"I feel like I am in a box"

[kowgirlkiki]

Hello hello! I saw Micky this weekend when I went to Seattle to go party. It was way sweet! But now I am back to Wenatchee- back to reality. I found out that I really hate my life. It is so BLAHHHH I am kinda missing my old life in California... see I think i live in the past too much and I need to live for today. BLAH BLAH BLAH I hate the cliche "live for today"! It is the worst cliche ever. Because no one ever lives for the day. They always worry about the future. or fret about the past. I find that I have been haveing way too many dreams about the past lately- waking up in panic or tears. The worst part is- it normally is me waking in a couch somewhere- since I have moved out of my apartment on 5th st and and waiting until May 1st to move in to my apartment behind Shopko- the store for you. Ha! Nope.

So here is my feelings in a nut shell- BALAHOIEN