jinki for the first time. "Who said you weren't?"
"I-"
The glimmer in Jinki's eyes is a mix of tears and surprise, with maybe a tinge of realization thrown in somewhere along the way. "You do try to hard. You're a natural shocker. Don't force it." Jonghyun takes a deep breath before finally saying, "You're great. Don't even deny it. You know you are."
Jinki laughs lightly. "Maybe I am." He teeters a little in his seat and repeats, this time with more laughter, "Maybe I really am."
There is pride in the undertone of Jinki's voice that Jonghyun loves hearing, so he falls silence, presses his lips tightly against each other and smiles just softly, watching as a realization breaks across Jinki's features. "I... am." Jinki says, slowly and almost amazed, and Jonghyun nods.
And leans in quickly for a kiss on the cheek.
They sit in silence until the sound of Kibum's voice breaks from the front door, until Taemin's happy greeting reaches their ears. Minho's got two bags' worth of dinner and stories. Jonghyun sits opposite Jinki and marvels at the newfound confidence worn brightly on his sleeve and thinks, yes, Jinki is amazing.
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i swear i had something better and scrapped the whole thing thirty minutes into writing it because i had no clue what to write anymore :(
Jonghyun quickly glances to his side, the empty space between them, the distance enough for five people to fit in. The other members have decided to continue with the promotions despite the lead singers going down with the flu. Jinki's been sick for the past two weeks, and Lord knows Jonghyun will be sick for a far longer time. Jonghyun inches a bit closer, casually cocks his head to Jinki's direction and says, "Mhmm, go on."
"I never get things right on the first try. I always need a second chance." Jinki clenches his fists, the little frustrations bottling up and slipping from his lips, the edges of his eyes in tiny teardrops that roll down his cheeks. "I never do things right, and it's just so tiring being in the wrong. I can't afford these mistakes. I can't afford to make them. I'm the leader. I should be your role model. I should be great, not good enough." The rise and fall of Jinki's chest becomes steadier as his voice drifts off and his hands fall to his side.
Jonghyun faces Jinki for the first time. "Who said you weren't?"
"I-"
The glimmer in Jinki's eyes is a mix of tears and surprise, with maybe a tinge of realization thrown in somewhere along the way. "You do try to hard. You're a natural shocker. Don't force it." Jonghyun takes a deep breath before finally saying, "You're great. Don't even deny it. You know you are."
Jinki laughs lightly. "Maybe I am." He teeters a little in his seat and repeats, this time with more laughter, "Maybe I really am."
There is pride in the undertone of Jinki's voice that Jonghyun loves hearing, so he falls silence, presses his lips tightly against each other and smiles just softly, watching as a realization breaks across Jinki's features. "I... am." Jinki says, slowly and almost amazed, and Jonghyun nods.
And leans in quickly for a kiss on the cheek.
They sit in silence until the sound of Kibum's voice breaks from the front door, until Taemin's happy greeting reaches their ears. Minho's got two bags' worth of dinner and stories. Jonghyun sits opposite Jinki and marvels at the newfound confidence worn brightly on his sleeve and thinks, yes, Jinki is amazing.
---
i swear i had something better and scrapped the whole thing thirty minutes into writing it because i had no clue what to write anymore :(
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