i dunno

[kotten_kandy22]

todaii was an alright daii. i got thrown out of my last block class because i wouldnt give mr morgan my cd player. he freaked out and was like " either give me the cd player or go to the office!" trying to sound all macho like he was a cool guy or something. so i stood up and said " fine ! iam going to the office!" and walked out. i mean this teacher looks like mr rodgers and is so pathetic you kinda feel bad for him. he is so stupid. his class is a bunch of bull shit! on top of all that i am havin male problems... i needa a boii . really bad. it makes me sad cuzi am all alone. cheri even has a boy friend. okay cheri has aboy friend and i dont ( no offense) it is usually the other way around! i want a boy friend so i dont feel like no one cares. i just want some one who will hold me and love mee and kiss me. i want a boy hus housei can go to with make up running down my face from constatn tears and he would look me in the eye and sey " baby you're beatiful!" i no it way to much to ask for but i want a boy friend! life is getting shittier by the day. it is almost ten weeks until my birthdaii and i am excitedbut i feel really bad because it will be one year gone by with out my dad hear to figth with me. i have moved from fighting with my dad to fighting with my kid sister. i hate fighting with her because she always wins. with me adn my dad i always one!
it makes me sad because me and my dad did not part on good terms. just because he died does not excuse how bad i was to him. we argued the last night he was alive. we were so rotten to each other! we sperated with too much unfinished bussiness. it sux cause his heart attack was caused by stress and most of his stress was beacuse me adn him fought like to olkd ladies over a fucking quarter! it sux and i feel terrible it is like i killed my father. my sister must really blame me. it sux