Goals and Plans for the year/future.

[koyaannisqatsi]

I could also say decade, but to be honest, time really doesn't matter in such increments. Yes, hours, days, weeks, months and years are important for various social and personal reasons, but beyond simple years, I start not quite getting why it's important. I guess marking the passage of time should be monumental in some way, but I don't feel it. Just like I don't actually feel like it's a new year. Nothing is terribly new, other than the fact that I want to get it together this year.

I want to get healthier.
What a surprise. I started working out with Ashley because our schedules meshed, but I guess I need to take the initiative and go ahead and do it myself. Now that I have an iPod, I think it will be much easier to just go by myself and not feel quite as lonely. I need to eat more (hahaha, didn't expect that?) but it's honestly keeping me from being healthy, in addition to eating well. College doesn't bode well, but I need to learn from Kay how she does it. D:< (that is my determined face).

I want to to well in school.
Historically speaking, that's been an issue for me this year. I think I've now failed two classes this year (three in total) both of which are major-core: Syntax and Semantics. Semantics was because I didn't sort out the Incomplete in time, and Syntax was because I was stupid. No excuses this time. I want all A's. :-l (I will take most all of the blame for that, but I've also had a really bad year personally. It was full of let-downs, bad friends, bad parents, foiled plans and dashed dreams. Depression and suicidal thoughts because of what a terrible year it became. I'm believing it to be a better time and a season of remaking. That said, I believe it will help me mend and repair my life to be like I wish it.)

I want to DO more.
I'm tired of sitting at home and watching television! I love it, and I wouldn't mind making a career of it, but since that is unlikely to happen, I want to get out and do more! It will be difficult since life isn't free (and television kind of is), but I want to go to more shows, do more culturey things and maybe pick up an instrument or another language. I feel like doing these things will also take me more away from my friends, but most of my friends are also in the business of becoming/growing up and I feel it won't take me away from them any more than they also need to focus on themselves. Origami, sewing, conventions, whatever I can do! I also just want to cook, bake and read more, but those will happen whether or not I want them to. Caveat: if I somehow get a car, this will mean more travel.

I want to figure out a plan for my life.
I just requested information from UPenn about degrees, but that isn't even the beginning of what I mean. I know I should go for higher education, but I kind of resent linguistics and would rather go with my minor: Religious Studies. However, that represents the issue of how to go about doing that. Most MA/PhD programmes require a bachelor's in the field, therefore making it more difficult to go about doing that, and I don't know if going for a second bachelor's would be worth it (even though I kind of want to do just that.) And I don't know to whom I should post any of my questions. And I don't know if grad school would be the best idea at all, and if going for a second bachelors is just my subconscious way of avoiding grad school applications, because I when I clicked on one (I have about a year left on my FIRST bachelors, so IDEK) I almost started crying/hyperventilating. FOR NO DEFINABLE REASON other than it scares the hell out of me. I would like to conquer my fears and figure out what my next step is before I get lost in what my vision is: without a vision, the people perish.

I want to do better planning.
All the above seem somewhat vague. I may try and go back and set definitive lists. With this comes better time management and scheduling (ohhh, I love scheduling.) Overall, I just want to be more proactive instead of reactive. I need to work more at achieving my goals, and I need to work more at having honest goals that are feasible.

So I guess that means all of the above are short-term goals: getting into good habits.

1. Eat well. Cook more, bake less.
2. Exercise regularly.
3. Keep on top of scheduling and school assignments.
4. Socialise only when necessary (sorry, friends!)
5. Get answers to Academia-related questions which will offer insight into the future.
6. Watch less television.
7. Spend more time writing and doing other artsy things: sewing, crafting, music. (Singing? 9_9)
8. Get a better job where I feel a bit respected and where I am better paid (even if only marginally.)
9. Handle money a bit better. (My bills aren't paid for me and I would like become at least a little bit fiscally independent.)
10. Work towards license and car.
11. Drink a bit less (I don't see this being an issue. I drank so much because I was depressed and had no hope. That won't be as big a theme this year. Also, I don't even want to get drunk.)
12. Get that degree.

And a few Long-Term Goals for kicks:

1. Grow up emotionally.
2. Try and be a little less evil, or at least hide it better.
3. Be more honest. With myself and with everybody else.
4. Get out of the country/get schooling out of the country.

So far, that's about it. I might post this up at the top and see about editing once I start moving in the right direction for all of these. :)