36. Precious Treasure
Title: Precious Treasure
Author: KoyaShige90
Fandom: Kanjani8
Characters: Ryo, Ohkura, Kanjani8
Rating: I would call it safe.
Words: 2507
And NO I don't own anything except from the plot, not even the title is mine!
Summary: Ryo is going through some difficulties as he's falling in love with his friend.
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When it's decided that he'll share a room with Ohkura for some reason it makes his stomach flutter. It's a feeling that has been growing more common over the last month, showing itself from time to time. Ryo just can't help himself when it comes to Ohkura, the feeling simply appears whenever they bump shoulders, their hands touch or every time Ohkura laughs. There's just something there that hasn't been there before. Gradually it had become harder and harder to even be close to his friend, and whenever they had to, Ryo would get embarrassingly giddy and nervous.
So when the tour came around and the seven of them would be together every day for a few weeks it was not all that strange that he felt nervous, starting off with sharing the backseat with Ohkura, which they usually did, but this time it was just awkward for Ryo and he mostly faked sleeping while the group moved around.
But this was not by far the worst part, because additionally to the fact that he would have to spend time with Ohkura several hours every day, the two of them were also appointed to the same room. The two of them are usually placed to share a room during tours, unless they all have separate rooms, but this night when Ohkura closes the door behind them Ryo isn't sure what to do with himself. They are both strangely quiet and Ryo can barely stand it.
In lack of better ideas he calls for the shower before Ohkura has a chance to even put his bag down. Ryo has locked himself inside in less than a minute and splashes water in his face in hope that it somehow will help him get a grip of himself.
The whole thing is really annoying and he, who usually likes to spend time with the drummer, just can't seem to calm down his nerves enough to manage being himself. A cold shower might help some, at least it will give him a few minutes less with Ohkura.
Cold water runs down his body but all he can think about is the man on the other side of the thin hotel walls. He knows what he wants to do and that's exactly what scares him. Never has he felt so much need for someone else, he's aching after Ohkura and he had no clue of what to do. These few months had been a living hell of suppressed feelings and sexual tension.
It all started when the dance rehearsal for their duo number began. TORN with the very suggestive dance had taken them both by surprise and over the weeks the moves had changed Ryo's view all together. His view of Ohkura that is.
Every day he found new things about his friend that appealed to him, on several levels, and it was something he had never experienced before. He was slowly day by day becoming more and more attracted to Ohkura, and it was also getting a whole lot harder to control. He also knew that the flutter in his stomach wasn't all due to the attraction. It was more than just desire, and it scared the living hell out of him that he was actually falling in love with one of his best friends. Scratch that; had already fallen in love.
During the latest performance after they'd finished the song he had a really hard time concentrating. And that wasn't the only thing that was hard.
Fortunately no one had noticed anything yet, but the fact remained that Ryo was about to explode any second and now he had to share a room with the trigger. It was a dangerous situation to find yourself in, but at this point there was nothing for him to do but to endure.
When he steps out of the shower he's shivering but he knows that even though a warm bed is waiting for him, getting there isn't something he is very keen about. With one of the hotel towels around his waist he holds his breath and takes that step out.
As soon as he leaves the shower room Ohkura's eyes are on him. Ryo feels naked and wish that he had more than a piece of fabric between himself and Ohkura's gaze. He knows that the drummer is just giving him one of his usual smiles, but it feels penetrating and Ryo has to turn away and pretend to look through his bag in a search after clothes, even though he has already found them.
“You took so long I thought I might fall asleep before you came back out.” There is an obvious smile in the other man's voice and Ryo listens as Ohkura walks around the room and digs around in his own luggage. When Ryo has his pants on he feels safe enough to turn around and look at the younger man again. He's just fished up some of his own shampoo and conditioner from his stuff.
“I don't like hotel shampoo.” He explains plainly and flashes Ryo a smile that has his heart skip a beat for no reason.
“You look cold, you should get properly dressed.” Ohkura says as he points at him before he disappears into the small bathroom and Ryo just stands there staring at the closed door.
