Let's Return To The Good Times (Chapter 6)
The pain that he felt, the longing he felt, the sadness he felt. Did they feel it too? Will they be 13 again? Wil they be the brothers they once were?
Leeteuk stared at the pale sleeping figure in front of him and sighed heavily. He leaned back in his chair, ran a hand over his tussled hair and allowed himself to close his eyes and rest. It had been a tiring day for him, and an even tiring week for all of their members. He had to attend interviews about Kyuhyun’s sudden absence and fed their fans the story of the maknae falling ill due to exhaustion, often leaving home as early as 5am and returning home only around 1am the next day.
None of the members wanted the E.L.Fs to worry for them. Their fans had their own personal problems to deal with and their own lives to live. As much as Super Junior love the attention from their loyal and dedicated fans, they didn’t want them to focus too much attention on their idols and forget about their own lives. Of course, the antis had leapt at the very chance and start bashing Super Junior and SM Entertainment for slaving their idols. Leeteuk wouldn’t deny that their company had put lots stress and pressure on them, but the rumors that the antis had spread were ridiculous. None of the members had paid much attention to the antis and insults by them. For now, all they cared about was Kyuhyun and his current condition. Well, almost all of the members had paid the antis no heed. Heechul was the only one who reacted. But Heechul is Heechul. Being himself, he had posted a long post on twitter, again, telling the antis to piss off and find better things to do. Of course, in a much nicer way.
Sometimes, Leeteuk don’t get the antis at all. Why do the antis even bother? If they were antis, that would mean that they hate Super Junior, right? So why did they even bother to spend time and effort on something they don’t even like? It was a waste of energy, he decided, for the antis. He smiled to himself as he recalled a comment that Hankyung had said off handedly one day regarding the antis’ attacks after a particular diva had gone off an hour rant about them. “他们真的是吃饱了撑。“ (Loosely translated as they’re just too bored.) And he couldn’t agree more.
The Super Junior leader was drawn out of his thoughts by a soft knock on the door and looked up in surprise. He wasn’t expecting anyone to visit them. Other than the members themselves and the rest of the SM family, no one else knew that Kyuhyun was there. His eyes widen in surprise when he saw Yunho, DBSK’s leader standing there, leaning against the door, face shadowed. He thought that the latter would be in the dorm, seeing that he was in no shape to come out and face the media. Leeteuk nodded his head in a greeting and motioned for the younger to come in. As Yunho slumped himself down on the chair next to him, it was only then Leeteuk had a good look at the younger’s face thanks to the small ray of sunlight that was streaming through the crack of the drawn curtains. It was only a few months ago that the three members of DBSK had filed the lawsuit and the entire issue had taken a toll on the leader himself. The media making a huge deal out of it wasn’t helping either. The remaining two members had decided to suspend all activities for 2 years for themselves to recover from the emotional blow that they had received. It was hard for them to sing with more than half the group missing. It didn’t feel right. Something was wrong. Something was missing.
And just a week ago, when DBSK got the news that Kyuhyun had attempted suicide, their world sank lower if that was even possible. When Super Junior had found out that Kyuhyun had attempted suicide, at least they had thirteen other brothers to rely on for support. But Yunho and Changmin only had each other and with both of them wallowing in depression already, needless to say, there wasn’t much support that they could rely on. The leader of DBSK had no choice but to bear all the burden by himself as Changmin had locked himself in his room and sunk into depression, which was further fueled when they were told that JYJ wasn’t allowed to contact them. Leeteuk appreciates what Yunho had done for Super Junior. Really he does. When Leeteuk had to go off for interviews, Yunho was always there to take care of the rest of Super Junior. It’s not that the rest of SM family didn’t help them. SHINee and SNSD had helped them to fend off the antis and took over on their radio shows, but Yunho and Changmin, they were there with them physically and in spirit, helping them to cope and soften the emotional stress, even though they were suffering heavily themselves.
DBSK and Super Junior had always been close, as far as Leeteuk could remember. They had even filmed a music video together, (I think it was filmed in 2005/2006 but only released in 2011. what is SM doing???? Is there still hope for Super Junior to reunite and DBSK too?) during Christmas, titled ‘Show Me Your Love’, before JYJ had filed their lawsuit. The fans had even subbed as ‘DBSJ’, a combination of DBSK and Super Junior. It was fun times together, when they were together as a family, both DBSK and Super Junior. But those times were over, they were only something that all of them could only visit in their memories, the times when they would look back on their tears and laugh. But now, they would look back on their laughter and cry.
