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it's been awhile
i gues i do'nt really feel the need to update it anymore
you all pretty much can understand what's goign on with my life
i'm pretty miserable
i love a girl
you all know who
she doesn't love me in the way i wish she did
i want to go out with her
she doesn't want ot go out with me
then i tell her i do'nt want to go out with her
because for one night i feel like i want to be alone right now
and she gets way too happy
and now i want her again
so that's about it
i get jealous alot all the time
jealous because she hangs out with my friends that i like
and she makes me hate them
that's just what happens to me when i get jealous
i hate people i like
i hate life
even when i should like it
i'm in a shitty mood today
so i start off the day feeling really shitty
then brilliana calls me and wants to go to the parade
and i do'nt want to because i feel like shit
even though i promised her before
then she gets really pissed off
i'm sorry i don' twant to go when i feel like shit
if i would have known it meant so much i would have gone
then she goes to see xmen 3....without me
when a couple of days ago we agreed to go see it together
her excuses were
1) a ditch for a ditch
and 2) we never made plans to see that
so that was a really awesome start to the day
i didn't even bother asking who she went with
i would just get more pissed off
even though it bugs me to know
whatever!
so then i get my new car
that puts me in a good mood so i call her to see if she wants to rent movies today and watch them
she has to clean
so i tell her to clean then call me
so she takes...all day to clean
so i sit here waiting for her
i could be doing other things....i have other friends...i could've hung out with brent...or gone to conners bday party with gilmore
but no
i waited at home for her to finish cleaning so we could rent movies and hang out
so now it's 7
and she just called back like 15 min ago saying her mom isn't letting her leave
so after i sit around waiting for her to clean...and listening to her type on the computer and waste time...now she can't even go
cool
she was laughing about not cleaing
but i was getting upset
because she obviously didn't care to hang out with me enough to actually make an effort into getting done soon
so i was getting pissed
it's been a pissy lame lazy shitty boring day
i hope she finishes soon and we can watch a movie at her house
otherwise i just wasted my entire fucking day
which i already did
cool
what a great day
i gues i do'nt really feel the need to update it anymore
you all pretty much can understand what's goign on with my life
i'm pretty miserable
i love a girl
you all know who
she doesn't love me in the way i wish she did
i want to go out with her
she doesn't want ot go out with me
then i tell her i do'nt want to go out with her
because for one night i feel like i want to be alone right now
and she gets way too happy
and now i want her again
so that's about it
i get jealous alot all the time
jealous because she hangs out with my friends that i like
and she makes me hate them
that's just what happens to me when i get jealous
i hate people i like
i hate life
even when i should like it
i'm in a shitty mood today
so i start off the day feeling really shitty
then brilliana calls me and wants to go to the parade
and i do'nt want to because i feel like shit
even though i promised her before
then she gets really pissed off
i'm sorry i don' twant to go when i feel like shit
if i would have known it meant so much i would have gone
then she goes to see xmen 3....without me
when a couple of days ago we agreed to go see it together
her excuses were
1) a ditch for a ditch
and 2) we never made plans to see that
so that was a really awesome start to the day
i didn't even bother asking who she went with
i would just get more pissed off
even though it bugs me to know
whatever!
so then i get my new car
that puts me in a good mood so i call her to see if she wants to rent movies today and watch them
she has to clean
so i tell her to clean then call me
so she takes...all day to clean
so i sit here waiting for her
i could be doing other things....i have other friends...i could've hung out with brent...or gone to conners bday party with gilmore
but no
i waited at home for her to finish cleaning so we could rent movies and hang out
so now it's 7
and she just called back like 15 min ago saying her mom isn't letting her leave
so after i sit around waiting for her to clean...and listening to her type on the computer and waste time...now she can't even go
cool
she was laughing about not cleaing
but i was getting upset
because she obviously didn't care to hang out with me enough to actually make an effort into getting done soon
so i was getting pissed
it's been a pissy lame lazy shitty boring day
i hope she finishes soon and we can watch a movie at her house
otherwise i just wasted my entire fucking day
which i already did
cool
what a great day