In a few minutes he is clothed, even though he usually would be in only underwear by this time. He has never liked sleeping wearing lots of clothes, but getting naked with Ohkura in the same room? He's not sure he can handle that the way he is now, even though he would be safely hidden beneath his covers, he just doesn't want to take any chances.
It's a weird nervousness he feels as he waits for Ohkura to finish his shower and several times he thinks about going to bed. But no matter what it's just too early to not be suspicious. So he turns on the TV. At least it will block out some of his thoughts, and the room won't be as weirdly quiet.
Just as he starts to enjoy the game show he's watching rather than thinking of the fact that Ohkura is being naked in the shower a few meters away, the door to the bathroom clicks open. Automatically Ryo turns his head and he is met by a wet Ohkura in a towel, just like Ryo himself had been earlier. But the effect of a mostly naked Ohkura had on him was strong and he has to force himself to keep his eyes on the TV screen, though his focus is very far from the program now.
A few minutes passed and the show ended, but still he kept watching the commercials. In the meantime the younger man had changed into a bathrobe, just like Ryo usually would have done too.
“Let's watch the recordings from the last concert.” It almost startles him; the other hadn't said anything since he came back from the shower until now. He gives his friend a glance and a quick smile as he settles with a nod for answer.
This way at the very least they would do something. It was a good and pretty much safe way to pass time until he could find his rescue in sleep.
Ohkura digs up the dvd they had been given and puts it in the player before he sits down beside Ryo. It's not edited yet and it's a lot of moments when it's just clips of the fans. But they like knowing they are appreciated and the performances are in it too. They check up and comment on their mistakes, laughs at their stupid MC and Ryo finds himself really enjoying it.
Ryo remembers why he used to think it was easy to hang out with Ohkura and for about half an hour they sit there and laugh together as they keep pointing out mistakes and other funny things, such as Hina's face. But then TORN is up and suddenly Ryo can't help but feel very conscious again. He wants to turn it off, but actually saying it would seem suspicious. Compared to one minute ago it was quiet, and there was an obvious tension in the air. Ryo prays Ohkura won't notice.
He swallows hard and dares a glance to the side to see Ohkura's face. When the drummer suddenly speaks Ryo almost flinches in surprise.
“This is a good performance, we should do it again at another concert if we ever get the chance.” Ohkura's eyes were fixed on the screen and Ryo could see him nodding and strumming his fingers to the beat, half mumbling a word from time to time. The sight was quite cute and Ryo smiles to himself, his friend had always been the type to sing along. Then Ohkura turned towards him, with a strangely serious expression.
“Ne, Ryo-chan… Did I do something wrong?” Just by looking at him you could see that this was a serious question and not a joke.
At once his mind seemed to go blank. His throat was feeling unbearably dry and Ryo doubts he could have answered even if he had known what to say. All he could do was stare back into the other's eyes that suddenly seem so close. He wonders why those eyes seem so sad, and he has a feeling it was his fault. But his brain wasn't working very well at the moment. The room was heavily quiet again and Ryo didn't say anything, leaving it up to the other, waiting for Ohkura to either speak some more or go back to watch quietly.
“You haven't talked to me once since we arrived here. And even before that you've practically stopped talking to me.” It seemed Ohkura had gotten it all wrong, and a pang of guilt hit him as Ryo saw the other's sad face.
“Ryo. If I did something to upset you please just tell me. I'm sorry, whatever I did I don't want you to dislike me.” All he could do was shake his head weakly. How could Ohkura believe such a thing? Has he really been that cold towards his friend?
Ryo could see the signs of tears in the other’s eyes and it really hurt to think that it was his fault that Ohkura was feeling like this. He had to do something, he couldn’t just hide anymore. Ohkura was too important to him. He would just have to stop being a coward, though that is a lot easier said than done.
“I’m sorry. You didn’t do anything wrong at all, it’s me who should apologize. I’ve… I’m really sorry.” It was hard, he wasn’t sure what to say, Ryo just wanted Ohkura to know he hadn’t done anything wrong.
