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So for some reason Danielle just came home and really freaked me out.
She said that she had a mini freak-out in class because she has so much to work on and went to the Brew afterward with Rachel & Jenni to figure it out and they decided it was the economy- the fear of not being able to find a real job, not being able to pay off credit card debts, not being able to work their part-time jobs while they continue acting and working on shows and taking classes as we do.
And now I'm sitting here thinking... why aren't I worried like that? Maybe because I don't watch the news and don't know every detail about the economy. But I think it's because I'm spoiled and know that my parents work hard to pay my rent and tuition while I focus on school (though I have a decent amount of loans to pay eventually), and it makes me feel bad. But I'm not the only one with that privilege. I save my money and use my credit card minimally. I eat cheap food and wear cheap clothes and I know that I will probably live in a cheap apartment with cheap furniture. But I'm okay with that. I have a lot of faith in my ability to find a job once I graduate. I have been told by a lot of professionals that I will be able to do what I want to do (and I am fine with the fact that I won't be earning much). I'm not scared. Is that weird?
I feel bad, but now I just want to hang out with Conor, because I know he doesn't give a shit about things like that and we can talk about the present. I'm super glad we're hanging out again, I missed that reliable cynicism.
She said that she had a mini freak-out in class because she has so much to work on and went to the Brew afterward with Rachel & Jenni to figure it out and they decided it was the economy- the fear of not being able to find a real job, not being able to pay off credit card debts, not being able to work their part-time jobs while they continue acting and working on shows and taking classes as we do.
And now I'm sitting here thinking... why aren't I worried like that? Maybe because I don't watch the news and don't know every detail about the economy. But I think it's because I'm spoiled and know that my parents work hard to pay my rent and tuition while I focus on school (though I have a decent amount of loans to pay eventually), and it makes me feel bad. But I'm not the only one with that privilege. I save my money and use my credit card minimally. I eat cheap food and wear cheap clothes and I know that I will probably live in a cheap apartment with cheap furniture. But I'm okay with that. I have a lot of faith in my ability to find a job once I graduate. I have been told by a lot of professionals that I will be able to do what I want to do (and I am fine with the fact that I won't be earning much). I'm not scared. Is that weird?
I feel bad, but now I just want to hang out with Conor, because I know he doesn't give a shit about things like that and we can talk about the present. I'm super glad we're hanging out again, I missed that reliable cynicism.