Yunho’s eyes were red and swollen, but no tears came out. It was as if he had been crying dryly, sobbing dry tears. Yunho had always been that kind of person, since the day he was born. Like Kyuhyun, he wasn’t the type to express his feelings openly whereas on the other hand, Changmin was. So, all Yunho could do was to keep his sorrow to himself and keep a strong face for Changmin and Super Junior but inside he was withering. His cheeks were sunken and hollow, face pale, his clothes were disheveled, as if he had been wearing the same clothes for the same week straight. The way he could hardly move his hand to his temples to relieve an invisible pain was excruciating to watch. Yunho’s eyes, Leeteuk thought, had gone through the most change and were the most depressing features of all. They look lost, as if he doesn’t have a reason to live. His usual charismatic glint in his eyes was gone. It had left with JYJ.
“Don’t worry.” Leeteuk whispered as he placed as comforting hand on Yunho’s thigh, only to be answered back with a weary smile. He wished that he could do something to help Yunho, but who was he to do anything when he was sad himself? All he could do now was to provide the DBSK’s leader with the support that he badly needed.
A knock on the door caught their attention and the two leaders’ heads snapped up at the sound. The knock was soft but audible as it echoed off the four walls of the room that they were in. The sound came once more before pausing and the door creaked slightly as somebody placed their weight on it. It was as if that person was contemplating whether to open the door or not. He knocked once more before walking away as the shuffling of feet could be heard. Leeteuk got up and dragged himself to the door before drawing it open. He didn’t know why he did that, even though it was clear that the person outside had left, but something told him that he had to open the door no matter what.
He looked outside and only managed to catch a glimpse of the retreating figure. His foot kicked something slightly and he looked down only to find, sitting in front of the door, was a basket full of sage and carnation of different colors.
(in flower language, sage means esteem and health whereas carnations of mixed colors symbolizes health and energy) along with a handwritten note - “Kyu, you idiot dongsaeng. Hurry up and wake up and stop making your beloved hyungs worry.” Leeteuk couldn’t help but allow a smile to grace his features before frowning in thought. Who could it be who send it? No one other than their managers and the SM family knew that Kyuhyun was here? SHINee and SNSD are in Japan and BoA and Kangta are busy preparing for their own singles. f(x) was in goodness-knows-where practicing, so it couldn’t be any of the SM artistes. So who? It can’t be a fan either. If it was, the note would be filled with hearts and they would be calling Kyuhyun ‘oppa’ instead of dongsaeng. So who?
“What’s wrong?” Yunho’s voice called him back to the real world.
Leeteuk did nothing but motioned for Yunho to come and showed him the paper.
“Recognizes the handwriting?” He asked.
Yunho frowned as he stared at the note. It looks familiar to him but somehow he can’t remember where he had seen it, even though it felt like he should know it. He shook his head in reply to Leeteuk’s question.
“Really? Ok. Don’t worry about it. Must be one of our family members.” Leeteuk reasoned out in the end. It has to be. They couldn’t find anyone else in their memory who knew where Kyuhyun was.
Unknown to them, a figure stood near the hospital, staring at the room that Kyuhyun was in before looking at the sky and sighing.
A/N.
my writing standards are failing. cries. imma so sorry. thank you to all the readers and subscribers for sticking with me through my so sucky fic. to my deskmate/schoolmate/classmate/bestfriend: yes, i know that this chapter is sucky and wipe the grin of your face. other than that, no comment.
eh.... should i make kyu wake up in the chapter? haha. let’s drag it on for 1-2 chapters? ok? *ducks from knifes and fish hooks thrown by readers* bleh. DBSK makes their entrance. i apologizes for splitting them apart. really. i was crying heavily when writing this chapter. my heart was in so much pain. and listening to w by jyj does not help at all. heck, i even cried when i listened to balloons, which was supposed to be a happy song, but it just reminds me of their happy times together before their lawsuit. now i doubt that any of them is even happy at all.
worst chapter that i have ever written. apologizes.i’ll make up for it in the next chapter. school started! no... so i probably won’t have much time to write fanfics. will try to update as soon as possible. anyone wants to guess who that mysterious figure and who the knocker is? either comment or PM me. either one. haha.
comments are really appreciated! and LOVED!