His friend was looking confused and Ryo didn’t blame him, being left alone for such a long time without any reason, of course he would blame himself. So now when Ryo explained it was his fault, what was Ohkura supposed to believe? He really have been an idiot in how he had dealt with all this.
“What do you mean?” This was it, there was no way for Ryo to get out of this without telling the truth, and even though it possibly could ruin their friendship, it was now his last resort. With a deep breath he turns towards Ohkura and locks his eyes with the other man.
“I’ve been avoiding you, but it’s not because of something you did.” Here it was; the last chance to turn back, only he didn’t want to anymore. “It’s because of something I’m feeling, because of what I’ve started to feel about you. The truth is… That I’ve fallen in love with you.” Ryo waits for a reaction, any reaction from Ohkura, but when he gets none he simply keeps on talking.
“I never meant for it to happen, and I tried everything to stop feeling like I did, but in the end I couldn’t, so I stopped myself in the only way I could think of; by avoiding you.” Ohkura was moving awkwardly and Ryo could feel his own tears threatening to fall. “I didn’t want it to ruin our friendship, because it’s so important to me, you are important to me. But it seems I just made it worse, I should never have avoided you and now it’s too late.” There was no way for Ryo to stop his crying anymore, and he hangs his head down in an attempt to hide from the man in front of him.
“What do you mean ‘It’s too late.’?” It was the first words Ohkura had said since Ryo’s confession, and it was not something Ryo had expected to hear. He looks up and is met with Ohkura’s eyes, they were both crying and Ryo can’t make any sense of it.
“It’s not too late. Ryo, you’re one of my best friends and it takes a lot more for that bond to break.” Then Ohkura embraced him and Ryo wasn’t sure if he was awake anymore.
“Ryo. I’m so sorry for not seeing anything. I had no idea, and if I’m honest I still have a hard time grasping it all.” The words where whispered with a sincere voice, and Ryo can’t help but to clutch the fabric of Ohkura’s bathrobe as they still held their arms around each other on Ryo’s bed.
“I love you too Ryo, but at least for now, I only see you as my friend.” At those words it felt like his stomach was filled with stone and his lounges was made of fire, Ryo felt like he couldn’t breathe anymore and yet all he could do was hold the other man even tighter.
“I’m so sorry Ryo-chan, I really am. I don’t know if I’ll ever answer your feelings, I’ve never even thought about it before, I’m just really confused about everything right now. All I know is that I will always be your friend, and who knows, I might even fall for you too, and it’s just… I need some time to think.” Ohkura pulled back, and even though Ryo got cold leaving Ohkura’s warm chest, he feels too numb to resist. Then Ohkura made something unexpected and leaned in to place his lips over Ryo’s and it took him by surprise. It was so incredibly soft that Ryo almost lost himself in the feeling, but it soon came to an end and Ohkura pulled back leaving his hand playing with Ryo’s neck hair.
“Until I can give you my answer, can you still be my friend? I’ve really missed you.” Ryo nods and when Ohkura dries his tears away Ryo feels that even if Ohkura would never love him in the same way, the two of them would always be together. And even if they would only be friends that was fine, because Ryo knew now that just by having Ohkura by his side he could be happy.
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This fic is a part of my Fic Challenge List which you can find HERE at my Fanfic Archive.
The theme is as the title says: "Precious Treasure". I hope you found the title fitting and the story interesting. It wasn't a straight out pairing fic this time, but I thought it worked out well anyway.
If you want to you can check out my B-day post of Ohkura from last year.
MY B-DAY POST FOR TACCHON!
As well as my NEW B-day post for this year!
Ohkura's NEW B-day post!
Posted in my other LJ-acount (Hanashika90).
♥
If you enjoyed reading, feel free to check out the rest of my fics. ^w^ There's plenty of RyOhkura in there!
Also be aware that English isn't my first language, so I apologize if there are any annoying errors. ^^''' Please comment, it's what keeps me motivated! :D So if you like it remember to comment, constructive critique is also welcome... But that doesn't mean you have to be overly evil! *just joking* ^_^
Author: KoyaShige90
Fandom: Kanjani8
Characters: Ryo, Ohkura, Kanjani8
Rating: I would call it safe.
