Goodbye, sanity. We were never close anyway.
It is nine am, saturday morning.
I woke up yesterday at, oh, about 6.30, 7:00. That's pm, by the way. Even though I set my alarm, which plays the radio for an HOUR, so I should definitely have woken up. But no. No, I slept. Right. Through.
And now I'm going to attempt to keep on going until about ten am, whereupon I will nap for four hours and then try to get up so I don't continue the cycle, and go to bed at seven pm.
Except I have no willpower, so when I try to get up at 2pm I won't. I'll just keep sleeping, thereby wasting another weekend. Also, I really really need to go shopping. Like, all i have is condiments and potatoes, and that gets boring after about a day. But I won't because again, my willpower is nil, and it'd mean actually having to go shopping. Which I hate, because half the stuff I buy - bread, milk, chocolate, etc.. the essentials - is eaten my my flatmates. Not that I don't eat their food sometimes too, of course, but really. This is such an inefficient way of doing things. I don't understand why we can't all donate a little money to buying the flatwide necessities and then spend our own money in the specific things we want. But thats WAAAAAAAAY too complicated. So I just have to keep spending my money on things I don't eat.
I have no money! I have no JOB. I have no social life (thank you, internet). I have no actual sleep pattern(ditto). I JUST WANT THINGS TO FIX THEMSELVES WHAT IS THAT SUCH A BAD THING SERIOUSLY NRRRRRGH.
Also, I have a script to write. A. Script. Do you know how much of it i have written? About two pages. Out of about the ten that needs to be written. It has to be fifteen minutes long.
Fifteen. Fucking. Minutes.
I've never written a script before! You'd think they'd ease us into it gently, wouldn't you? You know, give us little scripts to write throughout the year to get us used to the formatting and to give us some ideas, then get us to write one big one at the end of the year.
But. No. No, thats WAAAAAAAAAAAAY too good an idea to be used in this college! No, they get us to do it in the first term. The first term? What. The. Ass.
Oh my God. I am SO TIRED. I'm not gonna make it. I'm rambling and ranting about nothing AGAIN and I can't stop myself. Help. Someone. Anyone! Tell me how to fix my sleep cycle! Give me a hand with this FUCKING SCRIPT HOLY SHIT.
Actually, thats a good idea. I'll post it here. If you want, help me out. You're probably more talented than me anyway.
Script: Sunny Days (inspired by Joshua Radin's "Sunny Days")
Setting - Psychiatric hospital.
Characters:
Inmates: Emma - Schizophrenic
Robin - Multiple Personality Disorder
Doctors: Ms. Webber
Mr. Delaney
And other misc. characters
Emma is in her twenties. She is skinny, as though she doesn’t eat enough. Her hair is short and usually messy, as she runs her hands through it constantly. She is dressed all in pale blue - the hospital's garments - and they are baggy and oversized. The sleeves and trousers are too long for her, and give her a childlike look. She is twitchy and almost birdlike in her mannerisms, especially when she talks to the doctors. She speaks quietly and with a slight accent.
Robin is about the same age, possibly older or younger, although she is older than 17 and younger than 35. She is of a more normal build and has tidy hair, about shoulder/mid back length. It is usually tied back in a bun/ponytail. She too is in hospital clothes, although hers fit well. She looks like a capable young woman. She is cheerful, for the most part, with lots of expansive gestures/hand movements made throughout her speech. She might possibly be given a strong accent, either Irish or Scottish. If not, RP will do, but she shouldn't be too well-spoken.
Ms. Webber is an older woman, possibly late thirties to early fifties. She is stern but fair in her dealings with the patients. She works long hours, and it shows. She might be slightly strained looking, perhaps slightly crumpled, as though she sleeps in her clothes, which are very professional. (Pencil skirt/trousers, white blouse/shirt, perhaps even a tie.) The audience should get the impression she tries hard to show her competence.
