Why?
Things have been goign alright lately... But I ahve been doing alot of thinking and none of it has been on something productive.. I Know everyone gets annoyed when I even mention Ryan's name.. But can you all really blame me?
Everyone I know has someone that they are seeing or eventually will see... Except me.. and maybe this kind of bothers me. But as I told Ryan the other night I like him alot because he makes me happy and I feel safer around him then anyone else.
Everyone has told me that he is not worth my time or I can do better.. But that is not what its like to me.. I really like Ryan and always have and that is the way things are they aren;t going to change right this second and I don';t plan on changing it anytime soon.
Not everyone is religious but Gode must ahve a reason for keeping him on my mind all the time. I don;t know how else to say it or explain it but I am trying to keep my feelings for out of the way when hanging out with my friends. but he is my friend too and that isn't going to change.
I don't want anyone to take this the wrong way liek I'm getting mad at them or anything but I just needed to ven t my frustration and try to figure out how to fix things that have gone ary with this whole situation....
Everyone I know has someone that they are seeing or eventually will see... Except me.. and maybe this kind of bothers me. But as I told Ryan the other night I like him alot because he makes me happy and I feel safer around him then anyone else.
Everyone has told me that he is not worth my time or I can do better.. But that is not what its like to me.. I really like Ryan and always have and that is the way things are they aren;t going to change right this second and I don';t plan on changing it anytime soon.
Not everyone is religious but Gode must ahve a reason for keeping him on my mind all the time. I don;t know how else to say it or explain it but I am trying to keep my feelings for out of the way when hanging out with my friends. but he is my friend too and that isn't going to change.
I don't want anyone to take this the wrong way liek I'm getting mad at them or anything but I just needed to ven t my frustration and try to figure out how to fix things that have gone ary with this whole situation....