Faith.
The past month of my life, has been a living hell. Everything has been GOOD EXCEPT for the fact that my whole thought process has been consumed with thoughts of death. Yes, you heard right, death. Its not that I think I'm dying or anything its that I can't really phathom what happens afterwards. So, I did a ton of soul searching. Limited myself to many people and to many things. Learned that I needed to renew my faith in God. So, that's what I've done. I'm honestly going to make some changes in my life that are going to be HARD to make, but I know, I can do it. Reading the Bible, talking with people who feel the same, reading inspirational books, etc has helped. Tonight, my dad and I had a long night. I went over there and I kid you not, I didn't even PLAN to go there. I was going to go another way but I felt as if I was guided to his house. We talked for 2 1/2 hours. Shared what we both think about life after death and I must say, it was incredible therapy. Now, I'm still scared because I don't think you can be 100% prepared but I'm more assured. If you don't believe the way I do, please do not flood my journal being rude. As I do respect other's views, this is kind of a "memory" entry for me. Anyways, theres an update on my life. Not TOO interesting but its going to be life changing. I'm excited.