he is the lamb, she is the slaughter
Life kinda blows right now. I got hired at Gray-Daniel's, and then they became sketchy and wouldn't return any of my phone calls about when to come in. They finally called me this morning but what the hell am I supposed to tell Bahama Tan? GD could have definitely told me something last week so I could have told Melinda not to schedule me for this week. Booooo I hate disappointing people. Looks like I'm bout to let several people down.
I want to be back in Tuscaloosa. I spent all of this past semester in Jackson and I'm ready to go back to UA for classes. I just don't know how I'm going to be able to go to school and have a job that'll pay a car payment. I should have never left T-town. Well actually I did the right thing b/c I would have probably failed out anyways b/c of drinking. I want to go back and actually be serious about school, and I can't imagine going anywhere else. I mean, I could go to a community college or whatever but a 4-year university besides UA? Hell no. Neverrrr. I hate thinking about life and the things I need to do so everytime it crosses my mind I switch to thinking about something else. All I'm doing is putting it off. =\ I need to figure something out.
Finally went back to the gump this past weekend. Let's just say, I would have had a better time working all weekend in Jackson. Yeahhhh, that's how bad my weekend was overall. I mean I got to see a few of my friends, didn't get to see like 4 people I usually always see but oh well. The weekend had some good moments to it, but overall it just fuckin sucked. Alot of it had to do with people not being in town or being at Jubilee (which sucked hard core this year and I did not go) and then alot of it had to do w/ being stuck w/ family members that don't give a damn about anything anymore.
My dad acts like he has no interest in me whatsoever. The past 2 times me and Shelly have been in town we've gone to IHOP for breakfast with him. He basically just talks to shell the whole time and doesnt really pay me that much attention. So that's why I didn't try to have anything to do with him the rest of the time.
My brother has completely removed himself from the family (not that there is a family anymore) but he doesn't have anything to do with anyone anymore. I barely talk to him ever. This weekend was the first time I've seen him since Christmas and I had only talked to him once on the phone since Christmas. I've seen him all of 6 times in the past 6 years. He just acts like he hates to have anything to do with us. I can understand feeling that way towards mom b/c she's crazy as hell but I'm not really sure why he acts that way to dad; I guess b/c of a grudge from long ago he hasn't gotten over. I sure as hell don't understand why he doesn't even try to talk to me or shelly. Oh well, b/c I don't care anymore. It's sad, b/c I don't even feel like he's my brother.. he just feels like someone I've known for a long time.
OK so anyways, jist of this entry is that the gump town sucks and there's not that many reasons to go back anymore. Oh and that I suck at life.
I want to be back in Tuscaloosa. I spent all of this past semester in Jackson and I'm ready to go back to UA for classes. I just don't know how I'm going to be able to go to school and have a job that'll pay a car payment. I should have never left T-town. Well actually I did the right thing b/c I would have probably failed out anyways b/c of drinking. I want to go back and actually be serious about school, and I can't imagine going anywhere else. I mean, I could go to a community college or whatever but a 4-year university besides UA? Hell no. Neverrrr. I hate thinking about life and the things I need to do so everytime it crosses my mind I switch to thinking about something else. All I'm doing is putting it off. =\ I need to figure something out.
Finally went back to the gump this past weekend. Let's just say, I would have had a better time working all weekend in Jackson. Yeahhhh, that's how bad my weekend was overall. I mean I got to see a few of my friends, didn't get to see like 4 people I usually always see but oh well. The weekend had some good moments to it, but overall it just fuckin sucked. Alot of it had to do with people not being in town or being at Jubilee (which sucked hard core this year and I did not go) and then alot of it had to do w/ being stuck w/ family members that don't give a damn about anything anymore.
My dad acts like he has no interest in me whatsoever. The past 2 times me and Shelly have been in town we've gone to IHOP for breakfast with him. He basically just talks to shell the whole time and doesnt really pay me that much attention. So that's why I didn't try to have anything to do with him the rest of the time.
My brother has completely removed himself from the family (not that there is a family anymore) but he doesn't have anything to do with anyone anymore. I barely talk to him ever. This weekend was the first time I've seen him since Christmas and I had only talked to him once on the phone since Christmas. I've seen him all of 6 times in the past 6 years. He just acts like he hates to have anything to do with us. I can understand feeling that way towards mom b/c she's crazy as hell but I'm not really sure why he acts that way to dad; I guess b/c of a grudge from long ago he hasn't gotten over. I sure as hell don't understand why he doesn't even try to talk to me or shelly. Oh well, b/c I don't care anymore. It's sad, b/c I don't even feel like he's my brother.. he just feels like someone I've known for a long time.
OK so anyways, jist of this entry is that the gump town sucks and there's not that many reasons to go back anymore. Oh and that I suck at life.