Life Time (sequel to ten seconds)
Life Time
Eunhyuk walked towards Donghae's room after the funeral. Everyone in Super Junior was very down. Leeteuk cried and tears flooded his face. Heechul went missing and no one knew where he was. Sungmin understand how painful it was to lose such a dongsaeng like Donghae. He really knew that Heechul loved his dongsaengs very much even if he could be cruel sometimes. Just like a hyung. Sometimes treated their dongsaengs badly, but secretly love them. Everyone was crying. Even Kibum. Even Henry. But Eunhyuk, he was smiling. To the fans, to everyone. But he didn't say anything. He was kinda emotionless. Like an empty vessel without a soul. He smiled but his eyes was blank. He didn't shed any tears. Ryeowook knew it was the manifestation of his unsheded tears. He didn't cry because he couldn't cry. He only watched silently as he saw Eunhyuk went to Donghae's room.
The dancing machine was broken. He knelt down to reach Donghae's bed sheet. Fixing it so it would be neater. Then he walked towards a group of CDs in the corner of them and sorted them out based on the musician. He kept on fixing and cleaning things. Then he found something interesting. A blue box. Covered with soft sapphire blue colored velveteen cloth. He opened the box. There's a big blue envelope. 'For Eunhyuk'. That was written on the face of the blue envelope. Eunhyuk stared at that thing and he spotted a blue fish outline on the lower right corner of the envelope. It got him more interested. So he decided to open the envelope and read a piece of paper in it. It was a letter. From Donghae to Eunhyuk.
He started to read the letter....
Dear Eunhyuk,
First thing first I wanna say sorry because I've never told anyone about my illness. Even you. I'm afraid that you'll be worried or something so I decided to keep it for myself. Honestly, I can't tell you. I don't have any courage to do so. Be cause I myself is afraid of this illness. I figured out about this two months ago. I was shocked. I've never imagined that something like that would catch up to me. I have a serious liver disease. I laughed at myself when I heard about this from the doctor. Then he said I'll only have some short time to live and that he was amazed because I can still do my activity like usual. He did tell me to take a rest, but I know if I did so then our duet time on the stage would only get shortened. So I choose to work. Because if I'm with you I'll feel stronger. Then a voice came up to my mind and whispered to me. Reminding me about how many time left for me in this world. I thought it was the voice of the reaper. Hahahaha, funny, right?? I still feel sad though....because I have to leave you alone.
Donghae's POV (flashback)
I can't hold the tears....they're all over my cheeks now. But I continue writing.
I can't imagine of leaving you. I still wanna be with you....I can't believe all these years were not enough for me, but I really wanna be with you to the end of everything and we'll always be together until then. But god has another plan for me. He wants me to return to him. But I still need you.
Things really got blurry because of the tears in my eyes. I hate myself for having such an illness. I hate myself because I have to leave my dear Hyukkie alone. I won't be able to have a duet with him anymore. Even if I want to do it so bad. If I may ask for some more time....God....please.
From now and then, please don't forget about me. In fact....can you give me your heart?? Only for me....I'm sorry for being egoist. But I will never be able to watch you go on a date with someone else. I'm afraid that you'll replace me with some other fresher mate....
Kidding....you can always start something new without me....
You're so skinny so eat well.
.Donghae.
I put the pen and the paper down. Inhaling. Exhaling. Then I fold it and put it into an envelope.
End of POV (end of flasback)
Eunhyuk could feel the hot tears streaming down like waterfall on his cheeks. He could finally cry after suffering for seconds to seconds after Donghae's death.
"I won't replace you with anyone, stupid fishy....", he rubbed his eyes.
He kept crying until he fell asleep.
Eunhyuk walked towards Donghae's room after the funeral. Everyone in Super Junior was very down. Leeteuk cried and tears flooded his face. Heechul went missing and no one knew where he was. Sungmin understand how painful it was to lose such a dongsaeng like Donghae. He really knew that Heechul loved his dongsaengs very much even if he could be cruel sometimes. Just like a hyung. Sometimes treated their dongsaengs badly, but secretly love them. Everyone was crying. Even Kibum. Even Henry. But Eunhyuk, he was smiling. To the fans, to everyone. But he didn't say anything. He was kinda emotionless. Like an empty vessel without a soul. He smiled but his eyes was blank. He didn't shed any tears. Ryeowook knew it was the manifestation of his unsheded tears. He didn't cry because he couldn't cry. He only watched silently as he saw Eunhyuk went to Donghae's room.
The dancing machine was broken. He knelt down to reach Donghae's bed sheet. Fixing it so it would be neater. Then he walked towards a group of CDs in the corner of them and sorted them out based on the musician. He kept on fixing and cleaning things. Then he found something interesting. A blue box. Covered with soft sapphire blue colored velveteen cloth. He opened the box. There's a big blue envelope. 'For Eunhyuk'. That was written on the face of the blue envelope. Eunhyuk stared at that thing and he spotted a blue fish outline on the lower right corner of the envelope. It got him more interested. So he decided to open the envelope and read a piece of paper in it. It was a letter. From Donghae to Eunhyuk.
He started to read the letter....
Dear Eunhyuk,
First thing first I wanna say sorry because I've never told anyone about my illness. Even you. I'm afraid that you'll be worried or something so I decided to keep it for myself. Honestly, I can't tell you. I don't have any courage to do so. Be cause I myself is afraid of this illness. I figured out about this two months ago. I was shocked. I've never imagined that something like that would catch up to me. I have a serious liver disease. I laughed at myself when I heard about this from the doctor. Then he said I'll only have some short time to live and that he was amazed because I can still do my activity like usual. He did tell me to take a rest, but I know if I did so then our duet time on the stage would only get shortened. So I choose to work. Because if I'm with you I'll feel stronger. Then a voice came up to my mind and whispered to me. Reminding me about how many time left for me in this world. I thought it was the voice of the reaper. Hahahaha, funny, right?? I still feel sad though....because I have to leave you alone.
Donghae's POV (flashback)
I can't hold the tears....they're all over my cheeks now. But I continue writing.
I can't imagine of leaving you. I still wanna be with you....I can't believe all these years were not enough for me, but I really wanna be with you to the end of everything and we'll always be together until then. But god has another plan for me. He wants me to return to him. But I still need you.
Things really got blurry because of the tears in my eyes. I hate myself for having such an illness. I hate myself because I have to leave my dear Hyukkie alone. I won't be able to have a duet with him anymore. Even if I want to do it so bad. If I may ask for some more time....God....please.
From now and then, please don't forget about me. In fact....can you give me your heart?? Only for me....I'm sorry for being egoist. But I will never be able to watch you go on a date with someone else. I'm afraid that you'll replace me with some other fresher mate....
Kidding....you can always start something new without me....
You're so skinny so eat well.
.Donghae.
I put the pen and the paper down. Inhaling. Exhaling. Then I fold it and put it into an envelope.
End of POV (end of flasback)
Eunhyuk could feel the hot tears streaming down like waterfall on his cheeks. He could finally cry after suffering for seconds to seconds after Donghae's death.
"I won't replace you with anyone, stupid fishy....", he rubbed his eyes.
He kept crying until he fell asleep.