Epiphany, Employment, and Expectant
So, every once in a while, you have an epiphany (an apostrophe?); lightning strikes your brain, and you receive a revelation. Sometimes, this revelation is something personal to you; and sometimes, it just makes you realize something about life in general.
I was listening to Hate Me by Blue October today. The story behind the song is this; the guy writing the song is telling his friends and family to move on from him. He feels he has been nothing but a burden to them, and they have spent too much energy worrying about him. He uses a lot of graphic imagery to express how sick he feels about the way he treated people when they were only trying to help him. He just wants them to forget about him so they don't have to be weighed down and held back by him.
"Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you."
These are the words of someone growing up; someone realizing that life isn't just about them. There are a lot of "me"s and "my"s in the song, but it's ultimately about him realizing that things don't just revolve around him. Too many times, I think we get caught up in the "me"s and "my"s in our lives; seeing ourselves as the leading man in the story that is around us, with everyone else playing a supporting role. But those people are main characters, too. They have lives that don't have anything to do with us. They have their own struggles and their own triumphs that have absolutely nothing to do with our own.
I've been in this "love" kick lately. I just feel there is so much hate in this world, that is bringing our society down in very real ways. It may take a lot of time, but everyone will one day realize that God is the love that everyone desires and needs. "One day every tongue will confess; every knee will bow..." There will come a time when everyone will know, without a shadow of a doubt, that He is the Lord, our God, and that His grace sustains. I just wish it was sooner, rather than later.
I've been looking for a job lately. I'm trying to figure out where I'm supposed to go. I have a few lines out there, just waiting for some bites; hoping God lets me know which direction I'm supposed to go soon.
"In a sick way, I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night. When I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight. You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate. You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take."
I just don't want to be a disappointment...
"With a sad heart, I say, "bye" to you and wave, kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made. Like a baby boy, I never was a man 'til I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand. And then I fell down yelling, "MAKE IT GO AWAY!" Just make her smile come back and shine just like it used to be, and then she whispered, "How can you do this to me?"
Gordo's Cheese Dip is disgusting.
I was listening to Hate Me by Blue October today. The story behind the song is this; the guy writing the song is telling his friends and family to move on from him. He feels he has been nothing but a burden to them, and they have spent too much energy worrying about him. He uses a lot of graphic imagery to express how sick he feels about the way he treated people when they were only trying to help him. He just wants them to forget about him so they don't have to be weighed down and held back by him.
"Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you."
These are the words of someone growing up; someone realizing that life isn't just about them. There are a lot of "me"s and "my"s in the song, but it's ultimately about him realizing that things don't just revolve around him. Too many times, I think we get caught up in the "me"s and "my"s in our lives; seeing ourselves as the leading man in the story that is around us, with everyone else playing a supporting role. But those people are main characters, too. They have lives that don't have anything to do with us. They have their own struggles and their own triumphs that have absolutely nothing to do with our own.
I've been in this "love" kick lately. I just feel there is so much hate in this world, that is bringing our society down in very real ways. It may take a lot of time, but everyone will one day realize that God is the love that everyone desires and needs. "One day every tongue will confess; every knee will bow..." There will come a time when everyone will know, without a shadow of a doubt, that He is the Lord, our God, and that His grace sustains. I just wish it was sooner, rather than later.
I've been looking for a job lately. I'm trying to figure out where I'm supposed to go. I have a few lines out there, just waiting for some bites; hoping God lets me know which direction I'm supposed to go soon.
"In a sick way, I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night. When I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight. You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate. You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take."
I just don't want to be a disappointment...
"With a sad heart, I say, "bye" to you and wave, kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made. Like a baby boy, I never was a man 'til I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand. And then I fell down yelling, "MAKE IT GO AWAY!" Just make her smile come back and shine just like it used to be, and then she whispered, "How can you do this to me?"
Gordo's Cheese Dip is disgusting.