Mr. Delaney is a youngish man, about twenty/twenty nine. He is laid back and relaxed when he works with the patients, and is quite effusive in his mannerisms - very smiley, very tactile. He often will give a hug/handshake/clap on the back to Emma and Ms Webber, and seems to not notice his casual way of touching people. His clothes are smart-casual - usually jeans and an un-tucked shirt or t-shirt. (If the actor wears a t-shirt for any scene, it should be brightly coloured or childish.) He seems confident in himself.
Emma's mother is a harried older woman. She is widowed and seems perpetually tired. In many ways she is similar to Ms. Webber, but is a little less warm in personality. Her clothing is strict, reminiscent of a schoolteacher. She seems cold at times, but her love for her daughter should show through.
Act One, Scene One
We open to a blackout. There is a voiceover playing - the female voice is Emma's mother, the male voice is a doctor at the hospital.
EMMA'S MOTHER: I'm so glad you decided to take Emma on, doctor. I know that as her mother I should be the one taking care of her, but I simply can't deal with her anymore. Her episodes are getting longer and longer. She barely talks to any real people anymore…I decided that this would be best for her. Don't you think so, doctor?
THE DOCTOR: I think you're making the right decision here. Even though you may be her mother, you simply don't have the skills or knowledge of how to deal with the level of mental health issues that Emma has. Don't worry - we know how to deal with her problems here. Patients are assigned two doctors who exclusively work with them. She'll be well looked after. You might even get her back someday, cured and ready to face the real world again..
EMMA'S MOTHER: Thank you doctor. I certainly hope so..
(Voices fade out. We hear a door open and close. End scene.)
Act One, Scene Two
The blackout is no longer - suddenly the stage is lit up, and there is a young lady sitting in a soft armchair. There is also a television showing children's shows, which she is not paying much attention to. Robin walks in and sits in a chair close by her.
EMMA: Hello.
ROBIN: Hello yourself. What have they got you in here for?
EMMA: Oh..well, they say I can't look after myself. My parents put me here because they think the people I talk to aren't real. But they are, it's just that they only talk to me. They don't like anyone else.
ROBIN: I know what you mean. They put me in here because I get a bit different sometimes.
EMMA: A- a bit different? What do you mean?
ROBIN: Well, I have other people with me all the time.
EMMA: (looking around) I don't see anyone.
ROBIN: I know. They're inside me. Like, sometimes when I talk, I'm not talking, it's someone else.
EMMA: I don't think I understand.
ROBIN: You'll see.
THE PLAN
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ACT ONE
scene 1: voiceover, emma enters the hospital.
scene 2: robin and emma meet. bit of exposure: robin is MPD, emma is schizophrenic. they become friendly.
scene 3: skips several weeks. emma is getting used to the hospital. robin complains loudly that emma is never around, emma explains that she is having sessions with her two therapists. robin explodes with anger and leaves. delaney and webber come and fetch emma for her therapy.
scene 4: therapy. emma is sad (because robin was angry). the doctors ask her lots of questions, but she refuses to tell them robin's name. the therapy fades to black as they continue their work.
scene 5: emma is alone on stage, back in the first set where she met robin. she calls for her and when she doesn't appear, she breaks down. after crying, she has a short soliloquy about how she never had many friends as a child and so would often play alone, with imaginary friends - or so her parents thought ("they said they weren't real..BUT THEY WERE REAL TO ME," etc) and now her one real friend had run away from her, and how she is sorry for ignoring robin in favour of therapy. Robin appears at the end of the soliloquy after hearing the apology. the scene ends with their reunion.
ACT TWO
scene 1: Emma's mother visits the hospital to see her. she is assured that her daughter is getting better. however, she is unconvinced, and tells the doctors so, but her worries are seen as nonexistent and the visit ends unsuccessfully.
scene 2 :-----?
penultimate scene: the doctors discover emma is not recovering. her mother was right - she is still convinced of the reality of her delusions. emma hears them talking about putting her on medication and decides that she doesn't want that to happen. robin convinces her that she can escape the hospital. scene cuts out as she is about to describe the method.
final scene: emma and robin are alone on stage. emma is either sitting in a slump on the floor or in the foetal position. it is revealed that she is dying. the doctors arrive as she draws her final breaths and as she dies it is revealed that robin is not a real person. she is another of emma's delusions.