Oh, wow.
I knew I'd have something to write about today.
To think.. I haven't felt this way in years. I know I've had these odd feelings with Panther (this boy I was.. sorta? crushing on when Daryl and I broke up, it was very mutual..) but not like this. This one boy at college drives me insane.
We have been flirting like mad, or maybe that's just how I see it? He seems to go out of his way to find me, play around with me, converse, and call me.. Even texted me, and he HATES texting, haha.
And after all this, even when I gave him so many opportunities, he seemed to have forgotten to mention one small important piece of information; he has a girlfriend. Bryan told me this today, I think he sorta did that for spite, because I'm sure he's jealous of the relationship I was building with Eli. (The boy I'm talking about..)
I'm leaving so many parts of this out, I just don't feel like typing. But after I found out he had a girlfriend, I told Eli we needed to talk after class. So when the time came, Bryan, Leo, Eli and I were outside the Social Studies building, like we were every day after Humanities class, and talked for probably a half hour. I didn't really say anything to Eli, I wanted to see if he cared enough to ask me what was up. Eventually, he just said he had to go, and he slowly walked away. I had a feeling this wasn't over, I knew that he knew we needed to talk, and I could almost sense his curiosity. However, I remained silent, and let him walk away.
Not even sixty seconds later, my phone rang, as Bryan, Leo and I had decided to take a walk to the gas station for some fruit. It was Eli, and I blurted out "See, I knew he would call me. Oh, it's Eli by the way." The other boys had no idea what has been going on, or why I knew it would be him calling, but anyway... I answered and he pulled that "OH I forgot you wanted to talk, so tell me what's up," card. Love how he just happened to remember after walking away, and suddenly being oh so curious to know what I wanted, and call me up about it. I'm figuring at this point in time he's just too nervous to talk with me in person. So, I pretty much tell him I'm not going to tell him over the phone, it's something that should be talked about in person, and eventually he says he's going to pull around in the parking lot I was in and we could talk.
To my surprise, he pulled up besides my car (which I was loading my books and purse into) and he wanted me to get in, and go with him to the store really quick, so we could talk. I agreed, leaving Bryan and Leo alone, and off we went. So, basically we talked about him having a girlfriend, and what that meant, and our boundaries. And he just.. kept asking these weird questions, like "What if I didn't have a girlfriend, how would it be different?" He admitted I made him nervous, and I'm kinda certain he isn't happy in the relationship he's in, but that's going on little evidence, so I could be wrong.
Just too many things.. none of it adds up. He's so difficult yet simple to read all at once.
Maybe Bryan was right, I am over-analyzing things?
But why would he care so damn much?
To think.. I haven't felt this way in years. I know I've had these odd feelings with Panther (this boy I was.. sorta? crushing on when Daryl and I broke up, it was very mutual..) but not like this. This one boy at college drives me insane.
We have been flirting like mad, or maybe that's just how I see it? He seems to go out of his way to find me, play around with me, converse, and call me.. Even texted me, and he HATES texting, haha.
And after all this, even when I gave him so many opportunities, he seemed to have forgotten to mention one small important piece of information; he has a girlfriend. Bryan told me this today, I think he sorta did that for spite, because I'm sure he's jealous of the relationship I was building with Eli. (The boy I'm talking about..)
I'm leaving so many parts of this out, I just don't feel like typing. But after I found out he had a girlfriend, I told Eli we needed to talk after class. So when the time came, Bryan, Leo, Eli and I were outside the Social Studies building, like we were every day after Humanities class, and talked for probably a half hour. I didn't really say anything to Eli, I wanted to see if he cared enough to ask me what was up. Eventually, he just said he had to go, and he slowly walked away. I had a feeling this wasn't over, I knew that he knew we needed to talk, and I could almost sense his curiosity. However, I remained silent, and let him walk away.
Not even sixty seconds later, my phone rang, as Bryan, Leo and I had decided to take a walk to the gas station for some fruit. It was Eli, and I blurted out "See, I knew he would call me. Oh, it's Eli by the way." The other boys had no idea what has been going on, or why I knew it would be him calling, but anyway... I answered and he pulled that "OH I forgot you wanted to talk, so tell me what's up," card. Love how he just happened to remember after walking away, and suddenly being oh so curious to know what I wanted, and call me up about it. I'm figuring at this point in time he's just too nervous to talk with me in person. So, I pretty much tell him I'm not going to tell him over the phone, it's something that should be talked about in person, and eventually he says he's going to pull around in the parking lot I was in and we could talk.
To my surprise, he pulled up besides my car (which I was loading my books and purse into) and he wanted me to get in, and go with him to the store really quick, so we could talk. I agreed, leaving Bryan and Leo alone, and off we went. So, basically we talked about him having a girlfriend, and what that meant, and our boundaries. And he just.. kept asking these weird questions, like "What if I didn't have a girlfriend, how would it be different?" He admitted I made him nervous, and I'm kinda certain he isn't happy in the relationship he's in, but that's going on little evidence, so I could be wrong.
Just too many things.. none of it adds up. He's so difficult yet simple to read all at once.
Maybe Bryan was right, I am over-analyzing things?
But why would he care so damn much?