Leeteuk stared at the pale sleeping figure in front of him and sighed heavily. He leaned back in his chair, ran a hand over his tussled hair and allowed himself to close his eyes and rest. It had been a tiring day for him, and an even tiring week for all of their members. He had to attend interviews about Kyuhyun’s sudden absence and fed their fans the story of the maknae falling ill due to exhaustion, often leaving home as early as 5am and returning home only around 1am the next day.
None of the members wanted the E.L.Fs to worry for them. Their fans had their own personal problems to deal with and their own lives to live. As much as Super Junior love the attention from their loyal and dedicated fans, they didn’t want them to focus too much attention on their idols and forget about their own lives. Of course, the antis had leapt at the very chance and start bashing Super Junior and SM Entertainment for slaving their idols. Leeteuk wouldn’t deny that their company had put lots stress and pressure on them, but the rumors that the antis had spread were ridiculous. None of the members had paid much attention to the antis and insults by them. For now, all they cared about was Kyuhyun and his current condition. Well, almost all of the members had paid the antis no heed. Heechul was the only one who reacted. But Heechul is Heechul. Being himself, he had posted a long post on twitter, again, telling the antis to piss off and find better things to do. Of course, in a much nicer way.
Sometimes, Leeteuk don’t get the antis at all. Why do the antis even bother? If they were antis, that would mean that they hate Super Junior, right? So why did they even bother to spend time and effort on something they don’t even like? It was a waste of energy, he decided, for the antis. He smiled to himself as he recalled a comment that Hankyung had said off handedly one day regarding the antis’ attacks after a particular diva had gone off an hour rant about them. “他们真的是吃饱了撑。“ (Loosely translated as they’re just too bored.) And he couldn’t agree more.
The Super Junior leader was drawn out of his thoughts by a soft knock on the door and looked up in surprise. He wasn’t expecting anyone to visit them. Other than the members themselves and the rest of the SM family, no one else knew that Kyuhyun was there. His eyes widen in surprise when he saw Yunho, DBSK’s leader standing there, leaning against the door, face shadowed. He thought that the latter would be in the dorm, seeing that he was in no shape to come out and face the media. Leeteuk nodded his head in a greeting and motioned for the younger to come in. As Yunho slumped himself down on the chair next to him, it was only then Leeteuk had a good look at the younger’s face thanks to the small ray of sunlight that was streaming through the crack of the drawn curtains. It was only a few months ago that the three members of DBSK had filed the lawsuit and the entire issue had taken a toll on the leader himself. The media making a huge deal out of it wasn’t helping either. The remaining two members had decided to suspend all activities for 2 years for themselves to recover from the emotional blow that they had received. It was hard for them to sing with more than half the group missing. It didn’t feel right. Something was wrong. Something was missing.
And just a week ago, when DBSK got the news that Kyuhyun had attempted suicide, their world sank lower if that was even possible. When Super Junior had found out that Kyuhyun had attempted suicide, at least they had thirteen other brothers to rely on for support. But Yunho and Changmin only had each other and with both of them wallowing in depression already, needless to say, there wasn’t much support that they could rely on. The leader of DBSK had no choice but to bear all the burden by himself as Changmin had locked himself in his room and sunk into depression, which was further fueled when they were told that JYJ wasn’t allowed to contact them. Leeteuk appreciates what Yunho had done for Super Junior. Really he does. When Leeteuk had to go off for interviews, Yunho was always there to take care of the rest of Super Junior. It’s not that the rest of SM family didn’t help them. SHINee and SNSD had helped them to fend off the antis and took over on their radio shows, but Yunho and Changmin, they were there with them physically and in spirit, helping them to cope and soften the emotional stress, even though they were suffering heavily themselves.
DBSK and Super Junior had always been close, as far as Leeteuk could remember. They had even filmed a music video together, (I think it was filmed in 2005/2006 but only released in 2011. what is SM doing???? Is there still hope for Super Junior to reunite and DBSK too?) during Christmas, titled ‘Show Me Your Love’, before JYJ had filed their lawsuit. The fans had even subbed as ‘DBSJ’, a combination of DBSK and Super Junior. It was fun times together, when they were together as a family, both DBSK and Super Junior. But those times were over, they were only something that all of them could only visit in their memories, the times when they would look back on their tears and laugh. But now, they would look back on their laughter and cry.