Words: 2507
And NO I don't own anything except from the plot, not even the title is mine!
Summary: Ryo is going through some difficulties as he's falling in love with his friend.
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When it's decided that he'll share a room with Ohkura for some reason it makes his stomach flutter. It's a feeling that has been growing more common over the last month, showing itself from time to time. Ryo just can't help himself when it comes to Ohkura, the feeling simply appears whenever they bump shoulders, their hands touch or every time Ohkura laughs. There's just something there that hasn't been there before. Gradually it had become harder and harder to even be close to his friend, and whenever they had to, Ryo would get embarrassingly giddy and nervous.
So when the tour came around and the seven of them would be together every day for a few weeks it was not all that strange that he felt nervous, starting off with sharing the backseat with Ohkura, which they usually did, but this time it was just awkward for Ryo and he mostly faked sleeping while the group moved around.
But this was not by far the worst part, because additionally to the fact that he would have to spend time with Ohkura several hours every day, the two of them were also appointed to the same room. The two of them are usually placed to share a room during tours, unless they all have separate rooms, but this night when Ohkura closes the door behind them Ryo isn't sure what to do with himself. They are both strangely quiet and Ryo can barely stand it.
In lack of better ideas he calls for the shower before Ohkura has a chance to even put his bag down. Ryo has locked himself inside in less than a minute and splashes water in his face in hope that it somehow will help him get a grip of himself.
The whole thing is really annoying and he, who usually likes to spend time with the drummer, just can't seem to calm down his nerves enough to manage being himself. A cold shower might help some, at least it will give him a few minutes less with Ohkura.
Cold water runs down his body but all he can think about is the man on the other side of the thin hotel walls. He knows what he wants to do and that's exactly what scares him. Never has he felt so much need for someone else, he's aching after Ohkura and he had no clue of what to do. These few months had been a living hell of suppressed feelings and sexual tension.
It all started when the dance rehearsal for their duo number began. TORN with the very suggestive dance had taken them both by surprise and over the weeks the moves had changed Ryo's view all together. His view of Ohkura that is.
Every day he found new things about his friend that appealed to him, on several levels, and it was something he had never experienced before. He was slowly day by day becoming more and more attracted to Ohkura, and it was also getting a whole lot harder to control. He also knew that the flutter in his stomach wasn't all due to the attraction. It was more than just desire, and it scared the living hell out of him that he was actually falling in love with one of his best friends. Scratch that; had already fallen in love.
During the latest performance after they'd finished the song he had a really hard time concentrating. And that wasn't the only thing that was hard.
Fortunately no one had noticed anything yet, but the fact remained that Ryo was about to explode any second and now he had to share a room with the trigger. It was a dangerous situation to find yourself in, but at this point there was nothing for him to do but to endure.
When he steps out of the shower he's shivering but he knows that even though a warm bed is waiting for him, getting there isn't something he is very keen about. With one of the hotel towels around his waist he holds his breath and takes that step out.
As soon as he leaves the shower room Ohkura's eyes are on him. Ryo feels naked and wish that he had more than a piece of fabric between himself and Ohkura's gaze. He knows that the drummer is just giving him one of his usual smiles, but it feels penetrating and Ryo has to turn away and pretend to look through his bag in a search after clothes, even though he has already found them.
“You took so long I thought I might fall asleep before you came back out.” There is an obvious smile in the other man's voice and Ryo listens as Ohkura walks around the room and digs around in his own luggage. When Ryo has his pants on he feels safe enough to turn around and look at the younger man again. He's just fished up some of his own shampoo and conditioner from his stuff.
“I don't like hotel shampoo.” He explains plainly and flashes Ryo a smile that has his heart skip a beat for no reason.
“You look cold, you should get properly dressed.” Ohkura says as he points at him before he disappears into the small bathroom and Ryo just stands there staring at the closed door.
