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Maybe it's just because my period should be on it's way but I think I should give up hope on a friendship. Too much time has passed and I should just accept nothing will be the same as it was before. Same story different person. I am outgrown once again.
The only thing I can do now is keep working on myself. Hoping to get better. Find encouragement in the people around me and maybe one day I can have the boy I want. Or one of the boys i want and hopefully they won't tire of me like everyone else does and I will never have to feel lonely or at least i have someone to tag along with me for certain things.
I found myself the absolute sweetest boy. He is beautiful, gentle, cuddly. Basically a human panda bear ~We have almost nothing in common. He likes Celine Dion and classical music. His heart is full of sunshine and love- according to him, and I guess mine is full of gloom and doom ¬¬ I already told him I wasn't ready for him and he should forget me. He replied in the best way anyone ever could...
He said he understood and would wait.
...and that he didn't lose faith in me for a second.
I can't have him now, but I want him someday... and i want to never ever let go of him! Then, we can finally say those 3 words to each other that I know we both feel but don't dare say aloud. ^^
Until that time, I hope he doesn't tire of me like everyone else... I don't know how to break this curse of mine.
-Totally unrelated :P
For the first time ever Mongol said he would save money to come and see me. I know he can't save money hehe He likes to spend, but I am just happy he allowed himself to have the thought for once. ^^
he showed me both eyes!
He kinda had a breakdown that I actually witnessed part of from the other side of the world. He basically told his girlfriend off and then left the city for 2 months and was just wondering the grasslands again. He is finally back to civilization and like 10 pounds lighter. We finally discussed deeper things like... Family and food haha and he lied and lied and lied >_< grrrrr
xXx oOo
×Jackie×
The only thing I can do now is keep working on myself. Hoping to get better. Find encouragement in the people around me and maybe one day I can have the boy I want. Or one of the boys i want and hopefully they won't tire of me like everyone else does and I will never have to feel lonely or at least i have someone to tag along with me for certain things.
I found myself the absolute sweetest boy. He is beautiful, gentle, cuddly. Basically a human panda bear ~We have almost nothing in common. He likes Celine Dion and classical music. His heart is full of sunshine and love- according to him, and I guess mine is full of gloom and doom ¬¬ I already told him I wasn't ready for him and he should forget me. He replied in the best way anyone ever could...
He said he understood and would wait.
...and that he didn't lose faith in me for a second.
I can't have him now, but I want him someday... and i want to never ever let go of him! Then, we can finally say those 3 words to each other that I know we both feel but don't dare say aloud. ^^
Until that time, I hope he doesn't tire of me like everyone else... I don't know how to break this curse of mine.
-Totally unrelated :P
For the first time ever Mongol said he would save money to come and see me. I know he can't save money hehe He likes to spend, but I am just happy he allowed himself to have the thought for once. ^^
he showed me both eyes!
Click to viewHe kinda had a breakdown that I actually witnessed part of from the other side of the world. He basically told his girlfriend off and then left the city for 2 months and was just wondering the grasslands again. He is finally back to civilization and like 10 pounds lighter. We finally discussed deeper things like... Family and food haha and he lied and lied and lied >_< grrrrr
xXx oOo
×Jackie×