Yunho’s eyes were red and swollen, but no tears came out. It was as if he had been crying dryly, sobbing dry tears. Yunho had always been that kind of person, since the day he was born. Like Kyuhyun, he wasn’t the type to express his feelings openly whereas on the other hand, Changmin was. So, all Yunho could do was to keep his sorrow to himself and keep a strong face for Changmin and Super Junior but inside he was withering. His cheeks were sunken and hollow, face pale, his clothes were disheveled, as if he had been wearing the same clothes for the same week straight. The way he could hardly move his hand to his temples to relieve an invisible pain was excruciating to watch. Yunho’s eyes, Leeteuk thought, had gone through the most change and were the most depressing features of all. They look lost, as if he doesn’t have a reason to live. His usual charismatic glint in his eyes was gone. It had left with JYJ.
“Don’t worry.” Leeteuk whispered as he placed as comforting hand on Yunho’s thigh, only to be answered back with a weary smile. He wished that he could do something to help Yunho, but who was he to do anything when he was sad himself? All he could do now was to provide the DBSK’s leader with the support that he badly needed.
A knock on the door caught their attention and the two leaders’ heads snapped up at the sound. The knock was soft but audible as it echoed off the four walls of the room that they were in. The sound came once more before pausing and the door creaked slightly as somebody placed their weight on it. It was as if that person was contemplating whether to open the door or not. He knocked once more before walking away as the shuffling of feet could be heard. Leeteuk got up and dragged himself to the door before drawing it open. He didn’t know why he did that, even though it was clear that the person outside had left, but something told him that he had to open the door no matter what.
He looked outside and only managed to catch a glimpse of the retreating figure. His foot kicked something slightly and he looked down only to find, sitting in front of the door, was a basket full of sage and carnation of different colors.
(in flower language, sage means esteem and health whereas carnations of mixed colors symbolizes health and energy) along with a handwritten note - “Kyu, you idiot dongsaeng. Hurry up and wake up and stop making your beloved hyungs worry.” Leeteuk couldn’t help but allow a smile to grace his features before frowning in thought. Who could it be who send it? No one other than their managers and the SM family knew that Kyuhyun was here? SHINee and SNSD are in Japan and BoA and Kangta are busy preparing for their own singles. f(x) was in goodness-knows-where practicing, so it couldn’t be any of the SM artistes. So who? It can’t be a fan either. If it was, the note would be filled with hearts and they would be calling Kyuhyun ‘oppa’ instead of dongsaeng. So who?
“What’s wrong?” Yunho’s voice called him back to the real world.
Leeteuk did nothing but motioned for Yunho to come and showed him the paper.
“Recognizes the handwriting?” He asked.
Yunho frowned as he stared at the note. It looks familiar to him but somehow he can’t remember where he had seen it, even though it felt like he should know it. He shook his head in reply to Leeteuk’s question.
“Really? Ok. Don’t worry about it. Must be one of our family members.” Leeteuk reasoned out in the end. It has to be. They couldn’t find anyone else in their memory who knew where Kyuhyun was.
Unknown to them, a figure stood near the hospital, staring at the room that Kyuhyun was in before looking at the sky and sighing.
A/N.
my writing standards are failing. cries. imma so sorry. thank you to all the readers and subscribers for sticking with me through my so sucky fic. to my deskmate/schoolmate/classmate/bestfriend: yes, i know that this chapter is sucky and wipe the grin of your face. other than that, no comment.
eh.... should i make kyu wake up in the chapter? haha. let’s drag it on for 1-2 chapters? ok? *ducks from knifes and fish hooks thrown by readers* bleh. DBSK makes their entrance. i apologizes for splitting them apart. really. i was crying heavily when writing this chapter. my heart was in so much pain. and listening to w by jyj does not help at all. heck, i even cried when i listened to balloons, which was supposed to be a happy song, but it just reminds me of their happy times together before their lawsuit. now i doubt that any of them is even happy at all.
worst chapter that i have ever written. apologizes.i’ll make up for it in the next chapter. school started! no... so i probably won’t have much time to write fanfics. will try to update as soon as possible. anyone wants to guess who that mysterious figure and who the knocker is? either comment or PM me. either one. haha.
comments are really appreciated! and LOVED!