In a few minutes he is clothed, even though he usually would be in only underwear by this time. He has never liked sleeping wearing lots of clothes, but getting naked with Ohkura in the same room? He's not sure he can handle that the way he is now, even though he would be safely hidden beneath his covers, he just doesn't want to take any chances.
It's a weird nervousness he feels as he waits for Ohkura to finish his shower and several times he thinks about going to bed. But no matter what it's just too early to not be suspicious. So he turns on the TV. At least it will block out some of his thoughts, and the room won't be as weirdly quiet.
Just as he starts to enjoy the game show he's watching rather than thinking of the fact that Ohkura is being naked in the shower a few meters away, the door to the bathroom clicks open. Automatically Ryo turns his head and he is met by a wet Ohkura in a towel, just like Ryo himself had been earlier. But the effect of a mostly naked Ohkura had on him was strong and he has to force himself to keep his eyes on the TV screen, though his focus is very far from the program now.
A few minutes passed and the show ended, but still he kept watching the commercials. In the meantime the younger man had changed into a bathrobe, just like Ryo usually would have done too.
“Let's watch the recordings from the last concert.” It almost startles him; the other hadn't said anything since he came back from the shower until now. He gives his friend a glance and a quick smile as he settles with a nod for answer.
This way at the very least they would do something. It was a good and pretty much safe way to pass time until he could find his rescue in sleep.
Ohkura digs up the dvd they had been given and puts it in the player before he sits down beside Ryo. It's not edited yet and it's a lot of moments when it's just clips of the fans. But they like knowing they are appreciated and the performances are in it too. They check up and comment on their mistakes, laughs at their stupid MC and Ryo finds himself really enjoying it.
Ryo remembers why he used to think it was easy to hang out with Ohkura and for about half an hour they sit there and laugh together as they keep pointing out mistakes and other funny things, such as Hina's face. But then TORN is up and suddenly Ryo can't help but feel very conscious again. He wants to turn it off, but actually saying it would seem suspicious. Compared to one minute ago it was quiet, and there was an obvious tension in the air. Ryo prays Ohkura won't notice.
He swallows hard and dares a glance to the side to see Ohkura's face. When the drummer suddenly speaks Ryo almost flinches in surprise.
“This is a good performance, we should do it again at another concert if we ever get the chance.” Ohkura's eyes were fixed on the screen and Ryo could see him nodding and strumming his fingers to the beat, half mumbling a word from time to time. The sight was quite cute and Ryo smiles to himself, his friend had always been the type to sing along. Then Ohkura turned towards him, with a strangely serious expression.
“Ne, Ryo-chan… Did I do something wrong?” Just by looking at him you could see that this was a serious question and not a joke.
At once his mind seemed to go blank. His throat was feeling unbearably dry and Ryo doubts he could have answered even if he had known what to say. All he could do was stare back into the other's eyes that suddenly seem so close. He wonders why those eyes seem so sad, and he has a feeling it was his fault. But his brain wasn't working very well at the moment. The room was heavily quiet again and Ryo didn't say anything, leaving it up to the other, waiting for Ohkura to either speak some more or go back to watch quietly.
“You haven't talked to me once since we arrived here. And even before that you've practically stopped talking to me.” It seemed Ohkura had gotten it all wrong, and a pang of guilt hit him as Ryo saw the other's sad face.
“Ryo. If I did something to upset you please just tell me. I'm sorry, whatever I did I don't want you to dislike me.” All he could do was shake his head weakly. How could Ohkura believe such a thing? Has he really been that cold towards his friend?
Ryo could see the signs of tears in the other’s eyes and it really hurt to think that it was his fault that Ohkura was feeling like this. He had to do something, he couldn’t just hide anymore. Ohkura was too important to him. He would just have to stop being a coward, though that is a lot easier said than done.
“I’m sorry. You didn’t do anything wrong at all, it’s me who should apologize. I’ve… I’m really sorry.” It was hard, he wasn’t sure what to say, Ryo just wanted Ohkura to know he hadn’t done anything wrong.
