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it's been a long time since i've updated this
what's happend since then
well this weekend was the 48 hour film project
and i had a sweet idea for a movie and lots of support
but in the end we decided that we were gonna finish it later and make it longer and better and have more help with it
i think it'll turn out better
just not for the 48 hour film project
that's a bummer and i'm a little upset about it
but
we can make it better now
oh yeah and also
brilliana
she was bummed when she found out i wasn't gonna have her in the movie at all
so i decided to put her in as an extra and she was fine with that
then friday night when we were planning on doing the scene she was in she calls me
and says "oh can we do the scene tomorrow because we are going up to the lake tonight it's short notice"
and i say "who is we?"
and she says "me and my parents"
now this is were i quickly flash back to about an hour before where i had seen her father AND mother come to a movie...pirates non the less so there is no way she is with them currently
i sold her dad popcorn!
and i say "your parents are seeing pirates"
and she says "oh shit" and hangs up on me
clearly lies straight to me
and the only reason she feels bad about it is because i busted her on it
so i was really really pissed at her
and i still am VERY pissed at her
and she's LUCKY that i am talking to her because right now i do'nt want to be
i'm still very pissed at her
and then i left her a hateful message on her phone then another on aim
and she came back later to explain herself
and her excuse was...
i was hanging out with jessie, brett, and cory and whoever else idk....and i forgot about your movie and i felt bad so i called you to get out of it and you busted me and i feel soooo bad i'm soooo sorry
still as of right now NOT forgiven
so i later tell her
do'nt talk to me....do'nt call me do'nt visit me at work i do'tn want to hear you see you or even read your name...if you want to contact me at all you can text me but only to apologize more otherwise do'nt talk to me when i feel like forgiving you i'll call you
then what does she do?
she texts me the next day
apology?
god no
it was to see if we were eating lunch
and then to see if i wanted to do something
when she knew that i was gonna be filming all day
so i didn't want to see her at all
and i still really do'nt
but i called her at abotu 6ish and we went and got food until dustin called
and then she left and i didn't see her the rest of the night
then she wanted me to go to new auburn with her and her family today
and i really didn't want to because i am still upset with her
and i don't want to sit there with her family tryign to have a good time when all i can think about is how she would have rather lied to her "best friend" so she could hang out with brett
but i told her i would
then i woke up at like 5 this morning and my hand hurt like a mother
i must have done something to it last night filming or something because i couldnt' like move it
and i couldnt' fall back asleep because the pain was too much
so i called her and told her i wasn't gonna go with her
so now i'm at home
stewing in anger
and in pain
and i feel sick
and i am pissed at her
and i hate her so much right now
but she thinks that i do'nt
she thinks that i've forgiven her
well fuck her
if she would choose brett over me
then i do'nt need her
if she would lie to me so easily then what else could she have lied about?
there are so many times she coul dhave just lied to me and i would not know
so fuck her
right now i do'nt want to talk to her
so brilliana i'm sure you'll read this
and you might comment on it with some pissed off comment
but i do'nt care
i dot'n care if you are pissed that i ditched out of goign to new auburn
because you being crabby about me not going with you is nothign compared to how angry i am at you now
so i do'nt care
what's happend since then
well this weekend was the 48 hour film project
and i had a sweet idea for a movie and lots of support
but in the end we decided that we were gonna finish it later and make it longer and better and have more help with it
i think it'll turn out better
just not for the 48 hour film project
that's a bummer and i'm a little upset about it
but
we can make it better now
oh yeah and also
brilliana
she was bummed when she found out i wasn't gonna have her in the movie at all
so i decided to put her in as an extra and she was fine with that
then friday night when we were planning on doing the scene she was in she calls me
and says "oh can we do the scene tomorrow because we are going up to the lake tonight it's short notice"
and i say "who is we?"
and she says "me and my parents"
now this is were i quickly flash back to about an hour before where i had seen her father AND mother come to a movie...pirates non the less so there is no way she is with them currently
i sold her dad popcorn!
and i say "your parents are seeing pirates"
and she says "oh shit" and hangs up on me
clearly lies straight to me
and the only reason she feels bad about it is because i busted her on it
so i was really really pissed at her
and i still am VERY pissed at her
and she's LUCKY that i am talking to her because right now i do'nt want to be
i'm still very pissed at her
and then i left her a hateful message on her phone then another on aim
and she came back later to explain herself
and her excuse was...
i was hanging out with jessie, brett, and cory and whoever else idk....and i forgot about your movie and i felt bad so i called you to get out of it and you busted me and i feel soooo bad i'm soooo sorry
still as of right now NOT forgiven
so i later tell her
do'nt talk to me....do'nt call me do'nt visit me at work i do'tn want to hear you see you or even read your name...if you want to contact me at all you can text me but only to apologize more otherwise do'nt talk to me when i feel like forgiving you i'll call you
then what does she do?
she texts me the next day
apology?
god no
it was to see if we were eating lunch
and then to see if i wanted to do something
when she knew that i was gonna be filming all day
so i didn't want to see her at all
and i still really do'nt
but i called her at abotu 6ish and we went and got food until dustin called
and then she left and i didn't see her the rest of the night
then she wanted me to go to new auburn with her and her family today
and i really didn't want to because i am still upset with her
and i don't want to sit there with her family tryign to have a good time when all i can think about is how she would have rather lied to her "best friend" so she could hang out with brett
but i told her i would
then i woke up at like 5 this morning and my hand hurt like a mother
i must have done something to it last night filming or something because i couldnt' like move it
and i couldnt' fall back asleep because the pain was too much
so i called her and told her i wasn't gonna go with her
so now i'm at home
stewing in anger
and in pain
and i feel sick
and i am pissed at her
and i hate her so much right now
but she thinks that i do'nt
she thinks that i've forgiven her
well fuck her
if she would choose brett over me
then i do'nt need her
if she would lie to me so easily then what else could she have lied about?
there are so many times she coul dhave just lied to me and i would not know
so fuck her
right now i do'nt want to talk to her
so brilliana i'm sure you'll read this
and you might comment on it with some pissed off comment
but i do'nt care
i dot'n care if you are pissed that i ditched out of goign to new auburn
because you being crabby about me not going with you is nothign compared to how angry i am at you now
so i do'nt care