His friend was looking confused and Ryo didn’t blame him, being left alone for such a long time without any reason, of course he would blame himself. So now when Ryo explained it was his fault, what was Ohkura supposed to believe? He really have been an idiot in how he had dealt with all this.
“What do you mean?” This was it, there was no way for Ryo to get out of this without telling the truth, and even though it possibly could ruin their friendship, it was now his last resort. With a deep breath he turns towards Ohkura and locks his eyes with the other man.
“I’ve been avoiding you, but it’s not because of something you did.” Here it was; the last chance to turn back, only he didn’t want to anymore. “It’s because of something I’m feeling, because of what I’ve started to feel about you. The truth is… That I’ve fallen in love with you.” Ryo waits for a reaction, any reaction from Ohkura, but when he gets none he simply keeps on talking.
“I never meant for it to happen, and I tried everything to stop feeling like I did, but in the end I couldn’t, so I stopped myself in the only way I could think of; by avoiding you.” Ohkura was moving awkwardly and Ryo could feel his own tears threatening to fall. “I didn’t want it to ruin our friendship, because it’s so important to me, you are important to me. But it seems I just made it worse, I should never have avoided you and now it’s too late.” There was no way for Ryo to stop his crying anymore, and he hangs his head down in an attempt to hide from the man in front of him.
“What do you mean ‘It’s too late.’?” It was the first words Ohkura had said since Ryo’s confession, and it was not something Ryo had expected to hear. He looks up and is met with Ohkura’s eyes, they were both crying and Ryo can’t make any sense of it.
“It’s not too late. Ryo, you’re one of my best friends and it takes a lot more for that bond to break.” Then Ohkura embraced him and Ryo wasn’t sure if he was awake anymore.
“Ryo. I’m so sorry for not seeing anything. I had no idea, and if I’m honest I still have a hard time grasping it all.” The words where whispered with a sincere voice, and Ryo can’t help but to clutch the fabric of Ohkura’s bathrobe as they still held their arms around each other on Ryo’s bed.
“I love you too Ryo, but at least for now, I only see you as my friend.” At those words it felt like his stomach was filled with stone and his lounges was made of fire, Ryo felt like he couldn’t breathe anymore and yet all he could do was hold the other man even tighter.
“I’m so sorry Ryo-chan, I really am. I don’t know if I’ll ever answer your feelings, I’ve never even thought about it before, I’m just really confused about everything right now. All I know is that I will always be your friend, and who knows, I might even fall for you too, and it’s just… I need some time to think.” Ohkura pulled back, and even though Ryo got cold leaving Ohkura’s warm chest, he feels too numb to resist. Then Ohkura made something unexpected and leaned in to place his lips over Ryo’s and it took him by surprise. It was so incredibly soft that Ryo almost lost himself in the feeling, but it soon came to an end and Ohkura pulled back leaving his hand playing with Ryo’s neck hair.
“Until I can give you my answer, can you still be my friend? I’ve really missed you.” Ryo nods and when Ohkura dries his tears away Ryo feels that even if Ohkura would never love him in the same way, the two of them would always be together. And even if they would only be friends that was fine, because Ryo knew now that just by having Ohkura by his side he could be happy.
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This fic is a part of my Fic Challenge List which you can find HERE at my Fanfic Archive.
The theme is as the title says: "Precious Treasure". I hope you found the title fitting and the story interesting. It wasn't a straight out pairing fic this time, but I thought it worked out well anyway.
If you want to you can check out my B-day post of Ohkura from last year.
MY B-DAY POST FOR TACCHON!
As well as my NEW B-day post for this year!
Ohkura's NEW B-day post!
Posted in my other LJ-acount (Hanashika90).
♥
If you enjoyed reading, feel free to check out the rest of my fics. ^w^ There's plenty of RyOhkura in there!
Also be aware that English isn't my first language, so I apologize if there are any annoying errors. ^^''' Please comment, it's what keeps me motivated! :D So if you like it remember to comment, constructive critique is also welcome... But that doesn't mean you have to be overly evil! *just joking* ^_^